Okay...so its obviously been years since I have even been on here...but recently I was taking a walk down memory lane and opened an old email account and came across saved reviews from old stories...I honestly forgot I had even attepted to start writing...but I guess thats what happens when you get into the real world get a job, get married, and have kids! I cannot promise i will continue this story but i have read it again and realized...it was kind of crappy! Lol. For now i will at least start trying to rewrite the chapters and see if i get the inspiration to continue.
For the purpose of my story, Jude is dating Speed, even though in the show he wasnt in the picture yet. Speed and Jude had an argument at her party and he stormed out, hence the reason she was outside alone in the rain.
Chapter 1
Disclaimer: I do not own Instant Star or any of its characters.
JUDE POV
2 hours. 120 minutes. 7200 seconds. Thats how long I've been standing here staring up at the 7th floor of the apartment building in front of me. Stalker you ask? I suppose to most it would look that way. Honestly I'm just a girl on a mission.
20 steps, thats all it would take to reach the entrance. It felt like a mile. My head and heart pulling me in different directions. I let out a long breath, my hands coming up to rub my face. Snap out of it Jude! As my eyes closed for the briefest of seconds I drifted back to just a few hours ago. I could still smell him, a scent I have come to learn cannot be bought in a bottle. I could still taste him on my lips. I could still hear the pain in his voice as he told me to go back in side, the look on his face as the rain poured down on us. Our first kiss. And if I didnt do something about it, most likely our last.
The rain was steadily coming faster and faster, but still I didn't move or run for cover. I was tired of it, tired of it all. Tired of the pain, the hurt, the anger,and the lust.I couldn't stand being so close to Tommy and not being able to touch him. It wasn't fair. From the beginning we had been attracted to each other. And it didn't help that we were constantly together for hours alone in the studio.
Months of forbidden looks innocent touches. It culminated tonight, my sweet 16, with the kiss that Tommy said shouldn't have happened. I cursed my parents over and over for not having me a few years
earlier. Things would be so much simpler then, but no, I had to be only 16, while he was 25.
Tonight that was all going to change though. I cant deny what I'm feeling anymore and neither can he.
We both wanted each other, but we both also new the consequences. So I was offering him tonight, no strings attached.
No one would know but us. I wasn't sure if he would actually agree to it or not, but I planned on putting up a good fight. I needed this. I took a deep breath. This was it. I walked to the entrance of the apartments, took one last look around me and walked through the doors. As I walked into the complex I looked at my surroundings. The inside was not what you would
have expected after seeing the outside, and from the looks, I assumed you had to have a lot of money to live in a place like this. I made my way over to the elevator, pushed the floor number and held my breath as the elevator made its climb up the building. There was no way I was backing out of this. I needed this, I needed him.
The elevator chimed as it reached its destination. I walked out and stopped at his door. This was it, there was no turning back. I knocked twice on the door and took a step back as I heard him make his way to the door.
TOMMY POV
What the hell were you thinking? Sitting on the couch I'm nursing my 3rd drink. I've lost my damn mind. I kissed her. "Argg" I groan. I cant forget the way her lips felt against mine. The warmth of her body pressed against me as I crushed my mouth against hers. She had never looked more beautiful than that moment. That grren dress that hugged her body in all the right places. Rain pouring down soaking her, tears running down her face.
I could hear her heart shatter, as she asked what she kept doing wrong in her relationships. Oh baby, if you only knew.
I was the last guy she should be talking to about this. How the hell could I fall for her, shes 16 for fucks sake!
I know the smart thing to do would be to leave, tell Georgia I could no longer be Judes producer. I let out a deep breath
There was no way I would ever stop producing her. I couldnt stand not being around her every day. I would rather be with her as a friend, watching as her and Speed grow closer and closer everyday, then her not be in my life at all. Apparently I like putting myself through torture. And that's what it is.
Torture! It was torture working with her ever day in such close proximities and not being able to touch her or hold her. I want her so bad it hurts. There has got to be something wrong with me. Im in love with a 16 year-old. I leaned back on the couch and closed my eyes. She's always there. No matter what I am doing, she is always on my mind.
"Okay; stop." I told myself out loud. Trying to forget the images in my head. I was getting up to go the kitchen when I heard a knock at the door. What the fuck? It was almost 2 in the morning. I made my way over to the door. I opened it and was surprised to find the object of my frustration standing there.
"Jude?"
JUDE POV
I watched as the door was slowly opened and light poured out of the room into the dimly lit hallway. "Jude," he asked me in bewilderment. He took in my disheveled
appearance. I knew I had to look rough. I was soaked to the bone, and the only thing covering my body was a long leather coat. Although it had been a spur of the moment decision to come here, I had planned it well. The jacket was long enough to cover just above my knees, no one could tell if I was actually wearing anything underneath it or not. I'm not. "Hey Tommy, can I come in? I need to talk to you."
