There she was again. Her clothes baggier then ever before. Her head hung down and her hair falling around her face. Her hands clung to her arms, she was shivering. People watched as she walked by, she was making her way to the chior room, alone like usual. As she entered all the talking going on stopped. They all looked up and watched as the short brunette took a seat in the back of the chior room.
No one said a word after that. They sat there quietly, listening to Mr. Schuester. "OK gang. For this week's assignment, I want you to do a ballad. Well, really, just a song that tells a very emotitional story." His eyes landed on the small girl in the back of the room as he said the words. Everyone nodded, going back to talking about what song they would do and how they would choregraph it.
Many decided songs for moods. No surprise. It was a small school, the only real drama that had happened at McKinley was when Quinn was pregnant. Nothing else. Well, there was something else but no one dared talk about it. How could they? How could this Glee club talk about how one of it's most talented, OK, talk about their MOST talented member being aneroxic?
Now, it hurt to think about it, it hurt all of them to think about it. It hurt Mr. Finn Hudson the most. Sure, she wasn't his girlfriend anymore. But he knew he still loved her. He couldn't stop loving her. And the way she was now. It killed him. He should have stood up for her all those times someone would make fun of her or how she looked. But he didn't. He just laughed a long sometimes. Like he didn't care about her. Which wasn't true. He loved her the whole time. He still did.
He thought about what song to do. The perfect song for his mood right now would have to be, "Just a Dream" by Nelly. It was perfect. But question was, what song was Rachel going to sing? What was she feeling like. What was she thinking. All those baggy clothes on her didn't match her. It wasn't her anymore. No showtunes for this assignment at all. What could it be?
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The days went by until it was time for them to start performing their songs. Merecedes had gone first, she sang "Playing God" by Paramore. Kind of out of her element, but then again. It was how she was feeling. She was pretty mad at some people, so it made sense.
Quinn went next, her song was "This Is the Stuff" by Francesca Battistelli. Oh, that was Quinn. She always was getting ticked off at certain things. Finally, the time came when Finn could do his song. But then the bell rang for lunch. They all left the chior room. Finn was to start right after lunch.
As they headed to lunch Finn noticed as Rachel totally avoided the lunch line. She took a seat at a table in the far corner and sat there, staring out the window. Finn bought his food, and something vegan just in case Rachel got hungry, he walked over to where she was and sat down. He smiled at her and noticed that those bright brown eyes that always made him smile were dark and dull. No smile in it. Just depression and sadness. Nothing else.
This wasn't the girl he once knew. A diease had crept into her. Telling her she wasn't good enough. Telling her she wasn't pretty enough. Telling her she wasn't skinny enough. He watched as she looked back to the window and stared blankly. He sighed slightly and took a bite of the pizza he got. He watched as a small tear trickled down the tiny girl's face. He reached out to wipe it from her cheek as she flinched away from his touch and stood up, grabbing her bag and walking out of the cafeteria. He quickly followed behind. Following her back into the chior room, not completly though. He stood outside as he heard her talk for the first time in days.
"Here's the sheet music. This isn't the exact song I'll sing. But something like it." Rachel told the band, handing out sheet music. She took her place and closed her eyes. Finn then heard the smooth voice of the girl he loved come out.
"The lights go out all around me
One last candle to keep out the night
And then the darkness surrounds me
I know I'm alive but I feel like I've died
And all that's left is to accept that it's over
My dreams ran like sand through the fists that I made
I try to keep warm but I just grow colder
I feel like I'm slipping away."
Rachel opened her eyes and walked around the empty chior room, well, except for herself and the band.
"After all this has passed, I still will remain
After I've cried my last, there'll be beauty from pain
Though it won't be today, someday I'll hope again
And there'll be beauty from pain
You will bring beauty from my pain."
The small took a seat in the front row and crossed her legs.
"My whole world is the pain inside me
The best I can do is just get through the day
When life before is only a memory
I'll wonder why God lets me walk through this place
And though I can't understand why this happened
I know that I will when I look back someday
And see how you've brought beauty from ashes
And made me as gold purified through these flames."
Rachel stood up and walked around to wear Finn had sat.
"After all this has passed, I still will remain
After I've cried my last, there'll be beauty from pain
Though it won't be today, someday I'll hope again
And there'll be beauty from pain
You will bring beauty from my pain."
Rachel touched Finn's chair and closed her eyes.
"Here I am at the end of me
Tryin' to hold to what I can't see
I forgot how to hope
This night's been so long
I cling to Your promise
There will be a dawn."
Rachel looked up and opened her eyes. A tear silently going down her cheek.
