Edward

Prefac

"Edward...I'm sorry." Bella said. She was stuttering with her words. Heart was stuttering when our lips meet. I had to be careful with her more then ever. I was so curious to know whatshe meant by she was sorry.

"Bella, love, what are you talking about?" I was scared to know what she was talking about. She wasn't looking well today.

She looked extremely ill. But something in her eyes told me she would hold on a little longer. For me.

But not much longer.

I stiffened.

"Edward I..." Bella was about to say something, but I interrupeted her.

"Now Bella, I don't want to hear it. I am not turning you into a monster." I said sternly.

She sighed, "I know that, but there is something else ...I...I..." She started coughing hard.

I got concerned when her heart started to stutter again.

'I wasn't even close to her.

That got me overly nervous. I was afraid if I went to her I would make it worse.

"What is it, love?" I asked. I felt like I was going to cry. Of course that is impossible.

"Edward...I don't think I am going to make it." She sad her eyes all sad. She was crying now. Tears silently going down her cheeks. That broke my heart every time that I saw her cry. I have only seen her cry three times. Two tiimes were because of me.

I rolled my eyes. But my heart clutched in my chest. "DOn't be silly Bella. You will make it. You will be fine. You'll...you"ll..."

I stopped talking when I saw the tired look in her eyes. I started to look at her fully. She looked thinner than usual. She looked deadly. Her skin was paler than a corpse. Her eyes a little watery. Her chocolate eyes were starting to look like a sad puppy. In the contrast of her skin, her eyes loked huge.

I was at her side in a second. I was now holding her hand making sure she was okay. I felt horrible.

I love her so much. She is my life. My existence. The reason why I was still here, standing and living. Sort of. I couldn't live with out her. Ever.

My eyes stun again. I looked at her. Wait ing for her to speak.

"Edward, I love you so much. And I want you to make a promise to me. Okay?" she looked at me with a serious expression, and continued when I didn't answer, "Don't die on me, if I go. Because I can promise you that I will come back and find you."

She was smiling a sad smile.

But she was serious, and I could tell.

"Bella, you aren't going to die, I can promise you that. I won't let..." She put her tiny hand up to stop me.

"Edward, Even if I don't, I don't want you to make a move were you would hurt yourself or kill yourself, because I was gone for a little while. I promise and vow now that I will come back to this place, and be here when you get back." She was trying to get me to look into her eyes.

But I couldn't handle the thought of not being with her anymore.

I sighed. I wasn't going to argue with her. "I promise Bella. I won't do anything stupid. I believe you when you say that you will come back." I was suprised when I realized the truth in my words that I made to her. I wasn't lying.

At all.

She smiled. Also noticing the truth behind my words.

"Good." She said with a satisfied smile on her face. "Now will you send Alice in a go find Carisle. I think I need a little more pain killers for my leg." She smiled.

God how I love that smile.

I smiled my crooked smiling, knowing how much she loved this smile. Her stuttered everytime.

"Okay, love. I will be back soon." I smiled and left the room and Alice was there at the door already. She was thinking about fashion styles that she would be doing for Rose.

She was trying to distract me from something. But I was too focused on what Bella needed.

I went to go find Carisle.

I found him talking to one of the nurses

She had a very, very dirty mind. I winced. Ugh, this is the conditions for being able to read minds.

I was on the first floor. Bella was on the 4th floor.

Hmmmmm...I wonder why I thought of that...

My thoughts were yet again interrupted by the nurses perverted thoughts.

"Dad?" I said out loud catching the attention of the nurse and Carisle.

The nurses dirty thoughts went to me.

"Edward, what is wrong?" Carisle asked.

"Bella wants you to give her more pain killers." I smiled at that. You would think that she was starting to get addicted to them.

Carisle laughed, the nurses heart sang. Ugh! Gross!

"Alright I will be there in a minute." He smiled.

Then I heard someones thoughts screaming at me.

Alice.

Then I heard her voice. "Edward! Edard, Dad! Come quick. It's Bella!" She was freaking out. But her mind was unclear. Like it was keeping me out again.

But once she said Bella's name. I wasn't paying attention

"What happened? Is she alright?" Carisle asked. As we were running down the hallway at human speed. We ran up the stairs knowing no one would be on them.

