(A/N:I ship AceSabo, they are my otp and I don't see any fanfics that's written for them, so I'm doing it myself until there's enough AceSabo out there. And forgive my grammar it's my very first time writing a fanfic and English is not my mother language, so yeah. And the poem is mine! No copying!)
Disclaimer: Nope, don't go there
Warning: Language and swearing, it's my otp so it's a romance not a bromance, so slash
You remember how Luffy sort of hugged you and stood speechless, hearing everything you say without interrupting, like he's hearing your voice for the last time, oh. Right, it was his last time. So he does care. About me. About him.
These thoughts of Luffy and him comforted you, making your pain become numb and the affection you hold for them waved through your body. Affection and regret. For the last and second time you regret the times you fought without Luffy and him.
You kneel there saying the things you always meant to say to him since the day he became your sworn brother, and he would have cried, you just know he would, like a child if the shock hadn't blocked the realization to his mind. All while you were saying, you thought about the days you spent with Luffy and him. You thanked your little brother for loving you, you-the only son of the Pirate King, the monster, and you regretted not telling these words to him.
And you start remembering the things you blocked away from your brain when he had gone away.
~Years in Past~
When you lose something you can't replace
You'll miss someone you can't get back
You stood there reading the things he wrote. Each words were tearing your heart into pieces. And the words that are rolling around your mind don't make it any better.
He is gone
He has done
Everything he could for you
He loved you with a fire hot
And waited for you to notice
The undying love he got
He cared about you with a silent worry
He was really patient about you
Waited, waited with no force or hurry
Only now you are admitting, only now you are realizing, how stupid you were
You never admitted how much you loved
That gap-toothed goofy grin
You always teased him about his teeth, but now, you want to take everything you said back. He was really childish with those teeth, so lively.
That endearing caring smile
You always said that he was too soft, but now you see, you only said those words because you were jealous that Luffy got all his affection and not you, you always wanted that tenderness to be hold towards you and not that idiot.
That stupidly cute snicker
You always made faces when he acted shy and snickered, you made him thought that the faces you made was out of disgust, heck, you even thought that yourself, but now, you understand that you only loved his disgustingly cute snicker.
That warm affectionate voice
You always told him to shut up when he sang a lullaby so Luffy can sleep, he always obeyed and fell silent, and your gut always clenched with something, you thought it was a relief, but now you realize that it was regret. You loved his voice.
Those ocean calm eyes
Those eyes, blue, calm and beautiful eyes, that always guarded your dreams. At first, you thought it was just a haunting thing of your sleep, but now you admit, it was your dream to hold the gaze of those jewels that are his eyes towards to you, only to you, all to you. But now it's too late to keep that dream.
He was the point of your laughter, happiness and joy
He was the most important living in your world
To say simply
And you never realized that until this very moment
To tell idly
You loved him.
Funny how people start regretting only in the lonely end
And you feel regret for the first time in your life. You loved him too much
~Present day~
Shit. You feel it. You're not going to last long.
Shit, shit, shit. FUCK. You can't keep the promise you hold for him, and that's what you're regretting. Heh. He is the main source of your regret, isn't he?
Thankfulness, affection and regret are the last things you felt before the peace hit you.
As the darkness start to surround you, you think of those eyes and smiles, you think of him.
"Sorry"-and you're a goner.
When you open your eyes, you're quite confused. You check your chest for any hole in it, none. Heh. A nightmare then…..wait. Where the hell are you?
All you see is the sky when you look up, and you feel some kind of fluffy pillow under your body. You stand up and-WHAT?!
You slowly start to realize that you ARE actually dead and not in a hell. You were pretty sure you would have ended up in hell, but no, you're in paradise.
You slowly scan the clouds and blindingly bright color of the blue sky, and you spot a something from afar.
You start running towards whatever or whoever it is in there. You pause you wild running and start walking calmly, you gotta give that thing or body a good first impression, right?
When you come close, you see a white, pure white wing on it's back. Angel?
You walk really slowly now, carefully even, you need to be alarmed, just a habit that was kicked into you when you were a child.
"…..oh, poor Ace"-you froze. You're going mad, the first thing that came to your mind, yep, you are. Because the voice was a little too familiar to you. It just can't be.
But somehow, you put aside your pride and have some hope. The closer you get to this angel the more your hope get up. You don't want your hope to crash, no, not again.
All those years, you secretly looked for him, hoping he's still alive. You always get your hopes up when you see a blonde curly hair with a hat on it. And always get your hopes crashed twice as hard when you actually believe it's him and that it's not him at all. So you learned to not get your hopes up.
But this time, your hope is getting up fast, too fast, you hope it won't hurt that much when it falls down.
The angel before you has a hat familiar hat to his, familiar short to his and a familiar hair to his. And what made it even more confusing? The angel had the same weight as he did when I last saw him.
Suddenly there's a strong breeze that's caused by whatever the angel is doing with his hands. The hat fell down right beside my feet, I look down and I know it will hurt a lot if my hope crashes down. The hat has the same goggles he had.
You look to the angel with a rush. You wait, patiently for the first time in your life, or afterlife.
The angel was making something out of the cloud, that's familiar to your necklace.
"Ace, you came a little too early,"-you froze the second time since you woke up. It's him. It just had to be him! You think you pretty much deserve it, deserve to meet him again. You don't want to count the countless time you got you hope crashed, because it's too much. You don't want to miss him and tear you heart, because you don't have any heart to be torn anymore. You don't want to regret again.
The angel looks around and your breathing stopped. "You didn't keep your promise, asshole"-it's him. It's Sabo.