I still don't own anything and Jack and Ianto belong to BBC and RTD and I'm just playing with them (god how much I hope I could add literally to that). The title 'End is forever' is the name of the third Ataris album.
Just a small ficlet I wrote during my english class. It's angsty and after it I immediately started writing something fluffy but I decided to post it because well... it is sad but I kind of like it. Jack and his immortality always gives me ideas and I wanted to try something tragic for a change.
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He loses everything in the end, even the sundowns. He loses the memories of the golden sand in Boeshane Peninsula and he forgets how that sand felt under his bare feet. He is forever and he will watch how the last star expanses and the universe collapses to the zero point just to start all over again. He will probably watch the new rising of humankind and see it fall.
And everyday he just wants to follow his Ianto to where ever he went. Death is nothing but maybe with Ianto it would've been different. A lot less lonelier at least, having someone to scream with. Ianto always fixed things. Ianto cheered him up. Ianto made him happy. Ianto made this all worth of something. Ianto gave him a meaning.
But the time flies and he stays still until Ianto is nothing but a name of the person he once loved and lost all too soon. And time keeps flying until he forgets that too and wakes up to yet another planets death wondering what love means. Like that he keeps losing everything until he's just a shell full of lost things, undefined words and empty people sized holes. Slowly he forgets his own name and turns to nothing himself.
Sometimes someones words float up to the surface saying that 'being with Ianto would make this all better' but he's too far gone to understand what being with someone means and Ianto becomes just the static of the universe that still doesn't let him die.