A/N: This is my first SVU fanfic, so I apologise if it's awful. This is yet another post "Fault" fanfic, but it was repeated on TV1 the other day and I just had to write something for it. Hope it's not too awful. This is from Olivia's POV
Disclaimer: I own nothing, but I wouldn't be adverse to owning Elliot if he ever came up for grabs.
What About Me?
What about me?
She had half expected him to turn and ask: "What about you?" but he hadn't. He'd been so wrapped up in his own self pity and loathing. Torturing himself for the fact he'd chosen her over the job.
That she had done the same for him.
Even though she knew it was the wrong reaction, especially after he had told her she was one of two things he had left, she couldn't help wondering whether he thought she wasn't worth saving.
That he resented the impulse to check on her because her life meant nothing to him; because she meant nothing to him.
Why else would he want to throw away their partnership?
What about me?
She failed to see how making one mistake meant that they could no longer work together or was this merely a smoke screen to hide something deeper?
Did he truly feel that he had to continually look over his shoulder to check on her? That he had to always come to her rescue?
She had never asked him to be so protective; was it really her fault that he had some macho complex that made him feel he had to keep her, the woman, safe?
Not that he saw her as just a woman; he knew she could handle herself, that she was strong.
Perhaps that was what had shaken him up so much, to see that she was vulnerable. But that was just a hazard of the job, discovering your partner's not invincible is hardly something to break up a partnership over.
What about me?
She had been rattled to find out he was vulnerable too. That she had failed to protect him, those few minutes when Gitano had held the gun at the back of his skull had been the longest in her life.
But he was safe now and that was all that mattered. She certainly didn't feel the need to leave him over it.
What about me?
Did she even get a say in this decision? Or was he just going to walk into Cragen's office and ask for a new partner?
No way in hell.
She was going to have some control over this. Taking advantage of his temporary absence she entered Cragen's office.
He looked up in surprise and she took a deep breath.
This was it.
"I want a new partner."