Disclaimer: No, I do not own Trigun. But I wish I did own Vash( damn he's sexy). Anyways, just don't sue me.

Chapter 1: Lost

Meryl Stryle sat unamused staring out the window in her bedroom. She had never felt so bored in her entire life. Ever since Millie had found Wolfwood, it seemed she just didn't have enough time for anything else. Although her and Wolfwood weren't exactly "together" yet, she still seemed to follow him every where he went. And poor Meryl was left home alone, staring out the window, or cleaning something uneccessary. And for some strange reason, Vash was never home lately either. He would leave early in the morning and come home late at night either wasted or too tired to say anything anyways. And for some odd reason, Meryl missed him the most. Even though he was the dumbest one out all of her friends, she still missed his goofy smile, and his terrible remarks. She blushed just thinking about him. But she knew she didn't like him that way.... or is it she wanted to think she didn't like him that way.
Meryl shut her eyes tightly trying to get his image out of her head.* You hate him Meryl! What are you doing to yourself!* She tried to flood her head with lies, but it didn't seem to be working. Meryl shook her head violently and shakily sat up in her bed. She had to find something beter to do rather than mourn in her room all day. She sat nervously at the edge of her bed, and hoped for someone to come home, even Wolfwood is better then being alone. But of course, wherever he went, Millie followed. And anyways, She knew they weren't coming home.
She knew the whole house was cleaned, so there seemed there was nothing else to do. Ever since she quit her job, she wish she hadn't, but she knew she needed a break from everything. But this "so called" break was the worst thing she ever encountered. And she thought letting Vash, Millie, and Wolfwood live in her house would chase the lonliness away, but it seemed it only got worse. At least they were paying her some rent though, that's better then nothing.
Meryl glanced out the window once again. The suns were setting, and it was almost dark, and no sign of anyone. She thought of just going to bed right then, but decided not to, knowing she'd wake up early in the morining, still nothing to do.
Suddenly she heard the front door squeak open. She jumped for joy as she quickly ran down the hallyway to see who was there. She smiled widely when she saw a glimpse of Vash's spiky blonde hair. She felt like running up to him and hugging him tightly, but of course, she didn't.
" Oh, hey Meryl!" Vash said happily, as he shut the door behind him.
He glanced at her and saw the lonliness in her eyes. He grew a slight frown on his face when he saw her.
" What's wrong?" He asked.
She wanted to tell him everything. How she felt lonely all the time, how she missed him at night, and most of all, how she felt about him. She smiled slightly and moved towards him.
" N-nothin... really," She said lying to both herself and Vash.
" Well, okay..." He said, not believing a word she said, " Well, I'm gonna take a shower."
Meryl nodded her head quietly and watched Vash make his way towards the bathroom. She let him slip by her, again. He asked her what was wrong, and she didn't tell him. She never understood herself for doing the things she did, but she accepted it anyways.
She plopped on the sofa in the living room, and sighed heavily. She felt lonely, again, even though Vash was finally home for once. She wished she would stop feeling sorry for herself, and actually do something about it, but she couldn't. She queitly made her way towards her bedroom to lay down, again. By now, the suns had set, and the whole house was getting dark. She flipped on the light and it almost blinded her, but she quickly recovered. She shut her bedroom door behind her, and let out another heavy sigh. *It never occurred to me that lonliness hurt so bad.* She sat down in the chair beside the window and burried her face in her hands. Suddenly the door flew open, and Millie and Wolfwood were standing there, making out, practically ripping each others clothes off.
Meryl's face turned bright red, and she stumbled out of her chair in suprise.
" Oh my god!!" Meryl yelled, stumbling to the ground.
" Opps," That's all Millie could say.
Meryl stumbled quickly out the door, and slammed it behind her.* Oh, god, what is happening here?* Meryl stood outside the door for a while, hoping Vash would come out of his bedroom. She dreaded the fact that she shared a room with Millie, and she wished she would have never saw that. Now where would she sleep? The sofa, maybe, definitely not Vash and Wolfwood's room. She felt tears welling in her eyes, everyone was gone....

