I shot up out of my bed realizing what time it is.

I brushed my dark hair and watched my big long curls bounce back into place. I grabbed a white lace long sleeve shirt and slipped it on over my white tanktop. I slipped on a pair of tight yoga pants, and slipped on the black converse sneakers I wear every single day.

I shot out of my room and ran down the wooden stairs, nearly slipping down them.

"Good morning Pesp." My Mother smiled gleefully. Her grey eyes were lighter today, and she was sitting at the table.

"Good morning." I smiled softly. I grabbed a a slice of cheese bread and grabbed my white winter coat. I ran outside shoving the bread into my small mouth. I took my white tot bag and walked out into the snipping weather. It was so cold, that if you spit onto the ground you drop of saliva would freeze, and smash onto the ground.

I walked down the pebble path, sticking my numb hands into the pockets of my jacket.

"Pespin!" I heard a awfully deep voice call. I turned around and I froze.

Shay Nethin.

Shay is a quite unusual name. My Mother says unusual names come from the times before the dark days.

His dark brown hair went over his ears, and brushed into his eyes. His brown eyes looked like a warm chocolate. I just stared at his tall complexion as he stood in front of me.

"S-Shay?" I nearly fainted, why was he talking to me of all people? The girl who has no friends, who is ugly as a sheep, and the most strange girl in all of district 12?

"Can I walk with you?" He raised his eyebrows, looking like he was in desperation to.

"Of course." I blushed, trying not to show him my reddened cheeks.

We walked down the pebble path, my shoulder constantly brushing against his tricep. The silence was growing awkward.

"Why aren't you walking with your friends?" I asked in curiosity, looking into his dark brown eyes.

"I don't know." He shrugged, "I saw you walking alone and though maybe you wanted some company."

This really irked me.

"I don't want you to just walk with me because you feel sorry for me." I snapped. I walked faster than him, and soon I was way to far away for him to say anything without having to yell for me to hear. I looked back at him, and saw him standing there. He was looking at his feet, and I continued to watch. He kicked the pebbles angrily, and muttered something incoherently.

He really did want to walk with me.

"God damn it Pespin. You are such a screw up." I said to myself. I ruin every conversation I have with someone. I guess I get it from my Mother. My rude stubbon self. I hate that trait.

I turned around and sighed, watching my breath look like a cloud of smoke, and then watching it disappear into nowhere.

I made it to my crappy school.

High school isn't just where you go to learn.

It's where I am suppose to make friends (I don't have any) and a place where I get bullied until I want to just commit suicide.

I opened up the rusty old metal door, and walked into the world of chatter. I huffed loudly, but no one was able to hear under all of the noise going on.

I pushed through the annoying crowd. No really, I pushed people. I even heard someone mutter bitch under their breath. I would've said something, but I wasn't able to identify the person who said it.

I got into the open hallway and walked to my locker.

I opened up the lock, and put my coat into the bottom shelf, along with my bag. I grabbed my capitol text book and slammed my locker.

I turned around and smacked my forehead into someones chest.

"Ouch!" I yelped as my hand touched my now red forehead. I looked up to see Shay looking at me with anxious eyes.

"Sorry. Look, I didn't mean what I said earlier like that." He said raising his eyebrows in hope for my acceptance.

"I know, I overreacted. I tend to do that a lot." I said trying to smile.

"Cool." He bit his lip, thinking that was the wrong thing to say, "I mean Oh." He chuckled. I smiled widely.

I jumped at the sound of the loud bell, and walked quickly to class. Maybe Shay will be my friend. Or maybe even my boyfriend. I flushed at the word. I never imagined having a boyfriend before. I know that he might not like me in that way though.

"Don't get ahead of yourself." I mumbled to myself. I opened up the door to the classroom and sat inside the seat in the middle of the room. I looked at the wooden desk, filled with scratches and sharp splinters sticking out from it.

"This is my seat." I heard a girly voice come up from the side of me. I looked up. Ugh. Netharia.

"It isn't its the schools. It isn't a big deal just go sit somewhere else." I groaned glaring at her hazel eyes.

"I sit here." She crossed her arms over her awfully large breasts. I rolled my eyes and looked forward at the chalk board.

"Netharia, please sit down." Mr. Bronx said softly. I chuckled quietly as Netharia rolled her eyes as she sat at the seat next to me.

"Now was that so hard." I whispered.

The rest of the class was such a bore, yet I managed to keep listening. I didn't want to miss a single thing. Good grades is a happy parent. I said in my head.

