AN: ZaDr and character death. Yeah this was inspired by the song 'bouncing off clouds' by Tori Amos.
bouncing off clouds
He knew he was sick and he knew he was dying. Why didn't he tell me? We loved each other. I trusted him and he trusted me. So why didn't he tell me? I would've helped him find a cure. I loved him and he didn't tell me he was dying!!
Inner voice: What was his reason?
Dib:What?
Inner voice: Did you ask yourself if he had a reason not to tell you?
Dib: I guess not..
Inner voice: Exactly. Now ask yourself what reason would he have to keep it from you?
Dib: Maybe he thought I'd...worry too much about losing him...I should go ask his computer if he told it anything.
I'm looking around the unused main room of the base. The computer screen lights up and it asks me what I want. It seems rather melancholy if not outright depressed. I interrogate it for a few minutes and it tells me everything since he didn't forbid it to tell me what it knows. I ponder the information and it begins to run a video he made before he died.
"Is this thing on? Is it recording? THIS IS ZIM!!"
That last was followed by a coughing fit and soon Zim stopped hacking as suddenly as he'd started.
"Dib-love if you are watching this I didn't survive the sickness. I wanted you to know that I loved you more than anything and that my chances of survival were slim to none. I've programmed the base to recognize you as it's new master when I'm gone. Gir will also follow your commands now. I hope you'll take care of my base as it and Gir was all I had for the longest time before you admitted that you cared about me. There has been no cure for my illness for hundreds of years so I did all I could. I waited. Apparently I wasn't strong enough. I also engineered a smeet from our DNA. Please take care of little Sage for me."
Another coughing fit ensued and Zim reached up to turn off the recording slowly. But spoke between coughs before finally pressing the button.
"I love you so much Dib and I'm sorry."
I can't stop the tears from falling. I wipe them away slowly and stand up. I can't leave his base to rot anymore. I'm going to take care of it now and our little smeet as well
It's been three weeks since I moved into Zim's base. It's quite cozy here I found Sage in the lab. She hatched the next day and I let the computer take care off the hatching and prepping her for life. She was beautiful with bright crimson eyes and surprisingly violet antennae. She's my little darling and she reminds me so much of Zim. She's got his temperament and his ego. But I love her all the same.
She asked me not too long ago where her mother was. I told her the only thing that came to mind.
"Mommy's bouncing off clouds Darling."
she looked at me funny but I think she understood. She hasn't asked me since then. Zim, wherever you are know that we both love you and that I never stop thinking about you.
Fin