Monster, killer, night creature, blood-sucker…..
So many names for just one living being.
Vampire.
Why people can't simple call thing by their names. It wasn't her that choice to live this type of life, to tell the true after everything that she had seen she would gladly live the short life of a human together with kaede and the rest of the village, where Sesshoumaru left her. But this is her destiny so she would live it till her death.
Laughing of herself, she let the soft wind take away those silly though far away. To much time was already spent in think what could have happend if she had stay human.
500 year ago she was transform in to this, she should already been used to this live, but sometimes it was till hard to see the people around you aged, die, feel the live of a human being slip trough your fingers, feel the rush after killing,yes it still hurt to think that there was no longer a trace of the human she used to be in the sinful body that her aged soul habit.
Leting her mind slip away once again, painful thoughs enter her mind as she began to think about her home.
Japan…
Sesshoumaru…
….Jaken…
…Ah-uh…
The lost and forgotten childhood. That was a fase of her live, she didn't like to remember, it made her remember that in times she had fear the death like her own victims now fear.
In all her 500 years of existence as a vampire, the elders always have told her that over time her human memories would fade as the humanity itself within her would disappear.
But her humanity had already disappeared, but the memories were still marked in her mind like a mark of fire, she was sure that if she closes her eyes she could smell the sakuras, hear the sound of birds and the heavy footsteps of ah-uh, Jaken annoying voice and commanding voice but at the same time pleasing of her master.
No, she had to stop calling him that because it had already passed 504 years since the last time she saw him, she could remembered it like it was yesterday ,that time she had only 12 year old when Sesshomaru had left her with kaede ,never seen or hear anything from him since that day ,only four years later of this sad separation she had been transformed in to this ,at that time she had turned 16 years a few days before.
Even today when looking at the mirror or even in a ball she would fill jealous of other women human and yokais it didn't matter ,the feeling was always there, she would never be able to have a family not only because she was a vampire but also for being trapped in the body of a teenager of 16 years.
She knew she would never have more curves or appeared more mature, although many adolescent boys and some demons have assured her that she had a devastating beauty with her black hair half wavy half curly, shiny and seductive brown eyes and red lips.
Rin felt that this was not enough, she wanted to feel much more, the desire of someone else for you, wish she could cry/ scream of passion while making love with someone, wanted to feel safe and warm in the strong arms of her lover and husband.
She wanted…company.
But that company would never come because she is a killer, a monster, night creature, a being cold and empty that killed to quench its thirst.