DISCLAIMER: Apart from my plot, everything goes to the incredible Stephenie Meyer.

A/N: Okay, so obviously, this is an Edward/Bella fic. Rated T to be safe. I will try my hardest not to make the characters OOC. I might change the title, so this one's temporary. Andd, I would like to thank touchthemoon985 aka Kristan (check out her stories. This girl's got mad skills :D) for beta-ing this chapter. I so owe you the the world.

Setting/Everything else you need to know: First three chapters of New Moon happened. The rest did not, including those Volturi and cliff diving events. Also, Laurent did not have his controversial scene (trying to kill Bella). Nada. He's safe in the Denali Coven. Though, Victoria is still on the run. So far, she is the antagonist. So FAR. The same characters stayed. No one died (apart from James). Time Setting has been set after three years, after Edward left Bella.

Decisions

Edward

"It's not going to happen Alice," I growled, glaring at my pixie-like sister. The way she smiled at me—it burned my eyes.

Would it happen? No. Of course not. It—it's impossible! How long has it been, anyway? Three years? Three years. Three pestering years. I am
sure—I have been—I moved on. And Tanya. I can't hurt her. She has done a lot for me, and I can't, I just can't do that to her.

"It's as if you don't know me and my powers, dearest brother. My predictions come true. Or if you are just playing dumb, I might say that I can see the future."

"It is not always accurate! It can always change!" Alice rolled her eyes dramatically, ignoring my harsh reaction. Ooh. Burn! Thank the heavens she is my sister! If not, she would've been killed centuries ago.

"Whatever, Edward. Deny it all you want, but it's all going to happen. Three years, Edward. It's not that long. I know you. I may not read minds
but I sure can read your eyes, and of course, the future. No one's stopping you except you. Grow up. I'll be seeing you later,"she said with a weak laugh. She held my shoulder blade and came closer, close enough that our faces were inches apart. "Tanya is a good person. You can't use her for you to forget Bella. You know that's beyond impossible. You still love her."

I sighed impatiently, feeling the heat and darkness that filled my head. This woman is absurd! Her spiteful smile disgusted me. "I—don't—love—her—anymore," I said through my gritted teeth. Her smug face fell, together with her hand on my shoulders.

"Sure Edward. Sure you don't." She grimaced,her tone bitter. She turned around, walked away, and stopped as she reached the door. "Carlisle knows, you know. He was the first one that I told all these to. And just so you know, he does not contest to it. He's worried. Worried that you might so crazy that you decide to kill yourself, or whatever that drama is." She paused. "If you haven't noticed, you barely ever spend time with us! All I'm saying is, you've been miserable. And it's hurting us all." With that, she disappeared.

How dare she?? I've been miserable? Hah! How does she know what I've been feeling? Three years is enough for me to forget Bella, and move on. Okay, scratch that. Three years just to move on. It's working quite well, anyway.

Or is it? Yes, it is. I think so, at least.

Besides, it was me who left her! Left her for her own good. For mine, too, and for everyone's sake. For—for us. Our love. Our damned stupid forbidden love.

Three years of nothing, just lies and pretension. Three god-damned years… three years of feeling nothing but remorse for leaving her.

Alice was definitely wrong, when she said that I still love Bella. How many times do I have to reiterate, that the past is past, and what's important is what, and who I have now.

Tanya.

In those three years, she has helped me to recover.

But I have not been that bad, right? I have a lot of distractions here in my world. A clean break. It's all I need. Curse Alice for wounding my haughty ego.

I got out of the house and headed for the woods—it is where I usually stay when something is on my mind.

Once I got to my spot under that big maple tree, I laid on the grass. If I were human, I would have shuddered from the cold and wet feeling that touched my back. As a vampire, I won't be able to feel anything physically. A vampire who has fallen in love with a feeble human being. A human,who was meant for killing. I sighed at the thought. I placed my arms under my head, and closed my eyes, secretly enjoying the cold breeze. I tried to reminisce, everything that had happened to me four years ago.

Four years ago, my life resided in Forks, where humans annoyed me more than ever. Then came this girl. The chief's daughter I intended to kill her
because of her unusually addicting scent. But I left. I left because I don't want to be a killer, despite of what I am. I came back. I was then sure that I would not harm her. Days turned into weeks before I discovered my profound feelings for this awfully beautiful human, who was
supposed to be my prey. It was then that I found out she returned my feelings. I was immensely auspicious that very moment. The way her lips tasted. I loved it. Being in her arms. Bella and I had gone through a lot. She did not care for what I am. She—she really, truly loved me. I loved her so much— so much that I would do anything to keep her safe and happy. Until, it came to the point that I had to leave her. Saying those bitter words of lies made me feel sick. I wanted her to be safe. Safe from me. Safe from what I am. A monster- a bloodsucking monster she should fear.

I left her, sure that I had hurt her. Leaving her made me feel dead inside for the very first time. I had never felt so vulnerable before. Now I know, feelings are inevitable. If I were human, I am sure as hell tears would've formed in my eyes. But no.

Why am I even thinking of this? I have stopped myself from coming back to her. Beg her for mercy to forgive and take me back. This is waggish! Curse Alice for even showing me her damned premonition.

It's all too late…

"Do you mind some company?" My thoughts where interrupted by a voice. I opened my eyes, and standing above me was Tanya.

