I'm Sorry Rafe

Disclaimer:Not mine, don't sue.

I'm sorry Rafe, why did I have to follow my head, and not my heart?
From the beginning I knew I loved her. But I shouldn't have put her
off for so long? If I had just approached her first in the beginning
this wouldn't have all happened. The first time I saw her, in her
white nurse outfit, I was about ready to die. But I had to be a noble
idiot. Why didn't I say something then? Now I've screwed
everything up.

I've never loved Evelyn, and now that I am dying I realize that I
should have never even tried to subsitute her with Evelyn.

I loved Betty from the beginning, till the end in secret.

We loved each other, just once, right after we found out that you
were "dead". She was crying in my arms, I was crying on her
shoulder, she told me that she wanted it then, it was her first, it
was my first too. I don't thing I could have loved anyone more that
I had loved her. Everyday I saw her and couldn't be with her killed
me. She didn't want to hurt Red, she was such a good kid.
Why did she have to go?

So I guess when I took those bullets for you, I did a you and Evelyn
a favor. I could be with Betty, and you two could be with eachother
like you were destined to be.