" Nicolas, please slow down a little," Millie exclaimed, pulling away from Wolfwood's face.
" Why, baby?" He said giving her kisses down her neck. She giggled wildly at this action, but quickly pulled away again.
" I think we hurt Meryl's feelings..." She said sadly.
" Nah, we just startled her," Wolfwood mumbled, his face buried in Millie's skin. He didn't really care about anything she was saying. He was, um, busy.
She pulled him closer and stared into his eyes. " Oh, I hope so," She said in an almost devilish voice.
He smirked slightly, and kissed her, hard. She opened her mouth to let his tongue flood in. He played aroung with her tongue, almost like it was a game to him. Millie pulled away for a breath, and giggled. He pushed her down on the bed, and stradled his legs over her. Millie seemed almost startled when he did this. He reached down and cupped his hand to her face. She smiled and reached up to hold his hand. Suddendly he ripped her shirt open and dived down onto her giving her kisses across her chest. Millie's eyes widened and she started pushing him away.
" What? What's wrong?" He asked, almost aggravated.
Millie's face turned bright red, and she backed away from him. " W- well, I-I've never really...." Millie's voice trailed off.
" Ohh, I get it," He said, smirking, " You've never done it, have you?" She nodded, and looked away. She felt a little embarassed for some reason.
" Don't worry, baby, I'll go slow," He said pulling her closer.
To her suprise she didn't back away, but instead, smiled and wrapped her arms around his neck, pulling him even closer. He kissed her cheek softly, trying to reassure her. She bit her lip nervously, and crawled under the covers, trying to tease him. He laughed as he followed her, wrapping his arm around her tightly.
" Nicolas?" Millie said, ruining the moment.
" Yes, baby?" He said, kissing her neck softly.
" Do you love me?" She said, turning his head so he was facing her.
" I do," He said, lowering towards her face
" No, say it...please," She said with a puppy dog face.
He hesistated first, but then smiled," I love you Millie Thompson..."

Meryl sadly made her pallet on the sofa. Thankfully, she was short enough that her legs didn't hang off the edge. She fluffed her pillow and layed down in her covers, pulling them tightly around her. It was early for her to be going to bed, but she didn't care, what else would she do? She heard some extremely terrible noises coming from her and Millie's bedroom. She shut her eyes tightly, and pushed the pillow to her ears, hoping to ward off the sounds. Unfortunately it didn't work, so she loosened her grip and tried to just simply ignore the noises. *Damn, this place is to small for shit like that!* Meryl complained, nothing else for her to do. She wondered if Vash was sleeping, and she tempted herself to go sleep in Wolfwood's bed, realizing how unbelieveably uncomfortable the sofa was. But she didn't want to pass that room, the noises would be so clear she'd have to scream. She decided maybe she would just run by the room, and quickly dart into Vash's room. She sat up, seriously considering her newly thought up plan.* But, what if I disturb him?* Before she knew it, her feet were moving quickly towards Vash's room. She reached his bedroom, and quickly slammed the door behind her, shutting her eyes tightly.
" You hear it, too," Vash joked," and I thought he was bad with women."
Vash's voice startled Meryl, and she jumped back a little.
" Don't worry, I'm leaving if you want to sleep in my bed," Vash said, sitting up in his bed.
" Leaving?" She wanted to add again to the end of her sentence.
" Yeah, I got a date!" Vash said happily, " Man she's hot..."
*Date?!* Meryl felt the anger buiding up inside her. This explains his dissappearences.
" What's her name?" Meryl had no idea why she was supporting his answer..
" Serena," He said, standing up.
Meryl didn't say anything, she just stood in front of the door, staring. She clenched her fists.
" Well, I better be going.... Like I said you can sleep in my bed if you want," Vash said winking. He was always being perverted.
Meryl didn't say anything. Vash shrugged and left the room quietly. Meryl broke down, and fell to her knees, tear flowing down her cheeks. *Why do I care? He always has one-night stands like this! But, this almost feels different...* She didn't know what to do, she was so lost.....

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Hope you liked it! Please Review! By the way... Do you think I should have finished the lemon between Millie and Wolfwood ( I was so tempted to).