In My Place: Chapter 1; Should I Let Go of What's Already Gone

I wonder what time it is, the clocks says its 11:00, but does it really matter time already stopped for me. As I listen to the monitor, the flat sound whistling in my ear, no I won't let go! I can feel the doctors moving me away; I fight to be near their side my hand still clutched in theirs. I am forced to let go and now I wait in the hallway, sloped down on the floor as they fight to save my loves life. I brush my hair back trying to get a grip, soon I hear the door open the doctor comes out as the staff exits the room sad looks upon their faces, please god don't let it be true. The doctor gives me a look, I already know he's gone, but I won't believe it. I walk up to the door inside I see his lifeless body covered in his hospital blanket, I walk slowly towards him and as I stand above his body, removing the cover, I see my love sleeping. His skin looked so pale, not tan and skin kissed as I remember. His hair has lost the shine and luster, his lips look almost blue, and I can't see his eyes. I clutch his hand with my own; I don't feel his heart or the heat that radiated when I touched him.

He placed one last kiss on his head and one more kiss on his lips, and let go of his hand and sunk into the icy cold depths of despair. His wife was dead. Yoshimori was dead.

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It had only been a month now, the funeral was so nice, and Yoshimori looked so lovely dressed in his wedding kimono. Gen held the small hand in his own; clutching it as if they would float away if he let go. I looked down at the child next to him, brown hair a like mine, but so unruly like…like his mother, dark black eyes like his mother, and tan skin like his with innocence like is mother. He clutched the bear they bought him for his birthday as they watched Yoshimori coffin lowered into the ground.

He felt the small hand pull my own, looking down I saw eyes staring at me as if to ask a question, "What is it Ou?" I ask him trying to keep my emotions in check, I bent down to listen to the question, "Why are they burying mommy?" the small sad voice, I felt something inside me snap, "If they bury mommy he won't be able to take me to school anymore" he said making tears well in Gen's eyes. "Oh, Ou"

Suddenly some of people started throwing dirt into the grave, "Daddy, tell them to stop" the small child said, many people heard the boy and cried more for his lose, "Daddy their burying mommy! Mommy has to come home with us" he whined as Gen held him tightly so he would not try and stop it. "Please daddy! There bury my mommy!" he could feel tears streaming down his face as his soon cried for his mommy. He could hear the loud sobs as the love of his life was buried, forever out of his reach. The struggling child continued to call for his mother. "Momma! Momma!" he whined as much as his little voice could, Gen wished he could call for his wife, but he knew…he knew better.

After the funeral was done and the comforting words were said, the cemetery became empty. All that remained was them and the corpses. Gen and Kato stood in front of the decorated grave of his late wife and mother Yoshimori. "Daddy?" a horsed voice said, Gen looked down through puffy eyes, "When is mommy coming home?" he asked in a sad voice, "He's not" he said in a quiet voice as they both looked down at the grave.

As they prepared to leave the cemetery, Ou took his teddy bear and rested it against the head stone, "See daddy, now mommy will have something to keep her safe" he said innocently as Gen watched him, "So now mommy has a piece of me" it said with a smile wiping the tears from his eyes, reaching into his pocket Gen took something out. Kneeling down he placed a silver pendent around the bear's throat, the silver chain gleamed and sparkled with the rays of the disappearing sun.

"Come on Ou, it's getting late" he said grabbing the other boy's hand, "Bye-bye, mamma" the small child said as he was led away from his mothers and Gen's love final place of rest.

As the two drove home and the sunset in the distance, a lone cry belt, as the wind rattled the trees of the cemetery.

-5 years later-

Small feet raced down the stairs, his shaggy brown hair wisp as he entered the kitchen and was hit with the smell of food. "Good Morning, momma!" Ou beamed as he sat down for breakfast, "Morning sweet heart" his mother said placing a plate on the table. Suddenly another figure entered the room, "Good Morning dear" the mother said happily as the other placed a kiss on his lips. "Morning, Sen dear" he said trying to fix his tie, Sen removed his hand and tied the fabric making sure it was straight, "Thanks", Gen said a blush on his face.

"Ou hurry and eat your breakfast the bus will be here soon" Sen said watching as he stuffed food into his mouth, 'he truly has Gen's appetite', Sen thought before hearing the bus horn. "Ou the bus is here" Sen said sweetly as Ou jumped up, grabbing his book bag, "Don't forget your lunch" Sen said passing him his lunch box. "Thanks momma!" he said happily placing a kiss on his lips before running to catch the bus. Sen watched as he made it to the bus and headed for school with his friends.

"Gen you're gonna be la…" before he could finish Gen grabbed his petit figure and pulled him into deep kiss. Tanned fingers brushed through waves of gold hair, as arms wrapped around Gen's strong frame. "I'll see you when I get home" Gen said before grabbing his suitcase and headed to work.

….to be continued…

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