I'm so weak willed (against myself) I was planning on releasing this fic after I finished my other one so I didn't have so many fic's to update but I pressured myself into releasing this -_- damn...
Oh well I hope you like it this is my first sad? fic anyway tell me how I did.
And this is an 182769...I think? If you didn't already know.
Disclaimer: Om nom nom nom...Oh wait I was supposed to be disclaiming stuff. I don't own KHR or anything of the characters or whatever...
Tsuna took a deep breath and prepared himself for what he was about to after all it's not every day you confess to the person you're in love with. Although the confession could end horribly but Tsuna wasn't that worried because in a couple of months the person he was in love with would be moving on to high school which was also part of the reason Tsuna had to confess now.
Tsuna clenched his shaking hand before lifting it up to knock on the prefects door, "Hi-hibari, are you there?" Tsuna called, the confidence he had built up crumbling away.
"Come in", Hibari said from the other side of the door.
Tsuna opened the door hesitantly and peeked inside to seeing Hibari sitting calmly at his desk arranging papers, "Herbivore, come in and close the door", Hibari said, turning his attention from the papers to Tsuna.
Tsuna entered the disciplinary office like a little rabbit entering a wolf's den, quietly and slowly, as if the wolf would snatch him up if he made any sudden movements.
"What do want?" Hibari stated, placing his elbow on the side of his big, black chair and leaning on it as if to say 'I'm waiting'.
"I-I-I", Tsuna stuttered, pausing for a moment to take a deep breath, "H-Hi-Hibari for a w-while now I-I-I've been", Tsuna stuttered, his body tensed and his eyes closed, blushing like there was no tomorrow. Though Tsuna had considered there would be no tomorrow after he confessed to Hibari.
Taking the last bit of his courage Tsuna took a huge breath and prepared to scream his confession at Hibari, "IN-"
"I know what you're going to say", Hibari said rolling his eyes, "is that seriously all you came to say?" Hibari asked, sinking back in to his chair, a smirk adorning his porcelain face.
Tsuna eyes darted open as his heart tighten and the blush drain out his cheeks, "if you have time to think about frivolous things like this then you have enough time to study, you are last in your year you know."
Tsuna felt his heart break into a thousand pieces and his mind blanched then slowly it set in the he had been rejected in the worst possible way. Not being able to take it anymore Tsuna turned on his heel and ran out the door to get as far away from the man who had broken his heart.
Hibari simply stood there and watched as Tsuna ran from the head disciplinary office and out of his sight before wandering over to the window to watch the heartbroken teen run from school. Placing one hand on the spot Tsuna had been moments ago.
"Tsuna, if the cloud gets too close to the sky the cloud will start to darken and eventually pollute the beautiful sky the cloud loves so much", Hibari said dejectedly, his hand falling from the glass to rest by his side.
"Hibari, Hibari", Hibird said sadly, flying over and snuggling in to Hibari's shoulder.
'Cruel' was one of the words that raced through Tsuna's mind as he crouched behind the dumpsters at the back of Gokudera's apartment building, crying his heart out. (1)
Chrome's voice suddenly rang out across the abandoned alley, "bossu?"
Tsuna looked up with tear filled eyes to meet Chrome's worried one, "bossu are you alright?"
"I-I'm perfectly fine Chrome", Tsuna said, violently wiping his tears away.
"B-but you're crying, what happened?" Chrome said softly, obviously worried.
"Everything great ", Tsuna said, with a heart wrenching smile, "the better question is why are you here Chrome?"
"Everything is obviously not great. Tell me what it is that's bothering you" Chrome pleaded.
"I asked you why you were here, isn't it impolite to not answer someone question?" Tsuna said stubbornly, his anger flaring from his emotionally unstable state.
"I'm here looking for things to put in kokuyo to make it feel homelier, the people in these sorts of apartments always throw out stuff that's perfectly good. Now tell me what's making you unhappy?"
"I'm fine", Tsuna said firmly, wishing that Chrome would leave him alone to cry until Gokudera and maybe Yamamoto came back to the apartment.
Chrome was frustrated and just about ready to explode in a tornado of friendly worry when she switched with Mukuro. Tsuna felt chills go down his spine and his hyper intuition kicked in moments before the switch and was already on his feet and ready to run when Mukuro appeared.
"Ora, that's not very nice, first your distressing Chrome and now you're running away from me not very gentlemanly if you ask me", Mukuro said slowly advancing on Tsuna.
"Just leave me alone", Tsuna said tiredly, almost on the verge of tears.
