Suspicions bubbles

Sammygirl16: I wrote this as a response to 'turn out the lights turn up the volume' by 'crysalgemmaker'. Its an idea that I had. This is my first ever fan fiction story, hope you like it, review please and please I welcome constructive criticism, it will help with how I can improve. Anyways hope you like it J R&R

The hallway was dim and dingy, thick cigarette smoke filled the air, I rushed to the stairs in order to leave the apartment building as soon as I could. oh why did I do it? How could I, how could I cheat? I tugged my white jacket further around me, I felt sick, I felt like a object, like a dare I say it a whore.

This wasn't like me. I was raised better than this. I was just a spoilt girl from uptown, ever since I'd came to the city I'd changed. People always took me as innocent my blue eyes and soft blonde hair made me look completely innocent.

I didn't think I could even look butch in they eye after what I had done with another man. I loved butch he was the only man I loved, yet I had done this. I rubbed at my arms to create heat as my breath was visible in front of me.

It was winter and the whole city was frozen over. My skin smelt of him. I needed to shower before butch saw me, what if he could tell? My gaze lowered and I was staring down guilty at my feet.

I was on the last flight of stairs, "Hey, hey blondie," a sly cocky voice said "what you doing here bubbles?" I looked up and froze. Their standing in front of me was ace grinning slyly at me, he had his hands tucked in the pockets of his black leather jacket. "uhh…h-hey ace! how are you?" I felt so guilty after betraying butch and I felt my cheeks warm up drastically.

Ace was close friends with butch I didn't want to falter, but I couldn't help it. I was a terrible liar. He gave me a weird look, he already knew something, just by the way I said hey, he was looking at me funny. My eyes were darting all over the place I desperately tried to keep my gaze on his eyes steadily like a any normal person would when having a civil conversation. "I'm aright, what are you doing here?" his tone on the last bit of that sentence was more serious.

I couldn't blame his curiosity, I was in a even more dangerous part of the city, not that far from my own apartment, sure my own apartment area was rough but I was now somewhere worse off than that, I was around where Grant Audley's old house was, more in that territory.

His eyes narrowed only a little when I didn't answer him. I just stared at him my lips parted slightly. Think. Think. "I was just taking a walk and sort of um just ended up here." I smiled politely. He paused and opened his mouth to speak. "You look jumpy, and your sweating like hell, did someone attack you?"

I was a little stunned that he seemed to care if I was ok, but he was Butch's friend, so I guess he would do. It was nice of him but I wasn't about to thank him. "oh no, no I'm fine. I know its stupid me being here alone but I ran into a friend, and we were talking and I lost track ha-ha.."

I blushed. I thought of what really happened. The man I was with pushing me down on the mattress. The dark pleasure we both felt as our bodies rammed into each other, creating a quick rhythm. Him roughly grabbing my wrists and pinning them above my head dominating me completely, taking all of me in.

Ace was stood on the step in front of me, he just needed to nudge a little to the right so I could pass him and get out of the building. He held my gaze and I gulped he lowered his shades and looked at me. "this friend?…" I cut him off. "ok well I have to go now. Bye." I said bubbly and casually, too casually. I dodged his path quickly, we were shoulder to shoulder. He grabbed my arm firmly halting me on the stair. "hold on."

He gazed at me suspiciously we were silent for a few seconds. His looked at my messy greasy hair. It was in that condition through my previous actions with the man I was just with. Then ace took note of my clothes, my dress was on inside out and I did my best to cover up with my warm, white, jacket. His frown suddenly turned into a sly smirk he sniffed up discreetly. I knew I smelt of sex.

His smirk grew his tone was suggesting something dirty "well, well, well you haven't been up to no good have you? I know butch isn't here, because he's doing a job for me" Thankfully he seemed to be joking. He knew that I meant a lot to butch. Me and butch were in a serious relationship and I loved him. I just gave him a confused look. Playing dumb. "what?" I raised an eyebrow. "nothing" he looked me in they eye, trying to read me yet still keeping his careless cool he always had on. He frowned, looking, disappointed?

"butch thinks the world of you," his voice was quieter. "If he knew you were screwing another ma.." my eyes widened "what? I wouldn't, I'd never."

"babe, don't even try lying, cos you suck at it." I shut my mouth, my lip trembling ever so slightly. He smirked slyly he was such an idiot. "Don't worry I wont say anything. It's not even my business."

"ace I…" before I could say another word… "be careful walking home,"

And with that he left wandering up the stairs. I heard a sultry, sassy voice come from the floor above me "hey ace" high heels clanked on the wooden floor boards. She was wearing practically nothing swaying her hips in his direction as he walked up to her, he grabbed her and they kissed "hey baby" he said in a suggestive tone. She laughed playfully and the door of her apartment shut, both of them not to be seen.

Huh, I guess a lot of people have meaningless flings. I just never realised how easy it is, and how tempting.

This wasn't me. I'd love butch no matter what, and I always will.

I felt like dirt. like there was a dirt so deep that I could not scrub off or forget about.

I cheated on the man I loved.

Butch sawyer