Diary of Clare Edwards
9/11/10
It happened for a reason, being in love with someone that doesn't Love you back now that's hard.
Me and Eli been together for about 6 months now and we been on rocky roads ever since then.
I love Eli and yeah I know he Loves me even though me and Eli argue every single day it doesn't mean we're not right for each other it just means we need to settle out our
differences and try to make things work but In my heart I know that me and Eli will always be together forever no doubt about that
9/12/10
I saw Eli today it was great. We kissed and it was sweet his lips are so soft I couldn't even do what I wanted because Mr. Simpson Saw us.
Eli asked me did I want to take it to the next level I didn't know what to say my answer was silence I couldn't believe he actually asked me that .
Losing my virginity is something that I always wanted to do but is Eli the right person for me.
I kept asking that question all day I didn't know what to do so I asked my sister Darcy her answer was
"do it Clare if you really love him you will do it"
that's some great advice coming from a sister that lost her virginity got raped and lied on the principal . I just don't know maybe if I give it more thought I'll have my answer by tomorrow
9/15/10
I got an call earlier from my mom it was about a condom that she found it my sock drawer yeah you know I had to lie and say that Ali must've left it there I didn't tell her that
I was planning on having sex with Eli before the school year was over .
and if I did tell her she wouldn't let me do it, she'll probably say that I was acting like Darcy but I'm nothing like her .
but then that's when I kept thinking of Jake and how much I missed hanging with him Jake was my best friend in elementary school but I moved away and he moved out here and now I have to show him around, every night I have fantasies about him and .when I see him in school it gets worse.
I just wish I wasn't so sexually frustrated