A/N So this was actually an assignment for a graduate class I had this evening. We were simply given the instruction to write a letter to a fictional character and this was born. I enjoyed writing this so much I couldn't help but share it. I hope you all enjoy it as well, and please review!

November 30, 1981

Dear Sirius,

I know you'll probably never receive this, but I figured I had to try. I heard what happened to Lily, James, and Peter… and I just can't wrap my mind around it. How does someone go from so good, to so bad? I'm sure you'll get a kick out of this, but the Auror Department is forcing me to see a therapist now. Because of what happened, because of what you made happen, and she somehow thinks that this will help. I'm not quite sure how yet, all it seems to be doing is making me angrier.

Not that that's your problem of course. Apparently, none of us were ever your problem. Dumbledore said that your family must have had longer thorns than any of ever expected, to poison you in such a way. I'm still not convinced it was for your family. The hate there… well even now I can't accept you were that good of an actor. There must have been something else, another reason that I… that we, somehow missed.

Anyway, my therapist said I'm not supposed to "accuse," so this is me. Not accusing you of killing our best friends. Yup. No accusations at all. Even though you did. Even though you created a living hell for me and Remus. But whatever, I'm not accusing you of anything.

Speaking of Remus, he's hurting worse then you could ever imagine. I'm watching out for him, but there's only so much I can truly do at this point. He lost his job again. That muggle bookstore? Turns out it's actually ran by a squib who put two in two together on the days he called out sick. So, yeah. He's jobless. I'm trying to convince him to stay with me but we all know how difficult he can be, how stubborn. So, for now, I'm just leaving him be. After all, he knows he's always welcome on my couch.

I think Remus would be better if he could see Harry, but Dumbledore won't tell us where he is. He claims it's for Harry's safety. But you already know my thoughts on Dumbledore so I'll leave that be. It's officially been one month since Harry was orphaned. And now, not only has he lost his parents, but he lost all of us too. He's alone. And I blame that on you.

You'll hate to hear this, but Severus came to check on me the other day. Yes, Severus Snape. Yes, Snivellus. He knows how much I lost that day, and he said he was worried for me, being alone and all. I reminded him I had Remus but… Remus isn't very Moony these days, so I guess he's not too wrong about the being alone thing. Anyway, we had tea and it was nice. He's coming back over next week. I just knew how overjoyed you'd be to hear that.

Anyway, I have a life I need to get back to. Maybe this letter will find you. Maybe it never will. Either way, I have one wish for you:

Get fleas.

Sincerely,

Someone who once called you friend.