Hi this is Simply Hopeless here and I came up with a new story I know it
might not be as famous as I hope for but I don't really care. I writing
this one story because I feel like it and besides I wanted to take a brake
from writing my other stories. It won't hurt to look into the life of
Kikyou will it? You won't self-combust if you read this would you? I
thought not. So read to reflect on Kikyou's life and I hope you enjoy it at
least a little bit.
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Diary of a Porcelain Doll
Chapter One: Kikyou is Dead
Inuyasha was walking ahead of them as always when he smelled a familiar scent. 'It couldn't be Kikyou, could it?' he thought as he looked curiously around to see if he saw the miko any where but he shook his head when he couldn't smell her scent anymore.
'I must have been mistaken,' he thought and continued to walk ahead with the others following behind him. He was heading towards a hot spring he knew must be near by. 'It's been a long journey and I know that Kagome and Sango would enjoy a nice soak,' thought Inuyasha thoughtfully.
His head snapped up from his revelry when he heard the soft snap of twigs further ahead to his right. His amber eyes shot to the place where the noise came from and he could have sworn he saw a flash of red and white miko clothes.
'I think I'm losing it,' sighed Inuyasha and rubbed his eyes wearily. 'I think we all need to take a rest day now,' he thought and continued to walk to the place where the hot spring should be. ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^
"Is anything wrong with Inuyasha? I could have sworn he had just seen a ghost or something," said Sango to Kagome. "I don't know, maybe he has. I never know what might happen in this time and stranger things have happened before," said Kagome to Sango before giving Inuyasha's retreating back a worried glance.
"It might be nothing. He might just be thinking of the jewel shards almost being completed. We have collected a lot over the past few months," said Miroku walking behind the girls.
"You may be right, but I don't know?" said Kagome as she looked up at the sky that shone down lazily on the forest. 'I hope Inuyasha's all right?' thought Kagome as she frowned up at the sky. ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^
Kagome sighed as she slid into the water that was a little warmer then there body temperature. "I see you're happy that Inuyasha found this spring," said Sango smiling at her friend while she laid her back against a smooth rock.
"Have you ever notice how troubles seem to slide away as soon as you're in a hot spring," said Kagome as she looked dreamily at the fluffy clouds. "I know what you mean," said Sango as she let her head lay back and stared also at the clouds. "It's like your wrapped in someone's warm embrace that you regret to leave when you have to get out because you miss how free and safe you feel at the same time," said Kagome as she closed her eyes.
"I could always embrace you when you're outside so you can feel free and safe," came Miroku's amused voice. Kagome's eyes flew open and she took a shuddering gasp of breath as she looked into the laughing blue eyes of the monk.
"You little pervert," said Kagome and without thinking she grabbed his arm and flipped him over. Sango watched as the fully clothed monk was flipped by her friend and landed with a surprise face in the hot spring.
"What happened!" said Inuyasha as he crashed through the trees and held out his Tetsusaiga to strike the intruder. "What the..." said Inuyasha as his golden eyes widen at the sight.
There was a soaking wet Miroku in the middle of the spring in which the naked girls were still in. "Would anyone like to explain?" said Inuyasha looking more than a little annoyed.
"Well what happened was..." said Kagome nervously looking up at Inuyasha. "What had happened Inuyasha was that you disturbed my alone time with the girls," said Miroku as he pulled the stunned girls to his side, with a mischievous smile, "So if you don't mind, we would like to be alone."
"What!" said Inuyasha who was about to blow a fuse. "Pervert," said Kagome and slapped his cheek. "Lecher," said Sango and slapped his other cheek. They quickly grabbed the bathrobes that Kagome now brought in case of Miroku's pevertiveness and put them on in the water so that Miroku and Inuyasha didn't see more flesh then they already had.
Before they left the hot spring they gave Inuyasha a glare for even thinking that they would do something with Miroku and then gave Miroku a 'I'll kill you when your sleeping, so sleep with one eye open,' look.
Miroku laughed nervously at the girls glare but the look he saw on Inuyasha's face made him squeak with fear. "Uh care for a dip Inuyasha," said Miroku sweat dropping as he splashed his hands in the water nervously to calm his beating heart.
