Hey guys opiates here! it has been brought to my knowledge that I haven't written about lavi really and being that he's my favorite character it's a bit strange so I wrote this little piece I hope you all like it!

and as always I own nothing

[Indifference; Noun-Lack of interest, concern, or sympathy]

There's a war raging inside of me. I can feel it in every fiber of my being the screams of my inner self and this…this act I must keep up clash like waves against the shore. This aura of indifference surrounds me like flames I'm on fire and I can feel it.

I lay on the ground looking up towards the sky it would be beautiful I guess to my comrades those I must leave soon those I've grown to like and in some cases love despite knowing not to but I couldn't help it I felt myself slip when it happened; when I fell in love and it felt like I was holding on by a thread this feeling I never felt before it scared me and I enjoyed it.

Now it's nothing because I know it has to be and that's what bothers me the most. This isn't the same as before. I found a place where I felt like I belonged like I didn't always have to just observe from the outside that was another thing I never felt before; belonging it was warm and welcoming not like falling in love and now I must separate myself from it for forever probably.

Ah, what a funny word forever, because we never know how long forever last like my happiness and this feeling of indifference that I can't shake, it's swallowing me whole. This forever-ness that I felt I wish it lasted longer. I look around taking in everything, just me and the trees they have been here for forever no doubt and I envy that.

Suddenly to my left I hear a voice. It's happy and feminine it's the voice that belongs to the person I love though I shouldn't and that feeling washes over me again and calms the screaming within me. "Lavi" Lenalee leans beside me and grabs my hand "come on we have to get going they won't wait forever you know" she says helping me up, there's that word again -forever- as a dust myself off it seems the envy of the trees goes as well and I'm happy again the flames are calm. We start walking back to where are friends are waiting allen with his white hair and sappy smile and kanda with his permanent scowl and mugen placed upon his hip and I smile that feeling of belonging warms me and it seems the tides have calmed.

"Oi usagi, stop standing there we've waited long enough we have to get back to camp" Kanda says walking off and we all follow because no one likes a grumpy swordsman even though he's always grumpy or at least seems to be it's worse when he has to wait.

Then I look back up to the sky, the sun is fading but it's still warm and it is beautiful the mixing on orange and pinks yet it's so simply like so many I've seen before but while I'm here with them with my family where I belong I'll hold on to it for as long as I must like these memories and that indifference and that war within myself well they'll have to wait because for now, I'm no longer on fire and the waves aren't fighting the shore.

So how was it? I actually like this one a lot and it also ties into how I'm feeling at the moment but anyways

Thanks for reading :'3