"Oh, not at all," I answered indifferently. I moved a little for her to lay down beside me. She smiled widely as she moved to my side, and took the
space beside me. This woman is easy to please. Small things I do for her, such as this one, makes her extremely happy. " What brings you here? I thought you were on your hunting trip?" I asked, as I turned my head to face her. She met my gaze.

"Oh, yes, I was. I actually ran onto Emmett and Rosalie. So instead of going to Siberia, I just hunted at the nearest place, and here I am now."
My eyebrows rose incredulously. "And well, of course, I'm here to see you." A shy smile on her little face.

"Oh," was all I said. I turned my back again, facing the sky, with my eyes closed.

In a short, sudden moment of silence, soft lips brushed mine, and in an instant, Tanys's hands were on my hair.

x X x

A few days had passed, and my irritation towards Alice grew into petulant wrath.

"Dammit Alice!" I yelled furiously at her as she looked at me, her eyes teasing.

"Edward!" Esme, my mother, scolded. She moved towards us, glaring with both her hands on her waist. "You two, stop bickering!" I glared at Alice and breathed haggardly as I tried to restrain my fury.

"I'm not doing anything, Mom. I 'm not even talking," Alice said with her puppy eyes. This disgusts me. How I would love to poke those eyes out!

"Oh for the love of all loves Alice! Stay out of my life, will you?" I fumed as I snarled and took a hasty step towards Alice. She didn't even flinch. Instead, she smile trimly. She shifted her gaze to Esme.

"Don't worry Mom, Edward and I will talk about this. We're sorry. You can go meet Carlisle now. He's at Fronk's." Esme looked at us skeptically and raised her head.

"Okay. You'd better. Right. I'll be going now. Emmett and Rosalie will be home tonight. See you in a few days. No fighting." Alice and I both gave
mom a peck on her cheek before she left. Suddenly, my anger vanished out of the blue.

Joy. Jasper's here.

"I felt your anger, Edward. Would you please chill? I have to study, and not to be disturbed. If you don't mind. Alice, Edward, keep it down, will
you please?"

"Okay darling. We're sorry." Alice kissed him, and then he went to his room upstairs.

Alice kissed him, before he went up to his room. She turned around abruptly. "Listen, Edward. I don't want you to suffer. You are my brother,
and I love you. I'm doing all this not to insult or piss you off. I just want to help you. I've seen it, you've seen it. No one's lying here. Who
are you kidding? You still love Bella, and there's nothing wrong with it. It's my first time in three years to see the future with her in it. And that's
a good thing, because I know that she's safe with you. So Edward, stop it. Stop fooling yourself. Stop hurting yourself."

x X x

Emmett came in my room with a huge grin on his face. I wonder what he wa—he knows it too. Dammit.

"I don't want to talk about it," I said bluntly. I was ready for his harassing questions. Reading minds definitely makes my life a lot easier. Emmett's face fell. He scowled.

"It's so unfair. Everyone knows, except for me. Awe. That's bull shark!"

Alice. She is so dead. I plunked on my couch and groaned loudly.

"Okay, never mind. So I'm going to tell you about our trip." I read his mind. Rose met this brunette girl who happens to be living in Egypt…

"No," I said sternly, glaring at my brother. What is with the world today, enlightening, or rather helping me with my personal love issues???

"Come on Edward! The girl's got some hots! She's awfully better than Tan—" I had to cut him off. This is absurd.

"She's an Egyptian, Emmet! I am not interested." Emmett looked at me with chagrin.

"Egyptians are hot! Besides, Bella—" I grimaced at his utter ludicrous comment. I sat up, and stiffened my back, as I tried to avoid his eyes.

"Sorry," He blurted out, and, in a blur, he disappeared out of my room.

x X x X x

"What will Esme and Carlisle say if they find out their favorite son—who's birthday happens to be now—is no where to be found?" Rosalie shook her head and sighed in exasperation.

"What will we tell them?" Emmett interrupted. The tension in the room got even worse when Alice spoke.

"Don't have to worry? Are you insane Alice?? How could we not worry??!! Our brother is no where to be found, and you're telling us not to
worry??" Rose ranted brusquely. She walked to the couch, sat, and crossed her legs dramatically. Emmett followed her with a smug grin and sat beside her, as he placed his arm around her.

"Easy there, 'hun," He cooed. Jasper appeared out of no where, and the mood enlightened at some point.

"Thanks," Alice said complacently as Jasper wounded his hand on hers. Suddenly, the back door opened and footsteps were heard. The two, Rosalie and Emmett froze in stupor, their faces cold and hard. Carlisle and Esme walked in the living room with their faces uplifted. "Hey Carslile, Esme," Alice said naturally, standing before them.

Carlisle nodded with a smile, while Esme's face suddenly turned rigid and tense as she scanned her eyes through the room.

"What's with all the hard faces?" Carlisle asked suspiciously.

"Edward?" Esme mumbled, but was heard by everyone at the room.

"He's gone," Rosalie snapped. Alice turned her head and looked tersely at the blonde.

"Alice?" Esme asked, her voice weaker.

Alice shook her shoulders and sighed exasperatingly. She looked at everyone with piercing eyes. "Edward is old enough to take care of himself. You guys don't have to worry. Not at all. Trust me at this one."

Carlisle looked at Alice. "Is he—?"

She nodded her head and smiled stirringly. "Bella."

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