"Leaving you alone would be mean; you look like you need some company"
It was then that Tsuna made a spontaneous dash towards the closest exit in the alleyway and ended pinned by his wrist to the brick wall he had been previously crouching against. Silently cursing himself for leaving his pills and gloves in his bag which was still at school.
"Let me go", Tsuna cried, hiding his tears beneath his bangs and trying to suppress the sobs that were wracking his body.
"Tsunayoshi...you can't be...crying? Can you?" Mukuro said bewildered, "I'm not going to hurt you...right now anyway."
"I-it's not that...please, l-leave me alone all I want to do is to s-shrivel up and d-die", Tsuna sobbed miserably.
Mukuro had the sudden urge to hold the sobbing teen but resisted and instead let go of Tsuna's wrists and patted his head softly, "there, there, it can't be all bad; at least you don't live in a fish tank."
Tsuna laughed softly and tilted his leaking eyes up to look at Mukuro's surprisingly soft expression and poor Mukuro couldn't take it anymore. Grabbing Tsuna by the waist Mukuro pulled him into a soft and loving hug, rubbing circles on Tsuna's back, evidently calming Tsuna down. As Tsuna began to seep deeper into the hug he lift up his hands and wrapped them around Mukuro's back, wondering how the hell he ended up hugging the guy who was trying to kill him not to long ago ago.
Soon Tsuna realized that they had been hugging for at least five minutes and awkwardly backed away, "thanks Mukuro", Tsuna said with a smile.
"You're welcome", Mukuro said, looking away blushing.
"Wow it's already starting to get dark, I better go home. Bye Mukuro", Tsuna said, walking towards the alleyway exit.
"Arrivedeci, Tsunayoshi."
Tsuna lay on his bed with the blanket tucked high over his head; the events of the day rushing back giving him the urge to cry again. Tsuna had to be strong and move on but moving on was so much harder than he had thought it would be and he found himself weeping again.
"Ora Tsunayoshi, crying is no fun", Mukuro said.
Tsuna rose from the bed to see Mukuro sitting on his open windowsill with a broad smile, "greetings Tsunayoshi."
"H-hi Mukuro", Tsuna said, dashing the tears that were streaming down his face away, "what are you doing here? What if my mum hears you? What if Reborn hears you!"
"Don't worry, I'll be quiet and well...I came to see you", Mukuro said, puzzling Tsuna.
"Why?" Tsuna asked, all romantic notions going down the toilet.
Mukuro sweat dropped before laughing silently, "honestly Tsuna your about as clueless about love as a cactus."
That was when the mood dropped dramatically and Tsuna was pulled back in to his world of depression, tearing up once more.
Mukuro's eyes widened and he suddenly understood, he wasn't an idiot, "is that why you're sad, because you got rejected?"
Tsuna laughed bitterly through his tears, "I-I was shot down before I could even confess."
Mukuro jumped down from the windowsill and came up to Tsuna, making as little noise as possible as he padded across the floor.
Mukuro came to a stop at the end of Tsuna bed before climbing up onto it, "h-hey, get out!" Tsuna exclaimed, his crying forgotten.
"Shhh", Mukuro whispered, placing a finger on his lip to illustrate his point.
"Don't 'shhh' me, get out of my bed!" Tsuna whispered urgently.
Mukuro ignored Tsuna, took off his green kokuyo jacket, kicked off his shoes and climbed under the blue blanket with Tsuna, facing the blushing teen who had given up protesting since Mukuro obviously wasn't going to listen.
"Who?" Mukuro asked.
"What?" Tsuna said, Mukuro's question catching him totally off guard.
"Who shot you down?" Mukuro repeated.
"I-I ummm", Tsuna stuttered, worrying that his sexuality might disturb Tsuna.
"This may sound a little odd and random but...are you by any chance attracted to guys?"
Tsuna blushed and ducked his head, "I don't think any less of you, I'm gay too", Mukuro added.
Tsuna looked completely frazzled and slightly disbelieving from what Mukuro said so Mukuro explained, "when I was being...tested on, the main person who conducted the experiments was female so I've lost all desire for women. I don't dislike women in general but I just don't find them...appealing."
Tsuna then came to a realization they were two gay, teenage guys sharing a bed...it's kind of a good thing that Mukuro hates the mafia (meaning me) and I'm heartbroken which makes this totally non-weird.
"Tsunayoshi, who was it?" Mukuro asked for the fiftieth time.
Tsuna was suddenly reminded of two teenage girls gossiping but pushed it aside and got on with answering the question he had been dreading answering.
