You can chose which one of the volleydork duo you want to start with, as chapter one will be from kageyama's point of view and chapter two will be from hinata's point of view. which one you want to start with is entirely up to you.

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[Kageyama's pov]

I'm really confused right now...

I've never felt any sexual attraction towards anyone so I figured that I was asexual. I've never really wanted to do those sort of things, and I've lost track of how many times people have told me that I just haven't met the right person. I always got so irritated by what they were saying because I knew myself better than they did, didn't I? They couldn't possibly know how I work or what I wanted, only I can truly know that, and so I got mad every time someone said something stupid like that. I've also lost track of how many times I've heard people either completely ignore the existence of asexuality or told me that it doesn't exist. That never failed to make me incredibly angry because it does, asexuality does exist, and it's a valid sexuality.

But I guess I'm not asexual considering my newfound urges...

You learn as long as you live I guess. I honestly thought I was asexual because I've never felt any sexual urges towards anyone before, well that is until now, which is why I'm confused. But learning to get to know yourself better is a part of life, and it's not uncommon to mistake your feelings or to categorize yourself wrongly. I thought I hadn't done that though, but it's kind of hard to argue with the hard facts (Pun not intended until I realized that it could be used as a pun... after that it became hella intended). I was so sure that I was asexual...

But then I started wanting to get closer to this person, and I even thought about touching them...

I've never felt like this before. Whenever I saw something dirty or someone showed me something or someone that was supposedly sexy I never felt anything. It was just another picture, just another video, just another person, nothing new and nothing I cared about. I never reacted, and it seemed like everyone else felt some things that I just couldn't, like everyone else had something inside that I didn't.

But now I'm confused because I am actually reacting to someone. I'm so profoundly confused because I feel what everyone always tried so hard to explain. I want someone. I crave someone.

I was supposed to be asexual, I was fine with being asexual. Why am I suddenly feeling these things? Why me? I've never really cared about what others think about my sexuality, and I could always tell them off or just ignore them completely... but now I want to do stuff with someone and my balance is thrown out of the window.

And the reason I'm currently so confused and thrown out of balance is the small bundle of never ending energy that is brimming with utter happiness right in front of me.

Yes Hinata Shouyou is the reason I'm extremely confused right now, and if you haven't already figured it out then hinata is the person I'm currently having feelings for. Feelings that contradict my sexuality. So what does that make me? I guess I'm... demisexual? I think that's what it makes me... demisexual is when you only experience sexual attraction toward someone after you've made an emotional connection with them after all. And I think it's safe to say that I have an emotional connection to hinata...

Now that I think about it... we're practically in sync, and we seem to know the other as if we've known each other our entire life. It's weird... I feel like we're going to be together for the rest of our lives, and the thought that we might part ways some day never crossed my mind to be honest. And now that I have thought about it I realise that I don't want that... I want to be with him... I don't want us to part ways, and I don't want us to be too far away from each other. I want to see him at least three days each week... if I don't see him at least that much then... then I'd feel sad, depressed even. I would prefer to see him every day...

I like hinata don't I? No, maybe I love hinata... Whatever I do or don't, I know that I definitely want him. I can't deny that.

He's been avoiding me lately though, and it's starting to piss me off. Then again, I only realised how much I actually want him, how I feel about him, because of him avoiding me. Because I started getting unusually irritated. I started to crave his presence, needing him to be by my side, wanting to do things I've never wanted to do before. Like pinning him to a wall and doing unspeakable things to him. I find him sexy, which is incredibly weird because I have never found anyone or anything sexy before. I'm not sure if I could control myself if I were in a situation where I was alone with him and he was doing something I found sexy.

It's still weird to think about that... I actually find someone sexy... that is so weird... I can actually understand things I couldn't really grasp completely before. Like finding someone sexy. I never REALLY understood that before I started feeling the way I do about hinata. I thought I understood it completely, but I really didn't. You don't really know how something feels until you've felt it yourself I guess...

Now if hinata would stop running away from me that would be great. He's been avoiding me with a passion for a while now, and I don't understand why. There's a shitload of reasons going through my head, but they all seem too farfetched, and I ended up on it somehow being my fault. I'm not good with the whole socially right or wrong and I'm especially bad with self awareness, so I probably did something wrong without knowing it again. But I still have something important I want to tell him, so I'm kind of pissed at how good he is at avoiding me.

This time he's not getting away though.

I made sure that we'd be the last ones in the clubroom, and when hinata realised that fact he hurriedly finished up and scurried for the door. He didn't get to go out though, because I'm blocking his way.

"Why are you avoiding me?" I ask. There's no way for him to escape now, and judging by the expression he's wearing, I'd say he knows it. His expression is like a deer caught in the headlights.

"I-I'm not avoiding you..." he replies.

"Yeah right. You've been trying your hardest to not be alone with me, and to not be with me more than necessarily. But let's forget about that for now... Hinata Shouyou, I always thought I was asexual, but it would seem I was mistaken... because I want you, so please go out with me." I said, and hinata got this really blank expression. I think he's processing what I said. I think it's safe to say that he wasn't expecting that, but then again it did come out of the blue. For him at least. I've known that it was coming for a long while now.

"Hinata?" I ask hesitantly. He still haven't moved an inch, and he looks deep in thought. Was it really that surprising for him?

"I uh... so... does that mean you're gay?" hinata eventually asked, and I really wanted to facepalm at that.

"No, just because I'm male and like another male doesn't necessarily mean I'm gay... Or well I might be, but I don't think so seeing as I don't find anyone other than you attractive. I think I'm demisexual." I answer him truthfully.

"Oh..." he replies, his hand on his chin, deep in thought.

"What about you?" I ask, somewhat dreading the answer.

"Eh... well... I..." he starts, and I can see how much he's struggling with this, so I decide to end his suffering.

"You don't have to tell me if you're not comfortable with it. Or maybe you don't really know, or you haven't told anyone yet, and that's okay. I only really want to know if you'd at least consider going out with me." I say, and he immediately looks extremely relaxed.

"Thank you..." he reply with a slight blush across his face, and I find myself wanting to touch his cheeks in order to check if they're as fluffy and soft as they look. I don't act on it though... I guess I have better self control than I previously thought.

"I... I guess... I guess we could... try..." hinata then say, his blush deepening to a darker shade of red, and I can feel the imaginary chains around my self control crack up, threatening to break.

"So you'll go out with me?" I ask, and I try not to get my hopes up because I know that there's a lot of sexualities out there, and what are the chances of him having one that corresponds to mine?

"... Yeah..." He replies so hesitantly and quietly that I'm sure that if I had stood even a centimetre further away from him then I wouldn't have heard him.

And thus began my relationship with hinata.

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So that was part one of my entry for day 22 of my kagehina month, I hope you like it, and as always; I won't add more chapters unless someone tells me they want more (this rule applies for all of my kagehina month entries)...