We ran at vampire speed

"Well, we were talking and she asked me if I would give her a pen and paper and an envolpe. I got it for her and she started writing. Then she finished then asked me to make promises to her. Then she asked for a glasses of water...and...and..."

"AND WHAT?" I asked. Angry now. Because her thoughts were on fashion again. I didn't see anything from what she was saying in her mind.

"She stopped brething." She said in a whisper as we walked into the room.

Bella's peaceful face, was pale, and her eyes were closed.

And her heard was no longer beating.

I ran to her side. Shaking her.

"BELLA! BELLA NO NONO!" I was screaming. Just then Charlie and Renee came in. I was freaking out. Holding on to Bella. I was sobbing. "BELLA! bella...no..." I whispered.

Renee started crying. Charlie was holding Renee now. There was something wrong...

Chief Swan was crying too.

But I wasn't paying attention again.

I was to focused on the dead body of the love of my existence.

Carisle pulled me back and said something along the lines for him to look at her.

Alice was holding me as I sobbed into her. She was sobbing to.

I then noticed five letters on the table.

One to Renee, Charlie, Alice. my family, and me.

Renee and Charlie went to Bella's side, and started hugging her, as Carisle made it offical that she was gone.

I was in denil.

I couldn't believe it.

We had just been talking about this. How she wanted me to wait for her. How she thought that she wasn't going to make it. How she thought that...no HOPED that I would change her.

I had my chance. I had it. But I was selfish and let her die

It was my fault.

Alice handed me the letter from her to me. But I wouldn't read it. I just went to Bella's side when Charlie and Renee went to go read theirs

My Bella was gone.

(memory ended)

PRESENT TIME: 17 YEARS LATER

Maybe if I had been able to save her. Maybe if I had listened to her plea to become one of us, she would still be her with me.

Alice wouldn't talk to me after I told her that I could live without Bella and without everyone else.

She looked so hurt.

I said that to her four days after we barried Bella's body.

Everyday though, I went to her cemetary. I told her everyday that I would keep my promise to her. Then I would ask her when she was coming back. SOmetimes I would run into Chrlie and he would ask how I have been. I would do the same to be polite.

He would ask me if I had met anyone. I would tell him everytime for five years after the funeral. No

But each time that I went I noticed a difference. It felt different when I went there after the funeral.

The ground felt empty underneath the bed of ground. Kind of like her body was gone and had disappeared.

We were back in Washington. ALice and Jasper had rejoined us after 17 years of silence from Alice.

Well she talked to everyone else, but me for 17 years.

When she saw me, she was thinking of fashion.

Like she was the day Bella died...

I gave up. Thinking of that day was to painful and looking at Alice...somehow she reminded me of Bella.\

Maybe it was how close they were thta made me unconfortable.

We were living in Tacoma now. We couldn't go back to Forks. Not yet that would take at least thirty years to do. But Rosalie wanted to go back to Washington.

So we did.

Today wa our first day of school.

I was a junior again.'

Alice still wouldn't talk to me and we had first period together. Emmet and Rosalie and Jasper were going to there first period classes when me and Alice were walking the other way.

As I was walking in the hallways of the school with ALice, I noticed a familar color of hair.

It was a mahogany brown color. It came to the middle of the back of the small girls back with it. Her backside was somehow familar too. Her scent as well...

My heart clutched in my chest. If I was human I wouldn't be able to breathe.

Then Alice called out to the girl. "Hey! Bells!" I couldn't believe my ears. Was she crazy? Bella was dead.

Then the girl turned around and smiled.

I was frozen. It was her

Bella

She smiled at me. Alice walked over to her and said hello. Then Alice looked at me and shook her head.

I realized once she stepped near the beautiful girl I couldn't her Alice's thoughts anymore.

Then the angel walked over to me.

I couldn't hear her thoughts either.

She looked up at me with a smile on her face. She had the same brown eyes as her. But I could tell they were contacts.

She whispered to me quickly, "I told you I'd be back." Then she skipped off with Alice.

I was frozen even after when the bell rang.

I was overwhemeld.

Confused

But then I felt something else that I haven't felt in 17 years.

Hope.

But it was immediatly crushed when I heard Alice's thoughts.

"Remember? you said you didn't want her. Right after her funeral. And she heard you say it you bastard."

I frowned. But how could she have heard me?

A/N: Haha. Edwward is clueless sometimes. Don't worry Bella's point of view will be next.
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