Prologue.

~Kitty~

"Just say you will and it will all be over." Vixen stood before me holding the old book in her right hand and a small knife in her left. The cold wind blew at my hair, making it hard for me to see her. But I knew that she had the same deathly look on her face. The one she always has, that just sucks the life out of everyone who sees her completely. She hands me a pencil with barley any led. "Just sign your name Katherine." I look at the tattered page she flipped to, with a name written in loopy scrawl on the top line. Vixen Jorgen.

I lift the pencil up and rest it on the paper. All I have to do is sign my name, prick my finger and all of this will be over. I run my finger over the spot of blood on the paper next to the signature. If I do, this will be the biggest promise I've ever made. A promise that I want but can't break. A promise that if I keep, will end up killing me. A promise to take my life.

"Remember the pain you felt. You want them to feel it to." Vixens voice shakes with anger, yet her face remains rock solid, hiding every ounce of pain that has built up after years of tormenting. "We'll be together Katherine, like we've always wanted." My hand shakes as I press the pencil down on the page. My tears fall down, staining the paper. Vixen presses her thumb to the salty water, swiping it away, then to my cheek. "I love you K." Her face changes as she looks at me. I can see it in her eyes that what she says is true. It makes me want to be with her forever.

"I love you too." My voice quivers, "I love you so much."

"Then come with me." She pleads to me, gripping my left hand tightly, bringing the knife to my index. Something comes over me and I know I can't. My love for myself and the other people I realize need me takes over and I pull my hand away from hers.

"No." She looks at me with hurt in her eyes, something I wish I never had to see. "I can't." She looks as if someone told her the worst possible thing. I probably had. I watch as the knife she was holding drops out of her lifeless hand, crashing against the rooftop cement. And I wake up from my state of mind. She was still going to do this even if I wasn't.

"Fine." She starts up the ladder to the top floor. I followed behind her, my hands aching from the tight grip on the ladder. "Don't follow me Katherine!" She yells, turning to glance at me then climbing faster. She reaches the top, so do I, I run after her sobs racking my body and my tears making my vision blurry. My sneakers fill up with water the second the rain starts pouring down.

"Don't Vixen don't!" My yell sounds strained as she reaches the ledge.

"Why the hell would you care? You don't care about me?!" She climbs up on the ledge, looking back at me. Her eyes read everything that has happened, coming out, getting disowned by her parents, the bullying, the hate, the pain. You can fight your whole life for something but that doesn't mean it will work out in the end. I run up to the ledge, pulling on her hand so hard I might just pull it out of socket.

"Please. Please just stay with me. We can be together. We can run away together, no one would miss us. I love you so much Vix. I can't lose you." She looks at me with disgust and hatred. I never thought she would give me this much emotion and that I would hate every second of it.

"Come with me K. No one would miss us." She tries to pull me up with her but I back down. The honking of the busy streets pulls me back to the cement, but I still grip tightly to her hand.

"Yes they would." The rain slows down a bit as I speak in a whisper, trying to pull her in to listen to me. I use all the strength in my body to pull her down to me and I do. I hold her close to me stroking her long dark hair. She wraps her arms around me and I feel safe again. "You are loved Vix. You may feel like you aren't but you are."

She nods into my hair. I finally let go of her but quickly grab her hand again. If I don't know she will leave, I just know it. She always goes back to depression and it only takes seconds. It only takes seconds for her to lose the love I have for her. And it only takes minutes for her to lose herself.

We make it back to my apartment. I sneak her through the window so my mother wouldn't see. She was band from my house after my mom caught us kissing. My mom still thinks I'm straight. That the whole Vixen thing, as she calls it, is just a phase. It obviously isn't. Nether is Vixen's depression.

This happens often, where she breaks down and thinks of leaving. But this was the fist time I even considered it. I guess that's what makes it different for her and I. It makes it more real than the others. It could of happened. We could both be dead right now. But that doesn't matter cause she's still here with me and I'm here with her.

Vixen told me she needed to use the restroom and I let her go. I would check on her in 2 minutes if she weren't out. It had been about an hour after her melt down and I didn't want her to feel too isolated. After a minute or so I knocked on the door. "Vix." She didn't answer, "Vixen. Are you in there?" I started to panic and opened the door.

I looked around the small room, taking in the running sink and the open window that let in a small breeze, blowing the blue curtain. I pull the shower curtain over. Nothing. I look out the window yelling her name, straining my vocal chords. Nothing. I slide down the wall, pulling my knees to my chest. She was gone and there was nothing I could do. Nothing I could say to bring her back to me.

I wasn't sure, but I knew it was too late. She was gone. She was really, truly gone. And it killed me. I felt like my knees her buckling into my chest, my breath hitched in my throat. I just sat there, my head spinning and my heart exploding every minute. It is the ring of the ER that jolts me into sobs. I cover my ears, screaming for someone to bring her back to me. I needed her more than I knew. And I didn't realize that until she was gone.

She wasn't coming back. I knew it. And it killed me.

Katherine is Kitty, it is just her full name, if you are wondering! This is just the prologue so there is longer chapters to come. You will learn more about Vixen in flashbacks!

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