/Regina's POV/
I watched from afar as Emma laid in our shared bed facing the wall. My breathe caught in my throat once I heard a sniff coming from her. I know I had hurt her, like I've done so many times before. I know she'd forgive me, like she's done so many times before. I walk further into the room, it's time I make things right between us. I miss her. I miss our love.
Once I'm at the bed, I sit down before scooting over and snuggling her. I place my arm tightly around her waist and she leans into the touch immediately.
"Emma, I'm sorry" I whisper into her ears.
"I know Gina" She mutters back.
She does know, she knows I'm not myself sometimes, she knows the darkness inside of me sometimes gets the best of me. Some times, when I get angry, I just can't control my actions. After the darkness consumed my soul nearly 2 years ago, making me the dark one, I feel the need to control, manipulate, trick, consume...this must be what Rumpelstiltskin felt like everyday. No wonder he was such a monster.
I've lost everything. Well, almost everything. Robin dumped me, he said I was different now. I'm not different. I just have moments. Henry, he's not around like he used to be, he's mostly with Snow and Charming. That's fine, it's for the best. I don't want to snap at him, I don't want to hurt him, I don't want him to see me at my worst.
I've gained also. I've gained power. I've gained love. I've gained Emma. The darkness makes you see everything for what it is. Shortly after becoming the "dark one" I realized Emma's feelings for me. I couldn't believe I hadn't seen them before. All the times she's stood up for me, all those times she's jumped in front of me to Save my life, it was because she loved me.
People think that being the dark one automatically makes you evil. It doesn't. It just makes the wrong decisions seem like the right ones at times. It makes your deepest desires become habits in which you must obtain like a drug. For me, it's love. My love for Emma. For Rumpelstiltskin, it was power.
"Will you forgive me?"
I ask her. I know she will say yes, just like she's done so many times before. She turns in my arms and look at me. I see that her eyes are red from crying. A few wet drops make their way down her cheek. I can't help but reach up and dry them for her. I don't want her to be sad. I don't care what anyone says, or think. I don't want to upset her.
"Of course I do Regina, I forgive you...I love you" She says. She reaches for my hand, the one that's touching her face and links her fingers with mine. I feel her light magic flowing through my veins. They combat the darkness within me, they make me feel better, lighter.
"I love you too Emma" I say looking into her eyes. I want her to know that I mean that. That I love her with everything in me. I don't make promises to change, because I can't make that promise. It wouldn't be true. The only way that I could, is if I was no longer the dark one, and I don't know of a way to rid myself of the darkness besides having someone kill me, and I'm never letting that happen.
Emma smiles back at me, like she's done so many times before. And just like that, I'm forgiven, for everything. For acting possessive, for being controlling...for being...abusive. I'm not proud of that, and I hate the darkness in me aiding in my actions. Yes, I know, I should take some of the responsibility, and I do. I think back to the first time it happened the first time my darkness showed it's self.
Flash back. 2 years ago (Regina's POV)
I look at Emma from afar. She's in the dinner, I was headed towards my office when I felt her presence. We have been secretly dating for a little over a month now. Robin and I ended our relationship Six months before that, and to be honest, I don't even miss him, not even a little bit. I thought he was my true love, all because of a stupid tattoo, but now, I know the truth. Emma's my true love. She's always there for me. Always has been always will be. However, now, I can't help but feel the rage within my chest that's quickly rising. Next to My Emma, is no other than the hand-less wonder. Captain Hook. I had mentioned on multiple occasions that I didn't want Emma around him. But it seems she's ignoring my wishes.
I don't even bother to walk inside the diner, I simply wave my hand and the next moment I'm standing right next to Emma, glaring at Hook.
He coughs as my black smoke disappears waving his hook around in the air.
"Um...hi Regina" Emma greets with a smile. One that doesn't quite reach her eyes. She knows how I feel about Hook. I don't like him. I don't trust him.
"Hello Miss Swan" I say fighting the urge to call her Emma. She requested we keep our relationship a secret until she gets the confidence to tell her parents, not only that she's lesbian, but also that she's dating me. The evil queen, the dark one, the former enemy of her mother. I understand how she feels. I understand a lot of things. I granted her request, but I also know what the pirate is doing here. When Emma and I started dating, she broke up with the hand-less wonder, and he's been trying to win her back ever since. And needless to say, I don't like it. Emma's mine.