'What is Inuyasha gonna do with me?' thought Miroku before looking up nervously to see Inuyasha rolling up his sleeve. Miroku closed his eyes and waited for a 'whack' that would make the world go dark for Miroku. And it did come on the side of his head and if Inuyasha weren't the monk's friend then he would have left the poor fool to drown when he keeled over. ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^
NEXT DAY, NEAR THE MIDDLE OF THEIR JOURNEY
When they saw Inuyasha stiffen they quickly looked in front of him to see what could leave him so stricken. There laid Kikyou on the ground, her brown eyes where wide in surprise, as her mouth lay open in an inaudible gasp. Her hands clutched at the white shirt and one tear actually was still lying motionless on her cheek.
She stared sightlessly at them and did not move her body in recognition to their presence because she was dead. "Who could have done this," gasped Kagome as she looked with terrified eyes at Kikyou's dead body.
Inuyasha didn't say anything as he watched Miroku say a prayer over Kikyou and closed her eyes. When he did that her body turned back into a heap of ash, letting a gasp escape from both Kagome and Sango.
After that no one said a word as they watch Inuyasha walk silently away from them. Kagome wanted to go comfort him but Sango held her back. 'Well at least Shippo is asleep on Kiylala's back and didn't have to see that,' thought Kagome as she looked at the remains of her former enemy. ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^
A COUPLE MINUTES LATER
Kagome's saddened eyes wanted to look anywhere but at Kikyou's remains now. And that was how she caught the sight of a slight blue color peeking out from the high grass a few yards away from Kikyou's remains. Curious and not really willing to stay where she already was, she went to see what it was.
Kagome bent down and picked up a book that was as small as her hands and as blue as the sky on the sunniest of days. Kagome fingers gently touched the silky cover and eyed the silver lines of a lotus blossom on the cover.
"What do you have there Kagome?" said Miroku looking curiously over her shoulder. "Nothing Miroku," said Kagome really quick as she pushed the little book in the pocket of her pants that she was wearing that day.
"I could have sworn I saw something like a book in your hand," said Miroku peering intently into Kagome's expressive eyes to see what he could read. "It was just some old book that I picked up at home to read in the feudal era," said Kagome calmly.
'Why did I lie to him?' Kagome thought. Miroku frowned at her, not quite believing she was telling the truth but before he could open his mouth to speak Sango called them over. Kagome gladly walked back to where Sango was, at the camp, and gave her a silent 'thank you.' ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^
Later that night by the campfire when all was asleep Kagome opened her eyes. She had only fallen into a light sleep so that she could wake up later so that she could be alone. She looked around through lowered lashes to see if everyone was asleep.
She quickly looked to Inuyasha's post that he usually stayed when he guarded them at night and to her surprise she saw that he was gone. 'Probably thinking over Kikyou's death,' she thought and her heart went out to Inuyasha.
She slowly and carefully eased herself from her sleeping bag so as not to disturb Shippo and crept to her book bag. She took out the silk blue book that she had found and sat closer to the fire. She flipped open the book to any random page and came to a neat little entry written in flowing caricatures. She was drawn to the writing and began to read what was written in that entry, which was written as so: ' Dear Diary,
I am nothing but a porcelain doll to you, aren't I? I mean I am made out of clay and I am just as pale as a moonbeam just like those other dolls. When you first look at me you think I would break at the slightest touch. You barely even see life in my eyes even though I could move and talk to you. To you I will always be a porcelain doll.
I have no soul and have to steal others, and for that I am ashamed. But are we not programmed from the very beginning to survive and isn't that what I am doing? No matter how much I hate my methods of survival I am still here aren't I.
But I can see it in your eyes that you hate me, despise me and wish for my demise. Sometimes I wish I'd die and end the pain I'm causing myself and others. But I'm still here. I'm still clinging to life and the hate that has carried me through every day.
I can't talk to you now diary. It hurts to examine my flaws, I'll write to you again when I can look at my reflection without being first repulsed.'
Kagome eyes opened in realization to who this little diary belong to. "Kikyou," escaped her lips in a soft whisper and she flipped to the very first page to see who the owner was.
There in flowing writing was the name of the woman she was reincarnated from. This was indeed Kikyou's diary and now Kagome had an opportunity to see into the mind and heart of her enemy's.
Kagome clutched the small book and took in a shaky breath as she stared thoughtfully into the fire. 'I was meant to find this book, wasn't I?' she thought. +++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++ So how do you like that chapter? I know must people don't like Kikyou but I thought it would be nice to write something at least a little positive about her. Sorry if you didn't care for it too much. The next chapter, if any one's interested is called, 'A View into My Enemy's Heart.' Review me and tell me if you like it or not, Okay.