"Hibari", Tsuna said quickly and quietly.
Mukuro scoffed, "now tell me who it really is".
Tsuna teared up once again and Mukuro was left fretting about the fact the he had made Tsuna cry, "sorry, sorry, I believe you, don't cry again", Mukuro pleaded.
"I-I'll try", Tsuna sobbed.
After several minutes Tsuna didn't crying and Mukuro had to step in, "Tsunayoshi, Tsunayoshi, why did you start crying again? I apologized didn't I?"
"I-it's just I really f-fully realized it. I fully r-realized that he-he's never going to love me b-back but I don't b-blame him, I'm ugly and extremely s-stupid and u-useless and c-can't do anything right and I guess n-no one will ever love me"
"Tsunayoshi", Mukuro said grabbing Tsuna's shoulder, "you're not stupid, you're not useless, of course you can do things right, you're absolutely beautiful and I love you. In fact Tsuna will you go out with me? I promise to make you happy and soon you won't even remember who Hibari is."
Tsuna lay there for a moment processing what Mukuro just said, crying forgotten due to shock of what Mukuro had just said, "why?" Tsuna asked after a long silence.
Mukuro lay there blushing for a few moments before answering, "well you could call it love at first fight..."
Tsuna stiffled laugh before stilling himself, "sorry, go on."
"When I first saw you I thought you looked so fragile, like if I dropped you, you would break into a thousand pieces but then you became powerful and agile and at first I didn't know what to do because I still had this image of a cute, fragile little mouse stuck in my head. You want to know part of the reason I wanted your body so much?" Mukuro asked before going on with a nod from Tsuna, "I wanted to be as close as possible to you, I admit I was a little sadistic with my ways but I wanted to...be with you.", Mukuro said, smiling to himself, "you know what made me fall completely in love with you?" Mukuro continued, "it was your smile when you knew everything would be ok, it was breath takingly beautiful and bright...so what do you say Tsunayoshi, will you try going out with me?"
Tsuna thought about Mukuro's offer for a while, his shock momentarily subsiding. One, Mukuro had told him the sweetest thing he had ever heard, two, he was obviously in love with me and three, right now I really need to feel loved or I might fall apart.
"A-alright, I'll try going out with you", Tsuna said, brightening Mukuro's world, "but I have two conditions", Tsuna added halting Mukuro's one way trip to happy, love land.
"What?" Mukuro asked hesitantly.
"If we break up you can only hold it against me", Tsuna said, waiting till Mukuro nodded in agreement, "and you have to call me Tsuna", Tsuna said cutely.
"I agree, yes, yes, a thousand times yes", Mukuro cried happily, grabbing Tsuna and pulling him in to a tight hug. (2)
"Lemme go", Tsuna said when the hug got excruciatingly tight.
"...Okay", Mukuro said, loosening his hold.
"I said lemme go not stop hugging me so tight", Tsuna said.
"I want to sleep like this, will you let me?" Mukuro asked.
"...Fine..." Tsuna agreed, feeling the need to be close to someone.
Mukuro snuggled in closer to Tsuna and wiped away the tear lines that had formed before putting his nose in Tsuna's hair so he could smell his scent and hold him tight.
+++With Hibari+++
Hibari sat there staring at the yellow, sleeping, fluff ball next to his pillow that was Hibird wondering how Tsuna was feeling. Was he sad? Depressed? Unloved? Suicidal! Hibari became worried and decided he best check up on Tsuna to make sure he was OK.
Slipping out from underneath his bed sheets Hibari wandered over to his wardrobe to pick out inconspicuous clothes to sneak around in. Thinking that his uniform would stand out too much at 11 o'clock at night he instead went for some black jeans, a plain black t-shirt and a black and white jacket with 18 printed in white on the back. (3)
Hibari slipped off his pyjamas and changed into his 'ninja' outfit then opened his window and fled out in to the night in the direction of Tsuna's home, not caring if his parents heard him after all they had long ago given up trying to control him.
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(1) Surprisingly Gokudera doesn't live under Tsuna's bed or in his closet like we all thought he did, Gokudera instead lives in a flat on the upside of town which his dad pays for. Although he hates his dad paying for it he will do almost anything to stay with Tsuna and Bianchi and although he won't admit it the family and everyone too.
(2) Lol sounds like Mukuro's getting married!
(3) OMG! Hibari wearing normal clothes...blasphemy! Jk and yes Hibari does own casual clothes (in this fic anyway).