He moved away from the door, a signal for me to enter. I hid a small grin as I brushed past him. "Step one complete," I
thought to myself. I honestly expected him to shut the door in my face. I walked the small length of the hallway and entered in to the sitting room. I took in the room quickly. There were scattered pictures across one of the walls, one in particular caught my attention. It was us together after my first concert. He had his arm wrapped around my shoulders as I grinnned up to the camera, but his eyes were focused on me. I turned to take in the rest if the room. It was nice…it was Tommy. He walked past me and sat on the closest chair to the door He motioned for me to sit across from him. As I moved past him I could feel the electricity between us return. Sat there just watching him as he did the same, not quite ready to break the silence. Still trying to gain the courage to tell him what I wanted. "Why are you here Jude," he asked. Ok strait to the point. He was nervous. I could here it in his voice. I was nervous too, but I wouldn't let him know that.
I took a deep breath, this was it. "Okay Tommy, I am here for one reason and for one reason only," I watched as one eyebrow lifted in question. "And what might that be?" "I'm here to fuck." I said it as simply as if it was nothing out of the ordinary, as if I was telling him that it was in fact raining outside. He sat there, frozen. I looked at the clock on the wall and waited patiently as five whole minutes went by. I almost began to wonder if he had went comatose. I was just standing up, about to shake him out of it when he laughed. This wasn't the regular chuckle this was an all out laugh. He was practically rolling on the floor. He was laughing at me.
I saw nothing funny in the matter; to me this was a matter of life and death, not something to joke about. Okay so maybe it wasn't actually that serious, but still, he was laughing at me. It wasn't as if I went around saying things like this all the time. "That was good Jude, but seriously why are you here?" When he noticed that I still wasn't laughing he suddenly went quiet. "You're serious?" He asked astonished. "Deadly," I stated. That was when he stood. He looked at me. He ran a hand through his hair. "No. Jude you need to go. Now! It's late, and you should be in bed. And we are most certainly not," he paused, looking deeply at me again, "fucking as you so colorfully put it." I stood too. "I am not going anywhere. Not until you listen to what I have to say." I protested. "Jude, no, this is not happening…there is not anything you can say to change my mind. We are not having sex."
I knew then that I was going to have to go to plan B. "Tommy, you know you want me. You need this, you need me," I stated confidently.
TOMMY POV
I didn't answer at first. Was she fucking crazy? I never in a million years expected those words to come out of her mouth. And Im having a hard time hiding how hot it had been to hear those words from her. I shifted uncomfortably. Although she was right, I did want her,there was no way I could have sex with her. For so many reasons; one she was jailbait and two I'm her producer. Both of our jobs would be on the line. "It doesn't matter what I want Jude. It's not going to happen." She smirked then. "But you admit that you want me?" Shes standing there biting her lip, looking at me expectantly. "You already know the answer to that girl." It came out in a ragged whisper.
I walked towards her, but stopped when I came within touching distance. I started to raise my hand to cup her cheek, but quickly dropped it again. I couldn't take the chance. I listened as she went on and
on about why we should have sex. "Tommy, one night together; no one will ever know but us. We both need it. We need to get rid of the tension between us. It just keeps getting
worse. And I can't keep working like this. I need you out of my system." She was pleading with me. I knew she was right. I wanted her. I wanted her more than I had ever wanted another girl. And the thought was more tempting then sin, but I couldnt do it, I can't let myself. I looked her in the eyes. "No Jude. There are way to many things standing in the way, you really need to go." I was so close to her I could feel the heat coming off her body. With a defeated sigh she turned towards the door. I turned the other way. I couldn't watch as she walked out.
JUDE POV
As I reached the door I turned once more towards him. I was not giving up that easily. "Oh Tommy, there was one more thing." He quickly turned. "Yeah," he asked. His eyes
followed my hands every move. I reached up to the top of the jacket, to the top button. Slowly I slipped the first button through the hole. I wanted to laugh as his eyes nearly bugged out of his head. I coukd gus his sharp intake of breath and he stood up straiter, more tense, as all of the buttons to the jacket came undone. As the last button pshed thru the hole he looked into my eyes. He couldn't say anything, he was too shocked.
Never breaking eye contact, I slowly let the jacket fall to the ground. There I stood, in all my naked glory, well except for the 2 inch silver wrap around heels. I slowly made my way towards
him.
TOMMY POV
She really had lost her mind. I didn't know what to expect when she told me there was one more thing she had to say but I wasn't expecting a strip. I was unable to say
anything as the buttons came undone. I could do nothing but watch as the Jacket slowly slipped to the floor. Oh jeez she was naked. Turn around dumbass quit staring at her. God she's beautiful. What else was I supposed to do? I let my gaze run over her body. She has the body of goddess and looked so soft and those legs that went on for days. God those legs, they could rap round me and…."Damnit .Jude." The words came out in a harsh whisper. She couldn't do this to me. And then she is walking towards me.
Dont do anything your going to regret. My mind whispered to me.
I quickly put my hands behind my back. She was now standing right in front of me. He breasts were touching my chest. I groaned. I
wanted nothing more that to take her right then. But my shock for the evening was not over. I was just about to tutn her away when she reached up and pulled my head down to hers.
I was a gonner.
Okay so what did you think? Is it still as bad as my writing when I was a teenager? Lol.