Think whatever you think of me, but I´ve to be honest, the first time I met Koda, I hate him.
I know, how bad I´m, but there I was, hanging upside down, thinking that I carried all the problems of the world on my back, and the last thing I needed on that moment was a talking bear cub, I just wanted that he disappeared from my life forever, but no, he stayed there for the entire day and he even help me to get out or the trap.
But even do, I didn't wanted Koda near me, I have agreed that I will accompany to The Salmon Run just because I never thought he would be actually capable of release me, but he did, and then, Denahi made his appearance, I think I was going to be safe with him, but soon I found out that wasn´t going to happen, my brother thought I had been killed by the bear, and now he was hunting me.
I run as fast as I could and I hide on an ice cave, where Koda had also hide, what a coincidence, Denahi lost the trail and I felt really bad, my own brother was trying to kill me, since we were kids we fight a lot, but never with the intention of hurt each other, and besides, I knew that wasn´t my brother, I never see him so anger and sad, but even on that moment, Koda was able to distract me from the pain.
He and his moves, were funny, but I still wanted to be transform into a human again, forget about that horrible nightmare, and get away from Koda, I was so selfish that I didn´t see that Koda needed more help than myself, but luckily Koda mentioned that close to The Salmon Run there was the Mountain where the Lights Touched the Earth, because otherwise I would have run away and lost the best thing that had happened in my life.
Well, going back to the story, I accepted to go with him, but I wasn´t happy, my only thought was end the journey, be a human again and get away from Koda forever, how foolish I was.
Like I predicted, at first the journey was a nightmare, Koda with his incessant voice, his foolish games, stopping every time to talk with any kind of animals, and leaving me ashamed because I didn´t knew how to be a bear, but has days passed, I start to like Koda, he was friendly and, at least you never get bore when he was close, all those things that I hated from Koda at the beginning, started to be my favorites ones, even his jokes.
The ride on mammoth was also funny, never before I had so fun with it, maybe because other times I always do it alone since Sitka and Denahi didn´t tried it with me.
And then, when we lost the way and we get into a fight for that, I felt really bad for how I treated him, after all, he was right, he had helped me a lot, so, immediately I feel bad, because he was giving all his effort to spend a good time, and, I also have part of the fault.
And then, when he found the old human residence, I felt nostalgic about the life that had been take away from me, and when I saw the draw of the bear fighting the man, I feel worse for seen that I´d become the monster I hated, but there was Koda once again to open my eyes, because there he show me who the real monster was, the humans, of course I didn´t see all this on that same moment, but, it surprised me a lot, and I think, that I was even afraid, afraid that if he found out the truth about me, he would reject me.
So, our bond was starting to grow, protect him became a vitality for me, maybe that was the feeling that Sitka had when the sacrificed himself to save me and Denahi, speaking of him.
When he found us on the fire land, Koda´s safety was more important that myself, I was able to put Koda away from danger, but when I saw Denahi… my pain was full of pain, he wasn´t the funny guy who liked to tease me and have fun with me, he was a person that had lost everyone he loved and the only thing that motive him was revenge, and I couldn't do nothing to help him, I can´t talk with him, I think the worst part was my impotence…
And when my brother jump the cliff, my heart wanted to go out of my body, I had lost one brother and the only think I needed, was lost another one, the trunk started to fall and I tried to stop it, when I saw Denahi, for one moment I thought my eyes will tell him that it was me, but, It didn´t work, and the trunk ended falling.
The good news, Denahi was fine, but he was sad, and his desire of revenge was still there, and I was the responsible, I wanted so desperately tell to my brother that I was fine, that there was no need of the violence, I didn´t want him to suffer more, but there was still things to fix before that happened.
So, Koda and I returned the walking, and Koda tell me something really important that opened my eyes, how many times humans were the first in attack? I realized that in fact, most of the time where the humans the ones who attacked the bears and no the other way round.
But, human pride comes into the way and I didn't want to accept it.
Anyway, so we finally he reached the Salmon Run, and men I was scared, never before I had been between so many bears, it was frightening, but luckily, everyone show me that they weren't the monsters I thought they were, they were a big and lovely family who was happily of adding another bear on it, so, I have fun and bears, well, become my favorites animals in the world.
And it was also there when, when I knew that I loved Koda like a brother, he was everything someone could ask in a little brother, the bear who at first was the biggest pain of my neck, became one of the living things that I most love in my life, he was funny, likeable, annoying and adorable, it was impossible not loving him.
But it was also there, where I realized the biggest mistake of my life, the bear who I thought had been the responsible of Sitka´s death, was Koda´s mom, the bear I´ve killed, I felt like a monster, I have leaved a kid orphaned, and there was nothing I could do.
With my body full of pain and regret, I run away, but Koda found me and I knew that I have to tell him, even if that meaning his hate, it was one of the saddest moment of my life, and when I finish, he looked at me like a monster, I had leaved him down, he run away from me, despite I call him, I didn´t wanted his hate, I want his love, I want to fix things, but I didn´t knew how, been a human again wasn´t my goal anymore, I just wanted Koda´s forgiveness, but I knew that was impossible, so, I head to the Mountain, hoping Sitka will help me, even if I don´t deserve it.
And there, Denahi was and he almost killed me, for the most part, I think that would have been fair, but…
Like an answer to a prayer.
Koda came to save me, I couldn´t believe it, there he was, facing Denahi just to save me despite what I´ve tell him, my heart was fixed, I knew Koda had forgiven me.
But there was no time for that, Denahi still wanted us death, Koda grabbed his spear and started to run while Denahi was chasing him, I recovered immediately, if Koda died it will be my fault, I´ve already have cause him a lot of pain, so, if I at least could save him, I will died in peace.
And for one moment, it seemed that I was going to have a "divine punishment" I jump over Denahi and he pointed at me with his spear, I was sure I was going to die like Koda´s mom.
But Sitka came and not only he safe me, he also returned me to my human form, and also, I could see Sitka again, I was so happy of seen my big brother again, and to be human again that the fact of been completely naked didn´t bother me at all.
But when I saw Koda, he was looking at me with so much terror, I had lost him one time and I didn´t wanted to lost him again, I approach him, and (I have to admit, he looks very cute when he´s scared) and I tell him that I was still he´s brother, he understood my words and jump to my arms, it was one of the best moments of my life, because, he understood that despite my form I was still his brother, and that I will love him forever, no mattered what, and also there I understood that he was now my responsibility, I couldn't leave him there, he didn´t have anyone, except me, and even if it was going to hurt me leave my human life, and Denahi, I knew Koda needed me more, Denahi was two years older than and he could take care of myself, but Koda was only a kid and he needed someone to protect him.
So, even if it hurt me, I renounce to my human life, to stay with Koda…
And now, I´m living my life very happily with him, we take care of each other, I love Koda and I know I made the right choice, and, I´m happy that everyone in my village, including Denahi, understood and accept my decision, and even if they didn´t accept it, I don´t care, because Koda is…
My Brother Bear.
And nothing is going to change that.