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Diary of a Porcelain Doll
Chapter One: Kikyou is Dead
Inuyasha was walking ahead of them as always when he smelled a familiar scent. 'It couldn't be Kikyou, could it?' he thought as he looked curiously around to see if he saw the miko any where but he shook his head when he couldn't smell her scent anymore.
'I must have been mistaken,' he thought and continued to walk ahead with the others following behind him. He was heading towards a hot spring he knew must be near by. 'It's been a long journey and I know that Kagome and Sango would enjoy a nice soak,' thought Inuyasha thoughtfully.
His head snapped up from his revelry when he heard the soft snap of twigs further ahead to his right. His amber eyes shot to the place where the noise came from and he could have sworn he saw a flash of red and white miko clothes.
'I think I'm losing it,' sighed Inuyasha and rubbed his eyes wearily. 'I think we all need to take a rest day now,' he thought and continued to walk to the place where the hot spring should be. ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^
"Is anything wrong with Inuyasha? I could have sworn he had just seen a ghost or something," said Sango to Kagome. "I don't know, maybe he has. I never know what might happen in this time and stranger things have happened before," said Kagome to Sango before giving Inuyasha's retreating back a worried glance.
"It might be nothing. He might just be thinking of the jewel shards almost being completed. We have collected a lot over the past few months," said Miroku walking behind the girls.
"You may be right, but I don't know?" said Kagome as she looked up at the sky that shone down lazily on the forest. 'I hope Inuyasha's all right?' thought Kagome as she frowned up at the sky. ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^
Kagome sighed as she slid into the water that was a little warmer then there body temperature. "I see you're happy that Inuyasha found this spring," said Sango smiling at her friend while she laid her back against a smooth rock.
"Have you ever notice how troubles seem to slide away as soon as you're in a hot spring," said Kagome as she looked dreamily at the fluffy clouds. "I know what you mean," said Sango as she let her head lay back and stared also at the clouds. "It's like your wrapped in someone's warm embrace that you regret to leave when you have to get out because you miss how free and safe you feel at the same time," said Kagome as she closed her eyes.
"I could always embrace you when you're outside so you can feel free and safe," came Miroku's amused voice. Kagome's eyes flew open and she took a shuddering gasp of breath as she looked into the laughing blue eyes of the monk.
"You little pervert," said Kagome and without thinking she grabbed his arm and flipped him over. Sango watched as the fully clothed monk was flipped by her friend and landed with a surprise face in the hot spring.
"What happened!" said Inuyasha as he crashed through the trees and held out his Tetsusaiga to strike the intruder. "What the..." said Inuyasha as his golden eyes widen at the sight.
There was a soaking wet Miroku in the middle of the spring in which the naked girls were still in. "Would anyone like to explain?" said Inuyasha looking more than a little annoyed.
"Well what happened was..." said Kagome nervously looking up at Inuyasha. "What had happened Inuyasha was that you disturbed my alone time with the girls," said Miroku as he pulled the stunned girls to his side, with a mischievous smile, "So if you don't mind, we would like to be alone."
"What!" said Inuyasha who was about to blow a fuse. "Pervert," said Kagome and slapped his cheek. "Lecher," said Sango and slapped his other cheek. They quickly grabbed the bathrobes that Kagome now brought in case of Miroku's pevertiveness and put them on in the water so that Miroku and Inuyasha didn't see more flesh then they already had.
Before they left the hot spring they gave Inuyasha a glare for even thinking that they would do something with Miroku and then gave Miroku a 'I'll kill you when your sleeping, so sleep with one eye open,' look.
Miroku laughed nervously at the girls glare but the look he saw on Inuyasha's face made him squeak with fear. "Uh care for a dip Inuyasha," said Miroku sweat dropping as he splashed his hands in the water nervously to calm his beating heart.
'What is Inuyasha gonna do with me?' thought Miroku before looking up nervously to see Inuyasha rolling up his sleeve. Miroku closed his eyes and waited for a 'whack' that would make the world go dark for Miroku. And it did come on the side of his head and if Inuyasha weren't the monk's friend then he would have left the poor fool to drown when he keeled over. ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^
NEXT DAY, NEAR THE MIDDLE OF THEIR JOURNEY
When they saw Inuyasha stiffen they quickly looked in front of him to see what could leave him so stricken. There laid Kikyou on the ground, her brown eyes where wide in surprise, as her mouth lay open in an inaudible gasp. Her hands clutched at the white shirt and one tear actually was still lying motionless on her cheek.
