I still don't believe myself. After the Ouran Fair, I've been experiencing the feeling I thought I'd never have. Lately it seems to be forming into an epiphany. I now realize the reason my Father truly is. I now realize that the dream I've been chasing after is nothing but wasted effort.

Somehow I knew that title didn't apply to me and Tamaki will soon find out, but I don't mind. I'll still be treated well. But... there's something else I want... something else I need...

"When they're young many assume they have all the time in the world but really that is never the case," said my Father, "Don't waste your time with something that will ultimatly have no value."

"You don't know anything about the Host Club," said Haruhi to my surprise, "Kyoya-sempi works around the clock to make sure everyone here is enjoying themselves. And did you ever stop to think that entertaining others might bring each of us some fulfillment? How can you possibly say that what we do here is a waste of time? I don't care what you say. I think Kyoya-sempi is amazing."

The look on my Fathers face is forever engraved in my memories. It was at that moment I finally decided to take a step further out of my box for my sake, Haruhi's sake, and Tamaki's sake. Tamaki... what would he think of me when I tell him I want to look for better things? That I want to make sure the Host Club has him in it. That I have fallen in love with Haruhi Fujioka...

The following Monday after, I walked down the hallway to music room #3, early for Tamaki as usual. But this time, it felt kind of awkward. Tamaki is my best friend but I have a feeling that he might have realized his feelings towards Haruhi. Suddenly, I felt sort of depressed.

I opened the door to see Tamaki arranging out costumes for today. Egyptians.

"Hello there Kyoya!"

I smiled, "Hey Tamaki. How are you?"

He lowered his head. "I'm fine, thank you." He didn't look at me.

"You heard didn't you," I said matter-of-factly.

"I have," he exclaimed, "I can't believe you gave up your dream! Was it because of me?"

I lowered my head and pushed up my glasses. "No. I had realized what I really wanted that's all."

His eyes stared at me for a moment and then slowly a smile dawned. "I'm glad to hear that," he said. He turned and threw a set of clothes my way. "Now hurry up and get changed."

I grabbed the clothes and headed to the next room to put away my things. As I was undressing I heard the twins come in. I had suspicions that one or both may have feelings for Haruhi. I lowered my gaze. A few minutes later, I heard Mori and Hunny. Everyone sounded quite happy despite recent events.

I didn't hear Haruhi come and wondered if she would now that I her the debt was paid. Tamaki would be unhappy... I would be unhappy...

"Come on!" called Hikaru from the other side of the door, "Are you done changing yet? There's a line waiting!"

I fixed my hair then opened the door. "What I can't have a little time to myself?"

"Not with the ego you have," said Kaoru.

I walked over to Tamaki's side as the twins changed.

"Hmm... Haruhi's a little late," mused Tamaki.

I looked at him. "Tamaki. I told her the debt was paid. She had reached the maximum requests."

He just looked at me. "Oh," he looked like he might cry, "In that case all we can do is hope and/or go look for her later."

I knew he didn't want to lose Haruhi, none of us did.

"It's almost time!" exclaimed Hunny.

"Yeah," said Mori.

"Alright men," Tamaki pointed his finger at no one in particular, "Smiles on. The ladies are about to arrive."

As expected, three minutes later we were in business but for some reason my heart wasn't in it.

"Kyoya," said a voice from behind me.

"Yes Renge?"

"This is your last year in the host club isn't it?"

"Well after summer break it will be," I kept my head low.

Renge pondered that for a moment. "I would be the perfect candidate to replace you don't you think?"

I suddenly had the urge to hit her. I turned to her and smiled. "Of course you would."

She pumped a fist in the air and pranced her way over to the twins.

The club went on and Haruhi still don't show up. After all the guests had left, Tamaki ran up to me. "We need to find our little Haruhi! I need to know if she's safe."

Yes! I nodded and flipped my cell phone out, pulling off the Egyptian wear as I did so.

Tamaki addressed the others. "Okay we are initiating plan 'Find Haruhi'."

"Yes Mr. Ootori?" said a voice in the phone.

"Send a search party to go and look for Haruhi Fujioka."

"Yes sir."

I closed the phone and nodded to Tamaki.

"Alright men," the King said, "Activate plan."

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