DISCLAIMER: I hate to admit this but… Gundam SEED (Kidou Senshi Gundam SEED) and Gundam SEED Destiny (Kidou Senshi Gundam SEED Destiny) is none of my properties, including the characters, I don't own them (although I hope I do ). It is fan's duty to mess up with the story and characters.
Special thanks to my Lord Jesus Christ for His blessings and guidance
Well, Let's into the fic but… I've warned you… My grammar SUCK! I'm not good at written English (should I take a course?), so forgive me for that.
Chapter One: Mayoinagara
It's dark outside. A twenty year old blonde stood unsteadily after got up from her chair. She felt unusually weak that night. Not only that night, a few nights before, she had started to feel some kind of strange pain in her abdominal area. It was just, that night, she couldn't stand the pain.
Unable to walk properly, she decided to sit on the guest chair in front of her desk.
She sighed.
She felt a bit lonely. Her twin brother, Kira Yamato, had no longer lived in Orb; he left to PLANT, along with his girlfriend, Lacus Clyne. She didn't really mind his moving to PLANT. He had to be with Lacus, and with Lacus pointed as the chairwoman of Terminal, he certainly had to move to PLANT along with her. Moreover, Kira was pointed as the high commander of ZAFT.
She's not really alone, actually. Kisaka and Todaka still at Orb, but that's not the matter.
Then how about Athrun Zala?
She shook her head sadly.
"He's no longer here", she murmured to herself.
She stood, and then made an attempt to leave her office, but suddenly, her vision blurred and became unclear, her head went extremely dizzy, and when she tried to move…
…She suddenly went unconscious, and fainted.
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That guy stood still right in front of the window. Looking onto the night sky, he gazed upon the stars, while his right hand held something inside it.
It was a tiny box. Wonder what's inside it?
"Nobody would use this method to give a ring to someone"
Her voice just kept echoed inside his head, every day, every hour, every second… And also her smile, her attitude, her tears and laughter…
Suddenly a couple of knocks were heard.
"Athrun-san, my I come in?", a girl's voice was heard from the outside of the door.
He kept that small thing inside his drawer, then answered, "Sure"
A red-haired girl with a sweet smile came inside his office, than said, "Sorry for bothering you this late…"
"It's okay", he smiled, "So…?"
"Don't 'so' me, Athrun-san", she answered cheerfully, "Or at least you would allow me to sit, would you?"
"Oh, sorry…", he answered with a little laugh, "…have a seat please, Miss Hawke"
"But there's no need for you to suddenly talk like that…", she sat on the chair in front of his desk, "…anyway, I just dropped by to say goodbye, since I'll move to Copernicus tomorrow…"
That guy just stared at his desk, unable to say anything.
"Hmm? Athrun-san? Did I say anything wrong?", that girl asked in a guilty tone.
"No, not really", he answered, "It's just that… You've helped me so much that I couldn't do anything in return…"
"What? Don't mind it, Athrun-san, it's no big deal, besides, if at that day Shinn didn't attack us, I wouldn't be here having a chat with you… My days at Archangel… That has taught me many things about this war…"
"Is that so?"
That girl nodded, and then said, "It's been a year after the war ended…"
"Yeah… I'm sorry…"
"I think your 'sorry' is useless now, Athrun… You've done nothing wrong to me…", Meyrin smiled gently, "…but you've done many mistakes to her…", she murmured.
He gazed into the skies again, and then answered, "You're absolutely right…"
"You heard that?", she asked surprisingly.
Just a nod he gave her while he gazed into the skies, again.
"You know, maybe I was quite stupid… When I confessed to you…", she blushed a little, "…then you rejected me with that reason… You said that you still love someone else… I want to say something to you… Maybe the reason I did that stupid things was because you just like an older brother to me, but I misunderstood that feeling as... You know… I don't have a brother, and I was quite childish back then… Anyway, sorry for all the troubles I've brought to you…"
He shook his head, than said, "You know, Meyrin? I don't have any siblings too, but I think it would be nice to have a little sister like you…"
"If that was from the bottom of your heart, I really appreciated it", she smiled, "And I think the same too… I mean, it would be very nice to have a brother like you… You know, all I have just a sister who's always far more superior than me… Honestly, I was a bit jealous when she kept clinging with you at Minerva… But not now, of course"
They laughed a little.
"By the way, how's Lunamaria?"
"She's fine, really really fine…", she answered, "…probably she and her new husband are having a great time together at this Saturday night…"
"Her husband… You mean Shinn, right?"
"No, he's not Shinn, he's Durandall… Of course not! If it's not Shinn, who else? I don't really know how the two of them get along really well suddenly…"
Athrun thought deep inside, Maybe I shouldn't tell her that probably they are getting along very well because they once thought Meyrin was dead…
"Aw, it's getting late…", she said while she looked at the clock.