She stared sightlessly at them and did not move her body in recognition to their presence because she was dead. "Who could have done this," gasped Kagome as she looked with terrified eyes at Kikyou's dead body.
Inuyasha didn't say anything as he watched Miroku say a prayer over Kikyou and closed her eyes. When he did that her body turned back into a heap of ash, letting a gasp escape from both Kagome and Sango.
After that no one said a word as they watch Inuyasha walk silently away from them. Kagome wanted to go comfort him but Sango held her back. 'Well at least Shippo is asleep on Kiylala's back and didn't have to see that,' thought Kagome as she looked at the remains of her former enemy. ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^
A COUPLE MINUTES LATER
Kagome's saddened eyes wanted to look anywhere but at Kikyou's remains now. And that was how she caught the sight of a slight blue color peeking out from the high grass a few yards away from Kikyou's remains. Curious and not really willing to stay where she already was, she went to see what it was.
Kagome bent down and picked up a book that was as small as her hands and as blue as the sky on the sunniest of days. Kagome fingers gently touched the silky cover and eyed the silver lines of a lotus blossom on the cover.
"What do you have there Kagome?" said Miroku looking curiously over her shoulder. "Nothing Miroku," said Kagome really quick as she pushed the little book in the pocket of her pants that she was wearing that day.
"I could have sworn I saw something like a book in your hand," said Miroku peering intently into Kagome's expressive eyes to see what he could read. "It was just some old book that I picked up at home to read in the feudal era," said Kagome calmly.
'Why did I lie to him?' Kagome thought. Miroku frowned at her, not quite believing she was telling the truth but before he could open his mouth to speak Sango called them over. Kagome gladly walked back to where Sango was, at the camp, and gave her a silent 'thank you.' ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^
Later that night by the campfire when all was asleep Kagome opened her eyes. She had only fallen into a light sleep so that she could wake up later so that she could be alone. She looked around through lowered lashes to see if everyone was asleep.
She quickly looked to Inuyasha's post that he usually stayed when he guarded them at night and to her surprise she saw that he was gone. 'Probably thinking over Kikyou's death,' she thought and her heart went out to Inuyasha.
She slowly and carefully eased herself from her sleeping bag so as not to disturb Shippo and crept to her book bag. She took out the silk blue book that she had found and sat closer to the fire. She flipped open the book to any random page and came to a neat little entry written in flowing caricatures. She was drawn to the writing and began to read what was written in that entry, which was written as so: ' Dear Diary,
I am nothing but a porcelain doll to you, aren't I? I mean I am made out of clay and I am just as pale as a moonbeam just like those other dolls. When you first look at me you think I would break at the slightest touch. You barely even see life in my eyes even though I could move and talk to you. To you I will always be a porcelain doll.
I have no soul and have to steal others, and for that I am ashamed. But are we not programmed from the very beginning to survive and isn't that what I am doing? No matter how much I hate my methods of survival I am still here aren't I.
But I can see it in your eyes that you hate me, despise me and wish for my demise. Sometimes I wish I'd die and end the pain I'm causing myself and others. But I'm still here. I'm still clinging to life and the hate that has carried me through every day.
I can't talk to you now diary. It hurts to examine my flaws, I'll write to you again when I can look at my reflection without being first repulsed.'
Kagome eyes opened in realization to who this little diary belong to. "Kikyou," escaped her lips in a soft whisper and she flipped to the very first page to see who the owner was.
There in flowing writing was the name of the woman she was reincarnated from. This was indeed Kikyou's diary and now Kagome had an opportunity to see into the mind and heart of her enemy's.
Kagome clutched the small book and took in a shaky breath as she stared thoughtfully into the fire. 'I was meant to find this book, wasn't I?' she thought. +++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++ So how do you like that chapter? I know must people don't like Kikyou but I thought it would be nice to write something at least a little positive about her. Sorry if you didn't care for it too much. The next chapter, if any one's interested is called, 'A View into My Enemy's Heart.' Review me and tell me if you like it or not, Okay.