Disclaimer: I don't own them. My name is not Joss Whedon, and I'm not one of the good people at Mutant Enemy. So... don't sue.
Warning: The POV switches every now and then, but it's pretty easy to tell when.
I imagine moving on is a very hard thing to do... because I just can't seem to do it. No matter how hard I try, I just can't seem to move on. And every night as I go to sleep next to my husband, I can't seem to forget, forget my past... which I am trying so hard to forget. To shake from my mind. I can't forget who I was, who I am supposed to be. But, I now hide under my new name as Buffy Matthews.
I try to forget that I know what goes bump in the night. And that I'm supposed to fight it. And sometimes it almost works. But, it never fully does. I left Sunnydale, went to San Francisco to start over and leave the fight of the Hellmouth to Faith.
That was six years ago and I haven't been back since. I wonder what became of the others, I know Willow joined a coven in Europe and Xander is working on an oil rig outside of Tucson some where. But of the others I have no clue.
"Buffy are you still awake?" Jason asks me
"I can't sleep." I remark, sitting up "I've been thinking to much."
"What about?"
"It's personal." I replied, sliding out of bed and listening to him, return to gentle snoring.
The night world seems different than the day. I sorta miss traveling every night in it. Being part of that world, I miss the danger and adventure of it. But I can't ... I can't afford for a vamp or a demon to recognize me. Especially with the baby on the way.
She began to kick. Well, I wasn't sure if it was a girl or a boy but something just kept telling me it's a girl. I'm not sure why. I glance back at Jason, and wonder what will he think when I tell him. Tell him that his baby isn't exactly his...
My stake was gripped tightly in my hand as I patrolled the small graveyards. I had staked five vamps in two nights and hadn't come across any demons in the past month. But tonight had been a slow day. I lost a vampire nest that I had been tracking for the past week and a half and was pretty upset about it. So, I decided to visit a friend.
Angel was on my front lawn. He was smiling up at me.
"Hi." I mouthed
"Hey." He mouthed
I placed my hand on my belly. He smiled. He then gestured for me to come outside to him. I nodded, grabbed my shawl and walked down stairs.
"Hi." He whispered to me
"How are you?" I asked
"I'm fine, and you?"
"Good."
"How's..."
"She's fine ... 'Daddy'." I joked
"You haven't..."
"Told Jason. I was hoping I wouldn't have to..."
He raised his eyebrow. But none the less didn't say anything. He placed his hand on my stomach.
"She?"
"Just a feeling." I whispered.
"When are you going to know for sure?"
"A few days." I replied
He looked up at me.
"So how have you been?" He asked me "You seem tired."
"You wanna come in... this'll take a few hours."
He laughed.
"It'll probably be best if I don't."
"Probably."
He looked around and pulled his hands off of my belly.
"So are we still on for tomorrow?' I asked
We were just going to go out, shopping, see a movie, buy baby clothes.
"Of course. I'd better go, do another sweep."
"How's everything going? With business and slaying and stuff?"
"Good. You'll find that a lot of my business portrays to slaying... so it balances out."
"Oh. Good."
He gave me a quick yet passionate kiss.
"Bye."
And he left almost a suddenly as he had came. I must've been standing in the doorway for a while because Jason came downstairs, worried about me.
"Where have you been?" He asked
"Right here." I replied
"You should be in bed."
"I know. I was just... getting some fresh air."
"You sure..."
"I'm fine."
I glanced down the empty street. Jason wrapped his arms around my waist.
"How's my baby?" He asked
"Which? Me or the baby?"
"The baby."
"She's fine."
"Or he is fine."
I rolled my eyes.
"Has it been kicking a lot still?"
"Uh huh." I replied, still looking down the empty street
"God, I just can't wait until it gets here, I wanna be able to hold it in my arms and I wanna tell it that I'm Daddy."
I did a mock smile, wondering where her real Daddy was.