"No, it's not getting late, it's already late I think", he smiled.
"You're right… Anyway, are you going to see her tomorrow? I mean, Miss Athha… When I take a look at the news, she has been really busy recently, no; I didn't mean anything, just…"
"I know, Meyrin. That's a fact; maybe it's going to be very difficult to see her…"
She looked at the emerald eyes of his, which filled with guilt and sadness now.
"Athrun-san…", she asked carefully, "…you still love her"
He just answered with a small nod and sad smile.
"I just want to be beside her, even if she choose someone else…", he gazed upon the stars, again and again.
"Let me guess, 'I don't think she will forgive me for everything I've done to her, maybe that's why she returned the ring to me' is what are you thinking right now, maybe?"
Athrun startled, "How can you read my mind like that?"
Meyrin giggled, "It's written above your head… Just kidding", then she smiled gently, "don't be such a coward, Athrun-san. She's not someone like that, I know…"
"Please take care of Athrun…"
Meyrin still remember, how unstable her voice, how her eyes shone sadly as she said that phrase to her. And she was stupid enough to fulfil her request, though.
"Athrun-san?", Meyrin asked, "Can you promise me one thing? As a brother to her little sister, I meant…"
"What?"
"Promise me you'll be happy wherever you are… Mail me, okay?"
"Sure. And good luck at your teacher training… I heard you're going to be an instructor at Copernicus"
"That's what I've dreamt, so I'll work hard for sure", she waved her hand, "See you then"
"Bye"
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Meanwhile, at Aprilius city, a brunette was driving back home. He looked pretty nervous. Beside him, a small velvet box lied on the seat.
Kira Yamato, the high commander of ZAFT, had decided to propose his girlfriend, Lacus Clyne that night. That's why he looked dead nervous that night.
He had spent a week just to find the perfect ring for Lacus. And, well said, he had been searching from all over PLANT. He had observed every single store at every shopping mall from Januarius city from December city, yet he found the perfect one at Aprilius city.
Suddenly his cell phone rang. He took a glimpse at it, it was his mother who called. He pressed a button on his handsfree device to answer it.
"Hello"
"Ah, Kira", a woman's voice was heard from the other line, "How's your day? You seldom call…"
"Umm, well, a bit busy, Mom… Sorry for not calling you recently… How's Orb?"
"Fine, your sister rule it pretty well, I suppose"
"As I expected", suddenly Kira remembered something, "Mom, I wanna ask you something…"
"Go ahead, son"
"Well, dunno how to say it…", he thought for a second, "…Mom, you must've known Lacus Clyne, right?"
"Sure"
"You must've known that she has been my girlfriend for these three years, haven't you?"
"I've known that, why don't you go straight to the point, Kira?"
"Okay then… Do you approve of her becoming your… Umm…", Kira gulped, "…your daughter-in-law?"
Kira waited for his mother's response impatiently, but he still felt uneasy.
"Why not? She's a good girl; I don't see anything wrong in her becoming your wife"
"Really? Thanks!", Kira looked extremely relieved, and started to drive recklessly due to lack of his concentration. Thanks God he's a coordinator; he could evade other cars easily so that won't be any accident.
"Hey, you don't need to thank me, Kira", his mother laughed a little, "Just make sure you have enough money for the wedding reception"
"Anyway, thanks a lot, Mom", Kira turned dangerously, and he realized that he could no longer continued the conversation, he couldn't concentrate properly, "Can we end this for a while, Mom? I'm driving right now"
"Okay then… See you, son. And good luck proposing to her tonight"
"Thanks, Mom. Bye", he pushed a button to end the conversation up, so that he could concentrate properly. He didn't want to die at such a young age, at least not before he proposed to Lacus.
Author's note: My first try on long fics… Maybe the story wasn't that good; I was a bit inspired to write this after I'd seen some other fic which looks similar to this one… Well, it does seem similar for the half first parts, but i'll tell you, this is different… Different plot… Just wait and see… HEY!!! Everyone! R&R! I'm a rookie so I'll happily accept any kinds of review, suggestion and critics gladly accepted, flames included! (Well, if there are any flames, I'll just allow you guys to talk to my hand Coz I dunno and I don't care, also, I don't want to know and don't bother to care about flames)
Btw, Mayoinagara means lost.
Special thanks to my Lord Jesus Christ…
My favourite Gospel song in my mother language (in Indonesia of course ) :
Hati Sebagai Hamba
Reff : Inilah yang kupunya/ hati sebagai hamba/ yang mau taat dan setia padaMu Bapa/ kemanapun kubawa/ hati yang menyembah/ dalam Roh dan kebenaran/ sampai s'lamanya//
This song sure inspires me a lot Thanks God!