A Way Out.
As she
walks in the room,
I know she's done it again
The light has
died in her eyes
And the smile is hurting her face
Her steps
are weak with lack of energy
For I know she didn't sleep last
night
She wears a sweater in April
For she knows I'll see the
scars
Has she
forgotten I'm here for her?
Has she lost all hope?
There is
nothing I'd rather do than listen,
But her words have long ago
drowned
It pains
me to see her like this,
It tears me to hear her sobs
But still
I do nothing
For I know not what to say
It scares
me to know I can lose her
It gnaws at me to see her go
But
still she backs away
For she knows not how to return
I call her
name with my hands
I beckon her with my voice
But still she
stands motionless
For she has long forgotten how to feel
She's
uncovered her arms for me before,
And the sight eternally stole my
breath
With tears in her eyes she looked at me
And said, "I'm
over now,"
I could
feel her anguish fighting,
Struggling for a way out
The blade
can't handle it anymore
It's time to end it all
I should
have checked her room
I should have walked her to the roof
myself
I should have kissed her and loved her
But I chose not
to
Now her
face is sleeping in a box
Her body is still and peaceful for the
first time in years
The thought occurs to me and I push it
away
She can't be happier this way, she can't…
I try to
convince myself that she liked life,
That if she could come back,
she would.
But my heart knows she wouldn't want back in
When
she spent so long trying to escape
I only
wish I could've said the words,
I only wish I could've done
the things
Her heart was begging from me
But I chose not to…
And now her soul is free…
This goes out to Kaila, for being with me no matter what. For dealing with me no matter how stupid the problem. Bella, I hope you know there's no one else who can handle me like you can, or no one who is willing to listen!!
Thank you all so much, and please review.
TF