WARNINGS: yaoi, angst, probably OOC, and an over all mediocre story. ^_~
Here it is!
~What Words Can Not Say
Goddamn it, Matt thought. Mihael was late again, probably safe in the library reading like always, but matt would never stop worrying about him. I need him here.
"Hey Matt" Mihael said as he walked through the door.
"You're late Mihael" Mello stiffened
"Don't say that name"
it hurts too much.
Matt almost blushed. He had forgotten that he had to use their new names. For safety. Yeah right. It's just so they loose their identity and become just another letter in old english font.
"Sorry" He paused "Mello" Matt spat. He hated that name. Said blonde looked at Matt's side of the room confused as to why all the shelves were empty and everything seemed to be in a large black bag.
"What the hell is this?" He asked
"I'm leaving" Matt answered calmly.
please stop me.
"Are you that pathetic Matt?" Mello nearly yelled.
don't leave me.
Matt winced. He wasn't sure if it was from the yelling or the insult or the use of his new name.
"I'm not going to become just another letter!"
please, please give me a reason to stay.
"The hell are you talking about?"
i can't live without you
"I'm leaving"
say you'll come with
"Like hell you are!"
don't leave me
"Why the fuck shouldn't I?!!"
please give me a reason.
mello paused.
tell him you need him, tell him not to go, tell him you love him!
Mello's thoughts raced. He needed a reason to keep Matt.
"You know what?! I don't give a fuck just go ahead and leave"
don't go!
"I thought as much" Matt sighed, grabbed his bag, put his goggles over his eyes and walked over so he was within inches of Mello's face
"You're a real jackass Mihael"
damn it i thought you cared...
"What the hell do you want me to say?"
how can i make you stay mail?
Matt sighed.
"This" Matt leaned in placing a chaste kiss on his best friends lips.
Mello gasped allowing matt's tongue to enter as he deepened the kiss. Their tongues fought for dominance as well as the right to explore each other's mouths. Matt was the first to pull away needing air.
The pair stood there, panting, each waiting for the other to say something.
"Take off your stupid goggles Mail." Mello whispered.
I want to see your eyes.
Matt smiled at his friends use of his real name.
"Only if you take off your gloves Mihael"
I want to feel your skin.
The goggles were removed as were the gloves and another kiss was started. Matt put his knee between Mello's legs feeling how turned on his friend really was. Somehow they made their way to Mello's small bed still kissing passionately. Matt pulled away from the kiss again and started kissing down Mello's neck to his collarbone earning a moan from the blonde boy. Matt unzipped Mello's vest as Mello unzipped Matt's. The rest of the night regressed into touches and kisses and sex.
When the boys were done they lay naked together in a messy heap.
"Why the hell did you want to leave?" Mello asked after a while.
"I-" Matt looked up at his Mello and then looked away "I didn't like how they take away everything we have to make us the new L" Matt went on to explain how he hated not being able to call Mello by his name and hated that they were no longer people. They were just letters.
"Matt you're an idiot" Mello chuckled
you'll never be just a letter to me. I love you
"I know"
I love you too.