Hey everyone. Here is the redone chapter one with a short preface. just ot up date you i have deleted chapters 3-10. I will be adding more chapters and rewriting the ones that were previously there. I will finish soon, but right now i need a brake from typing. R&R!!!

Declaimer: I don't own any of the Cullens or Newtons or who ever else from the Twilight series. I also don't own the new girls (Mel, Shasha, Eryn, Kim, Krissy). Those people are real and my friends and were created by God. Yes, we do act that weird all the time!

ttyl, Mel

Preface

Who would have thought that we would have a loss than a gain in a short amount of time. But then we would loss what we gained and gain what we had lost. The past few years had been extremely confusing. Then again who cared.

Ch. 1

Their gone.

Carlisle POV

The boys and I had gone hunting after the girls. They were gone for an extremely long time. Emmett was pacing after he had seen a small hint of purple smoke. After yelling at us to go for an hour we finally listened to him and left.

We scanned the forest and Edward was listening for their minds. Jasper had there scent and was following the trail. All of us spread out till we ran into the unexpected. In the middle of the clearing, where Edward had taken Bella, Was a burning fire. The purple smoke reached up to the sky.

"It was them." Jasper said entranced by the whirling smoke.

Emmett's eyes were filled with blood tears and he was banging on a tree screaming 'why'. The tree shook under his pounding till it crashed to the ground. He then picked it up and tossed it in the burning pit.

Edward leaned down and pick up a shiny stone; Bella's engagement ring. He stared inside it like it would give him some answer or tell him that this was just a joke. He stuffed it into his pocket and ran off. No one knew where he was going and no one dared to follow him.

I just stared. My wife and 3 of my children. Gone. I had changed them or was going to. And I was fearing I was going to lose more of my children. The poor boys had lost a sister, a mother, and a true love. Now there was no cure. Nothing I could do but help them grieve and keep them happy. And alive in a sense.

"KILL ME TOO! KILL ME!! TEAR ME! BURN ME!" Emmett was shouting to the sky. He collapsed to his knees. I walked over to him and put my hand on his back. He looked up at me with tear stained eyes. "Carlisle, this is just a joke right? Their hiding behind the trees aren't they?"

"No son. I am sorry. This is real." I said my voice shaking and slow.

"What am I going to do?" He asked his arms were wrapped around my knees like a small child's.

"What would Rose like you to do?" I asked.

I carried Emmett home. It was easy and smooth. He was like a small child. When I got in the house I set him down and ran to his room. Edward was on the piano bench next to a piano the no longer had legs. Some of the keys were broken too. He immediately ran up stairs when he heard the voice in my head. I hadn't said anything, but he felt me and didn't want to show me his pain.

I walked past all their rooms. Jasper was staring dazed at Alice's paintings. There was one of each of us. He fingers lightly traced the painting of Alice's first vision of him. Then he moved to the self portrait she did. He stared it to those eyes. His fingers traced the necklace he had given her. She was smiling so bright. Her little pixie hair was just perfectly shaped. I could understand his pain.

Emmett was sitting in his bean bag chair with Rosalie's written stories. She had hand written them all. There were fiction and non-fiction. She had stories about he we became. She so desperately wanted to publish them. To show the world that we wouldn't hurt them and that we were just normal people like them. But she couldn't; we had to stay hidden.

Edward had his radio blasting Bella's hard rock c.d. He was carefully tracing the lines on her dress that Jasper had put on his bed. Then he picked it up to eye level and tossed it across the room. He took the ring that was clenched in his fists and tossed it too. His knees gave way and he clasped on the bed.

On my desk was a copy of Esme's poetry. The one I read over and over was the poem she wrote that served as her wedding vows. It was so beautiful talking about how she loved me and thanked me. She had promised to take care of me till the end of time. I remember her lightly putting he hand on my cheek as she finished. I swore I could still feel it there.

1 month later

Edward POV

Me and Jasper had finally decided to go back to school. We needed something to keep them off our minds since no one let me out of their sight. They were afraid I would destroy my self or fly to Italy. That had crossed my mind numerous times. At lunch we sat down at our usual table. We were still in the habit of leaving seats for them as if they were just running late from their last class.

Two girls came up to us. Jasper could feel the fear and sorrow in them. They had come to say their condolences. A tall dark skinned girl with black puffy hair sat across from me. I had heard her call it the 'poof' many times before. The pony tail had always puffed in the back. A slightly shorter girl with curly brown hair sat across from Jasper. Eryn was her name and the other was Shasha.

"We are so sorry for your loss. Is their anything we can do?" Eryn asked.

"Our condolences." Shasha said.

I listened to see what they were saying in their heads.

Thirsty. Note to self, go hunting tonight. Shasha said. They didn't seem to connect in my head so I just let it slide. Eryn was think the same thing.

Carlisle POV

I sat down at my lunch table. I stared at the cafeteria food I had just picked up. I looked unhealthy, even if I was human. I poked it with my fork to make sure it was dead. Kim, one of my nurses, sat across from me. She was about average height and had dark brown hair that was about down to her shoulders. She had scrubbed in with me many times before.

"Hi, Dr. Cullen," she said. She had a bag lunch in front of her.

"Carlisle," I corrected.

"O.k. Carlisle. I am sorry for your loss. Is there any thing I can do? I can come and cook or clean for you guys, shop maybe? Anything you need." She looked at me with kind eyes that looked desperate to help.

"Thanks." was all I could say.

"How are the boys taking it?" she asked, her bag lunch still untouched.

"O.K. Edward and Jasper just went back to school. Emmett has finally gotten out of the house. They have lost a mother and sisters. And Edward was going to marry Bella. I feel emotionally drained trying to look composed for them. I am sure they are too. It will get easier with time."

"I am sure it will." she gently laid her hand on my arm but when she saw look at it she snapped it away.

Emmett POV

I had gotten a job to get me out of the house. I was working at the Newton's sport shop. I didn't do much but help customers and lock up if I had to. Mike also worked with me. He had tried to start a conversation a couple of times but soon gave up.

When he went to the back to get something a girl came in. She was tall and had long red hair. She was wearing shorts in this cold weather and a simple jacket.

"Excuse me, umm, Emmett, but where are the kayaks?" she asked reading my dorky name tag.

"Here," I pointed and started to leave.

"Your Emmett Cullen, right? My friends no you and your brothers from school. I am so sorry about what happened. I work at the Psychiatry ward in Port Angles. My door is always open if any of yous ever need to talk."

"Thanks." I turned and walked away. I didn't really want to talk.