Soon enough, the bell rang loudly causing me to jump in my seat. It was the end of the high school day, and I walked to my locker, and drooped my shoulders as I read the word "Freak" written across the front of my locker. I gulped back the lump in my throat, trying not to cry.

I turned around and looked at the group of girls laughing. I looked at the ground as I heard someones footsteps inch closer.

I looked up. Netharia.

"You know why you are a freak? You have no friends, your weird, and you are a bitch." She shouted. I never actually was offended my what anyone ever said to me, but this time it felt like I just got shot in the face.

I felt tears sting my eyes, and soon I felt them fall down my cheeks.

"Can you just leave me alone?" I looked at her narrowed eyes, yet they turned soft.

It looked like she didn't mean to make me cry. I ran away trying to make it to the bathroom, but I was stopped by someone.

Of course, it was Shay.

"What happened?" Shay asked softly, putting his hands on my shoulders.

"Nothing!" I sobbed, breaking from his strong hands. I could feel his eyes on me as I ran into the girls restroom. I opened up the stall, and put my fists against the stall wall, and sobbed into it. Netharia was right. I don't have any friends. I am weird. I am a bitch. I hate being in high school. I wiped my puffy eyes, and wiped the excess tears from my cheeks. I walked out of the stall and looked at myself in the mirror. My face was all red, which my blue eyes stick out.

"Are you alright?" I turned around to see Lilia looking at me with her sweet blue eyes.

"No." I said truthfully. She brushed her blonde hair from her face.

"What happened?" She asked with wide eyes.

"Netharia said some hurtful things." I sniffled.

"Don't listen to her." She looked like she wanted to scream at Netharia.

"But the things she said were true." I said nearly almost sobbing again.

"So what? Don't let her get to you." She smiled softly. Soon enough, she grabbed me and hugged me tight. I wrapped my arms around her back, and dug my face into her shoulder. It felt good to know that someone cared about me. I silently cried into her shoulder as she stroked my back.

"Would you like me to come over so we could talk about it?" She asked sweetly. I nodded. I smiled to myself. I can't believe I will have a friend coming over my home. We walked out of the bathroom and I noticed Shay leaning against the wall.

"Pespin!" He said softly pulling me into a hug. He smelled good, like he was wearing aftershave. I once again dug my head into his shoulder, feeling safe. Sometimes I feel so cold in sadness and desperation and all I need to do is remember to let it go.

"Would you like to join us at Pespin's house?" Lilia smiled sweetly.

"Sure." He smiled grabbing his coat.

I opened up the metal front door into my home.

It was warm, which made me feel relaxed.

"Pespin?" I heard my Father call from the kitchen.

"Its just me and a couple friends!" I called as I led them into the kitchen. My Dad was taking a pan of cookies from the oven.

"Hi!" His eyes widened. Probably because I have never brang friends over.

"Hi Mr. Mellark." Lilia squealed excitedly.

"Hi, sir." Shay bellowed.

I grabbed both of their wrists and led them to my room. I opened the door, to see Lux looking through my closet.

"Get out of my room!" I grabbed her waist and lifted her off her feet and plopped her in the hallway.

"Can I borrow one of you shi-" Before she could finish her sentence I slammed the door in her face.

"Sorry about that." Lets get done our homework, I smiled brightly.

After we were done our homework, we played truth or dare.

"Pespin, truth or dare." Lilia asked.

"Uh...truth." I smiled.

"Okay...um...who do you like?" I blushed as she finished her question.

"May I whisper it in your ear?" I said softly.

"Why not share it with all of us?" Shay chuckled.

"I don't want you to know." I joked. Shay made a silly face which made me laugh hysterically.

"Shay." I whispered so quietly into Lilia's ear that I wasn't sure she heard.

"OMG!" She screamed.

I laughed really hard. I never laughed like this before.

"Pespin?" I heard someone knock on the door.

"Yes?" I asked softly.

"May I come in?" She asked.

"Sure." I sighed.

My Mom opened the door.

"Woah! You guys look so alike!" Lilia squealed.

"Hah! You almost sound like Effie Trinket!" My Mother muttered under her breath. I glared funnily at her and she smiled.

"Dinner is ready, you guys come on down." My Mother said as she closed the door.

"Oh I almost forgot to ask you guys, I am having a party tomorrow night, I was wondering if you guys wanna come." Lilia said softly. I nodded. James nodded also.

After dinner, Lilia and Shay went home and I went in my room. I couldn't believe that I finally have friends. I put on my nightwear and I went to bed, and I most likely fell asleep smiling.