A/N: I am unsure of the pairing righ now. But I know its probably slash. I'm thinking the guy the narrator keeps referring to is Logan. So this isn't his pont of view, but hey I may change that. It is a work in progress after all.
Ignore the pain… that's what I keep telling myself.
Ignore the stares from your team mates…. even as impossible as it may seem.
I can't trust them, can't trust myself.
I'm alone in this cruel world now.
I have to run; have to get away from these hypocritical people.
The ones I had trusted with my life just a few days ago.
Now they seem to want me dead or don't care if I live or not.
I had helped save their butts many a time, but when I need their help they seem to shy away.
If only he was here. He would help, he would care. Heck he would even straighten out the others. But now I can't even rely on him. He's been gone for months now, left without a word.
That was an even bigger hurt than this.
Ignore them, ignore myself. That's all I can do. There's no other way, for if I acknowledge any of it I would break down. Might not even be able to get back up again.
They blame me for his leaving, I even blame myself.
Yet I can not think of a reason for him to up and leave. What had I done?
It doesn't matter anymore really. It's too late to change the past, even if I knew what needed to be changed. I can't bring him back. He seems to have disappeared off the face of the earth. And maybe he has. But it's too late now.
Must ignore it all, and run. Leave everything behind.