"Madam Mayor" He says with a tight jaw. It's obvious he doesn't want me here. I make it obvious, that I don't care what he wants.
"Hook" I greet. "What's going on here?" I ask. "Mind if I join you?" I join them at their table without waiting for an invitation. I continue to glare at Hook.
"Actually, we were trying to have a private conversation...so..." He states eyeing the door.
I laugh. Actually laugh. A private conversation with my girlfriend? I think not. My smile fade away and my eyes set on him. "Emma, tells me everything, we are really close" I tell him as a matter of fact. "She's going to tell me about this conversation later, so I may as well stay and hear what you have to say now" I shrug and place my purse on the table, a sign that I'm not going anywhere. I look to Emma and she's looking at me with a pleading look on her face.
I'm a bit surprised when Hook shrugs and continues talking to Emma. "Love-" He starts.
I growl. I literally growl at him. I can't help it, I feel threatened, It's never a good thing to threaten the dark one. I relax when I feel Emma's hand on my thigh under the table. I look at her, and see that pleading look is still on her face. I turn to Hook and listen to his ramblings.
" - I just...I think that it's a good ideal if we...try to work things out. I mean, we've gotten alone so well, I love you...you love me...why shouldn't we be together?" He questions.
'because she's with me. She's mine!' I think to myself as I glare at Hook, if looks could kill, he'd be dead right about now, and then, I'd be happy. I turn to Emma and our eyes meet. This is why I hate that no one else know's about us. I don't want someone trying to take what isn't theirs. She gulps and looks back at Hook.
"Hook. No, I'm not interested" She says easily. I know that's true. 'damn right you're not' I can't help but think.
"Why not Emma?" Hook questions almost in an annoyed tone. I growl again. Don't threaten anyone the dark one loves. "Is it because of her" he glances at me before looking back at Emma. "You know, the two of you have been spending a lot of time together as of late. Look, love, don't let her hold us back, she isn't worth it" Hook states. Emma gasps and I hold my hand up to blast him across the room, Emma grabs my hand to stop the magic. I look at her with widened eyes. When did she learn how to do that, I sure as hell didn't teach it to her. The anger I'm feeling at the moment towards Hook, doubles when Emma effectively stops my attack, and now I'm pissed at her. If I can't kill Hook, then I need to go somewhere so that I can calm down. The dark magic is pushing it's way up to the surface, and my body feels as if it wants to act on it's on. I'm fighting the darkness as best as I can, I stand up and walk quickly to the diner door, headed back towards my car that I left parked in the middle of the street.
"Regina wait!" I hear Emma yell at me. She thinks I'm hurt because of what Hook said. I'm not. I'm furious, I want to attack.
"Leave her be swan. She's no good for you, for us, anyone really" I hear him mumble.
"Shush" I hear Emma yell at him, just as I'm crossing the threshold Emma places her hand on my shoulder and spins me around to face her.
'what are you thinking Emma?' I question in my head. Of course she can't hear me, before I even realize what I'm doing I've grabbed her by the shirt and pulled her so that she's now standing inches away from my face.
"Emma" I whisper dangerously to her. She regards me with widened eyes. "I don't like Hook, and I don't want you around him. I've given you time to tell everyone about us, I don't know how much longer I can wait" I explain.
"Regina...Let me go" She says, she's trying to be brave. She's embarrassed that I have her like this in public no less. I can feel her emotions they are so strong. Not in my right mind, Ignore her. "Do you understand Emma?" I question her so low, only she can hear me. She swallows again.
"Regina" Emma looks away and towards all the other residence that are in the diner. They are all silent looking at the savior and the dark one. Emma leans in. "Regina, this isn't you. Stop this" She whispers. She's looking at me with the pleading look in her face again.
"This is me. Don't forget I'm the dark one dear" I force myself to let her go. She doesn't back up. She just stands studying me for a moment.
"Tonight" She mumbles then looks away.
"Excuse me?" I question.
"Tonight. I will tell everyone about us tonight. Here. At the diner" She smiles. Emma fixes her shirt and backs up. I fight the urge to pull her closer to me again.
"Very well..." I say. "Tonight"
To be continued...
Hey, did you like it? Should I continue? This is my first time writing in first person, should I do some in Emma's POV as well? Let me know your thoughts.