Let's all pretend for the next few minutes that Robert Preston doesn't exist.

My Nicky,

Today. Today is everything, today is the hope, the tears, the sleepless nights, the smile, the kisses, today is everything. It's everything coming together. Mrs Carla Tilsley.

The moonlight, the moonlight in which you held me in your embrace and told me it would be okay, told me to stop worrying. You convinced me to stop worrying because I believed you when you told me everything would be okay, I still believe those words today - I will always believe them. Your embrace found me again in moonlight, when I was doubting myself. Always doubting myself, never you. Oh God, never you.

Your embrace is so warm, all the cold condenses away when you hold me. I feel warm, I feel warm and all the coldness is gone. You're my safety, my safety when everything else is going wrong on a huge scale. You're always there. Always.

We're so worth the wait, this day is so worth the wait. But, I'm glad we waited because now I'm more than ready. You're so gentle, so considerate, so wary and I love you for that. I love you for many things.

I've picked the wrong kind over and over again. Today's about us, I know that. It's about the future, our future. But I think we should reflect, more me than you. Me and men, well it's never really gone very well. So many times I thought it was right - I thought Frank was right and I thought Peter was right and God, I thought me and Liam were forever. I knew Paul was wrong, I knew that I married him for the wrong reasons. I married him to escape. I chose the wrong men countless times for countless reasons but you, Nick, you're everything. You're right.

You're right because even when the poison passed through my system time and time again, you were always there. When I couldn't talk because the red venom had over ruled me, when you had to carry me home because it'd weakened my legs. You're right because when I got myself in a state you would always be there, throughout the hangovers and the days of self-hate you'd never leave. If you were anyone else, well, you would've ran to the hills by now. But you're you, please don't ever change.

You've helped me to see the light. It was as if I was banging my head against a brick wall constantly and you moved it. You moved it and let me step away from that. Away from everything that made me feel heavy and as if I was dragging - you make me feel light, you make me float.

I had a feeling, when we first got together, I had a feeling we'd be dangerous. We'd fight, we wouldn't get on but I was so wrong. We fit, we fit perfectly. I suppose we are dangerous, in a good way. Danger can be good, can't it? What did Michelle call us that one time, 'Weatherfield's it couple,' I thought she was mad at the time but, Nick I got so lucky with you. So, so lucky.

Our relationship is like a war, but I feel like we've won it, today we win the war. We were tested, my gambling, your Mum, my Dad, the burglary we were properly tested but, Nick, we stuck together. I promise I'll always stick with you.

The canal. The day I was doubting everything, I was doubting myself. Johnny had made me feel so uneasy about my worth, about whether I could be your wife. I hate January and I hate walks but you gave me the chance to love both. We walked, we talked, we walked so more, I cried, you spoke and your words were poetic in the way they intoxicated me. Intoxicated me in a good way.

Your eyes met mine that night and so many nights previous to that one and so many nights since then. They tell me everything I need to know, your words are precious and meaningful but, your eyes. Your eyes speak one thousand words – they speak all the emotions that are never verbalised. And in the moments are eyes meet, the moments are lips meet, in every moment we share I know, Nick I know, I would give away all I have. I'd be happy if it was just me and you. Nick and Carla Tilsley. No matter what comes my way in the future, I know you'll be there, we have each other and that's all that matters. You're all that will ever matter, really matter. No matter what comes my way I'll take it if it means I can be with you.

At night, when you take me in your arms, when I pull the covers over to my side but it doesn't matter because most the time, all of the time in fact, we sleep on the same side. I'm in your arms and I'm secure and sleep falls over me so easily. When I'm with you nothing matters, I don't have to hide, I don't have to put on a front because I give you all I am, everything.

Nick, you have the ability to make me laugh, really laugh even on the days were I want to hide away. My stomach hurts from the times you've made me laugh with your ways, your little sayings, the moments you get too engrossed in the show on the TV. When you missed the door handle because your eyes were fixated on me. Me. You chose me when you could have easily had anyone.

I never want to live a day without you Tilsley, even when you forget your keys or you work late or you drag me to your family dinners. I never want to live a day without you and your love.

You're reading this on the morning of our wedding. Our wedding. How crazy's that, ey?

I love you. I really love you.

I'd take a million bullets, babe.

Love always,

Carla xx

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