A/N- Recently, I found a new addiction. I was in my band class this summer, and as I was putting my clarinet together, a teenage janitor walked by to clean the windows of the band room. This is the song he was listening to. So, after I got home, I looked it up. I haven't turned it off yet. Seriously. But as I was pondering it, I realized that is really applied to the Seddie relationship…so yeah. :) enjoy.
DISCLAIMER: Yes, my name is Christina Perri. Its also Dan Schneider.
I've never really had a home. The place I live? Well… it's not a home. It's barely a house. Carly's? I guess that's more of a refuge. I'm welcome there. I'm loved there. But it's not my home. I don't have a home. That's what I thought anyway.
Until it happened.
I guess I always knew it was coming. Every time he'd stand next to me. Every time he'd sit next to me on the couch. Even-especially that gosh danged kiss.
So, I always knew it was coming. Kind of.
I knew one day he'd break down those walls. I hoped, anyway. It's my fault. I really shouldn't have let him get so close, but sometimes I can't decide to let him save me or just drown. I guess today I made that choice.
Yeah, then the fight happened. The window washer's platform. I'm never scared.
So I thought.
I was scared. I have never been so scared. It's like in the soundtrack of my life, this whole fight has been the steady build-up, and this moment was the big, crashing chorus. Looking down, I didn't see the busy and rain-soaked streets of Seattle. I saw my mother. I saw Spencer, and Melanie, and Fleck, and Dave, and Carly, and Frothy, my dad, Wendy, Gibby, and even Freddie. I guess that's why I didn't just let go. That's the first time I really felt I was needed, or loved. They gave me strength. Then it was over.
The song was starting to wind down after the chorus.
But this wasn't the end.
No, this was the bridge.
He pulled me up. He saved me. And then it happened. I found a home. Cause when he put his arms around me, I was home.
A/N: So…Whatcha think? Good, bad? BTW, the song is Arms by Christina Perri. I was going to use the actual lyrics but…this sprang forth from my pen. Actually, it was a pencil. But yeah…You REALLY need to look it up. Delightful. So review, cause Santa is watching. In August.