"After all this has passed, I still will remain
After I've cried my last, there'll be beauty from pain
Though it won't be today, someday I'll hope again
And there'll be beauty from pain
You will bring beauty from my pain."
Silent sobs filled the chior room and Finn watched as the band left out quietly. Not wanting to see the young diva cry. Finn closed his eyes. He was going to help her. But first, time for his song.
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After lunch, after everyone got back to the chior room Finn immediatly started his song. He looked at his fellow glee members and smiled.
"So, the song I've chosen is 'Just a Dream' by Nelly. It's about how I feel I lost the only girl I could truly love." His eyes landed on Rachel, who looked up at him, her eyes blank. "Rachel, this song is for you." He did his lopsided grin and the music started up.
"Uh uh uh
I was thinking about her
Thinking bout me
Thinkin bout us
What we gunna be?
Open my eyes,
it was only just a dream...
So I travel back
down that road
Will she come back?
No one knows
I realize
It was only just a dream."
Finn kept his eyes on Rachel, waiting for any hint of emotion.
"I was at the top and now its like I'm in the basement
Number 1 spot, Now she find her a replacement
I swear now I can't take it
Knowing somebody's got my baby
Now you ain't around, baby I can't think
I shoulda put it down, shoulda got that ring
Cuz I can still feel it in the air
See her pretty face, run my fingers through her hair
My love of my life, My shawty, my wife
She left me, Im tied.
Cuz I knew that it just ain't right
I was thinking about her
Thinking bout me
Thinkin bout us
What we gunna be?
Open my eyes,
it was only just a dream...
So I travel back
Down that road
Will she come back?
No one knows
I realize
It was only just a dream. "
Finn started to dance a bit, though it was bad.
"When I be ridin' man I swear I see your face at every turn
Trying to get my usher on but I can't let it burn
And I just hope she know that she the only one I yearn for
More and more, I miss her, when will I learn?
Didn't give her all my love
I guess now I got my payback
Now i'm in the club thinking all about my baby
HEY, she was so easy to love
But wait, I guess that love wasn't enough
I'm going through it everytime that I'm alone
And now I'm wishin' wishin' she'd pick up the phone
But she made a decision that she wanted to move on
Cause I was wrong.
I was thinking about her
Thinking bout me
Thinkin bout us
What we gunna be?
Open my eyes,
it was only just a dream...
So I travel back
Down that road
Will she come back?
No one knows
I realize
It was only just a dream...
If you ever loved somebody put your hands up
If you ever loved somebody put your hands up
And now they're gone and you wish you could give them everything
If you ever loved somebody put your hands up
If you ever loved somebody put your hands up
And now they're gone and you wish you could give them everything."
Finn raised his hands up and watched as other fellow members did the same.
"I was thinking about her
Thinking bout me
Thinkin bout us
What we gunna be?
Open my eyes,
it was only just a dream...
So I travel back
Down that road
Will she come back?
No one knows
I realize
It was only just a dream...
I was thinking about her
Thinking bout me
Thinkin bout us
What we gunna be?
Open my eyes,
it was only just a dream...
So I travel back
Down that road
Will she come back?
No one knows
I realize
It was only just a dream... "
The music ended and everyone clapped, including a still sad looking Rachel Barbra Berry. He nodded with some sort of accomplisment to her clapping. He took his seat and watched the weak girl throughout the rest of the meeting.
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OK, so this a remake to my old story, which I deleted, it was called "Courage" just as this one is called. I didn't put a lot of detail into it and it didn't get many reviews so I decided to rewrite it. Though with more emotion and depth to the story and Rachel's illness and hopefully recovery. Who knows, I may just make this a really sad ending. But like I said, who knows? Oh right, I do! Hehehe! Anyway, did you like it? I worked on it when I should be sleeping. But oh well. I had a Glee marathon today and just wanted to write something again. Anyway, review it please. It would help me out a lot if you would.
SONGS:
"This is the Stuff" by Francesca Battistelli. /watch?v=pqqdA8LHN7I
"Playing God" by Paramore /watch?v=iDy2wCQYSrU
"Beauty from Pain" by Superchick /watch?v=M-GPbYcTDbQ&feature=related
"Just a Dream" by Nelly /watch?v=N6O2ncUKvlg
If you didn't know this, those /watch stuff are the ends of Youtube links. So just copy and paste them after the whole youtube url.
I hope you like it! Please review! Did I do good with the song choices for each character that I talked about. I got some song ideas for other characters for the next chapter. Anyway, I can give shoutouts as well for the next chapter so if you want a shoutout at the end of the next chapter just type in the review thing, "Gleek freak and proud! 3" That's waht you put and I'll put your username in the ending of the next chapter!