Prologue
My name is Inuyasha.
My mother and father died when I was very young.
That was the start of my pain.
But with their death came the realization of a wonderful spark inside me.
It was a comfort more than anything. It was a strange feeling really. To know that you had such a wonderful gift and weren't able to use it properly until taught. I was born with a rare gift that many would give their immortal souls to posses. Get this, it would only work properly in my hands too.
But… that didn't stop what happened to me.
That I lost my gift because of jealousy and fear. I suppose I deserved it. After all I didn't trust that I could stay, that I had to carve my way into their hearts by doing what I thought was best.
They turned on me.
My heart argues that they couldn't abandon you, but the reality had been burned into my mind.
Unable to forget.
Afterwards… I tried something else. I acted like nothing could hurt me. That didn't last long.
Everyone needs someone right?
So I tried again. I didn't go after a large group of friends and settled on one person. Whose opinions and smile made my world stop. After a while I began to think that this was better than what I had before.
I was wrong.
The pain of that betrayal almost killed me. Literally…
Then my world was turned once again. But I was forever changed by it. The scowl I constantly wear to protect myself is not just a barrier to ward off people or potential friends now.
It was out of sheer frustration.
What good was my training and abilities when all they wanted was someone to shoulder the dirty work and strength of the opponents? None. What good were the abilities anyway when you couldn't use them? I didn't trust my training anymore anyways. It's too painful.
Damn them!
It had been too long since I had any sort of interaction with my barriers down. All my defensiveness had warded off my abilities to communicate. Anything I said would have come across totally wrong anyways.
So I stopped trying.
I wasn't ready for it when it happened. My god was I such an idiot.
In love?
I thought that I had fallen for the other one. I was so wrong. Then, the other person came back…sort of. Confusion. Anxiety. Fear. They all came back, making me more insecure than ever.
I still am.
So I'll protect the one I love by trying to not seem interested. Snort! Yeah right. I have to at least try to atone for what the other has become.
Because of me…
Guilty. Guilt is my only weapon I have to remind myself that I can't get close to her. She'll leave me after all this is over.
Another betrayal. I don't think I'll survive this one.
At least when this is all over I can look back and say that I tried my best with what I was given. I won fights that my father couldn't have won! And he was a taiyoukai! But…
I have one regret
I'm sorry ookami. I let you down.
Author note. Gomen! I had a problem with my new computer so it had to be sent away to get fixed. Thank god for warranty! I'm back! Like? Dislike? Tell me to continue or not. This is only the appetizer people.
My name is Inuyasha.
My mother and father died when I was very young.
That was the start of my pain.
But with their death came the realization of a wonderful spark inside me.
It was a comfort more than anything. It was a strange feeling really. To know that you had such a wonderful gift and weren't able to use it properly until taught. I was born with a rare gift that many would give their immortal souls to posses. Get this, it would only work properly in my hands too.
But… that didn't stop what happened to me.
That I lost my gift because of jealousy and fear. I suppose I deserved it. After all I didn't trust that I could stay, that I had to carve my way into their hearts by doing what I thought was best.
They turned on me.
My heart argues that they couldn't abandon you, but the reality had been burned into my mind.
Unable to forget.
Afterwards… I tried something else. I acted like nothing could hurt me. That didn't last long.
Everyone needs someone right?
So I tried again. I didn't go after a large group of friends and settled on one person. Whose opinions and smile made my world stop. After a while I began to think that this was better than what I had before.
I was wrong.
The pain of that betrayal almost killed me. Literally…
Then my world was turned once again. But I was forever changed by it. The scowl I constantly wear to protect myself is not just a barrier to ward off people or potential friends now.
It was out of sheer frustration.
What good was my training and abilities when all they wanted was someone to shoulder the dirty work and strength of the opponents? None. What good were the abilities anyway when you couldn't use them? I didn't trust my training anymore anyways. It's too painful.
Damn them!
It had been too long since I had any sort of interaction with my barriers down. All my defensiveness had warded off my abilities to communicate. Anything I said would have come across totally wrong anyways.
So I stopped trying.
I wasn't ready for it when it happened. My god was I such an idiot.
In love?
I thought that I had fallen for the other one. I was so wrong. Then, the other person came back…sort of. Confusion. Anxiety. Fear. They all came back, making me more insecure than ever.
I still am.
So I'll protect the one I love by trying to not seem interested. Snort! Yeah right. I have to at least try to atone for what the other has become.
Because of me…
Guilty. Guilt is my only weapon I have to remind myself that I can't get close to her. She'll leave me after all this is over.
Another betrayal. I don't think I'll survive this one.
At least when this is all over I can look back and say that I tried my best with what I was given. I won fights that my father couldn't have won! And he was a taiyoukai! But…
I have one regret
I'm sorry ookami. I let you down.
Author note. Gomen! I had a problem with my new computer so it had to be sent away to get fixed. Thank god for warranty! I'm back! Like? Dislike? Tell me to continue or not. This is only the appetizer people.