I was 4 years old when I made the life altering decision to kill my twin sister Lucy Heartfillia. I made the decision not based on any true reason except that I knew that in an alternate timeline she would grow to get her mother's spirit keys, although I suppose in this world it's OUR mother.

Yes, I remember my past life and being reborn into this one was a complete and utter shock…. At first that is but I've always been particularly accepting and gleeful on unusual circumstances and I am happy to say I quickly got over it. It's a good thing really, I was getting very restless in my old one to be honest. I just take it as the start of a grand adventure to escape the ever slowly clawing confines of boredom once again running prevalent in my mind after years of constantly being on the move and in the dark throws of familiar comforting shadows.

In the anime world, I had once watched somewhat in my past I knew that the girl I know as my twin now would eventually grow into a weak girly girl bimbo who wastes her time complaining instead of doing anything of actual real importance… like training for one.

So therefore, my decision to kill her was made all the simpler because I wanted the keys she would no doubt get other wise and I simply DESPISE weak girly girls.

Gives all us hardworking ambitious women a bad name.

Incredibly naive and emotionally strong she may become but still…. simple decision on my part since I had no real connection to her besides the fact we shared a womb and a mansion.

It may seem cold to many but having all the memories of a past life with a clear-cut focus… especially if that past life had you for years as an assassin/information broker along with a few other criminal side affiliations and you get the idea.

I could go on about a past I am no longer living but that past no longer has any real significance or importance beside the vast worldly knowledge, skills and information on how to survive and thrive.

Knowing different languages that will be especially useful in this world to write in considering I'm most likely the only one to know the said language. I know that will come in handy but I'm getting off topic. I'm sure you're wondering how I killed Lucy correct? Well it was simple really!

I got the butler to do it.

The butler I'm talking about is someone anyone who watched the Tenruo arc from the anime knows and the one who took over Capricorns body. Yeah being a good body reader I could tell the guy was a prick and had some bad intentions especially when he looked at me with eyes of lust.

So, I knew the guy at least in this world was a pedophile. He may not have been in the anime world I first saw him in but in this parallel world he was so it was another easy decision on my part.

Lucy and I were playing tag with myself being it and just when she reached the stairs Zoldeo the butler was running by with a bucket full of water because of a small accidental fire in the room across from the stairs and just happened to trip on a carefully hidden wire. It incidentally caused him to accidentally push poor little Lucy down the long and hard granite steps cracking her skull open when it hit an edge making blood go everywhere.

I felt kind of sorry for whoever had to clean it up blood is an absolute nightmare to get out of carpet… trust me I would know.

It was complete and utter chaos and I was just glad I managed to clean up the little bit of wire and still come out like I was completely upset and traumatized.

Mother and Jude were devastated and Zoldeo got promptly fired from his job after an investigation handled by the magic knights which also happen to substitute as cops around fiore surprisingly enough.

Learn something new every day, anyway after a few months of acting miserable which even more surprisingly wasn't completely all fake considering I no longer had anyone to talk to in the library, I managed to ask mother to teach me celestial magic. She was surprised about that but still considered me seriously and asked me why I wish to learn. Obviously, I said the normal cliche good guy answer of 'I never want to lose another precious person' which made her smile at me sadly and tearfully agree and from then started promptly teaching me things the next day.

Although it was mostly just magic history lessons and what I call how to be a gentleman lessons.

Quite stupid if you ask me but I suppose it's better than how to be a lady lessons no doubt if I allowed Lucy to live would have had to endure and if I was the same gender as my past self. I was a female in my past life though more on the androgynous side of the spectrum in looks department and quite tall for my age which was fantastic for my job. In this one though I seem to be the fucking definition of a small effeminate boy. I'm extremely small for my age which now is 7 and I look like a fucking female doll.

Ever see Boku no Piko? Well I look like the Uke in that Ova though with longer and brighter hair and my face is more like Lucy's and Layla's with ice blue eyes not brown.

Not that I'm complaining! Heck I finally get to know what it feels like to be a gay guy since I'm not into females and looking like a girl it will be a lot easier to catch people off guard in fights and in some of my more…. illegal activities.

I suppose my overly short stature is the world's way of getting back at me for both my assisting in my twin's death and for giving me my overly large magic reserves.

Yes, I have per mother the magic reserves of a full-grown adult who has magic but never used it naturally. Considering my young age, it will only continue to expand and grow stronger the more I use it and train it along with my body.

Mother has commented a few times that she is kind of surprised and relieved that I haven't gotten as sick as I had when I was a newborn thanks to my way too large magic reserves and sparking magic. I don't remember much before I turned 6 months old but I suppose I don't get as sick as when I was a baby thanks to my curious experiments of moving it all around my body and trying to control it in different ways… eventually with that sticking on walls with magic as opposed to chakra thing from Naruto since I had absolutely nothing else to-do when I was an infant/toddler besides eat, sleep, shit and try to get my past thoughts and memories in order from meditation.

Also, surprisingly I found you can walk on walls with magic like from Naruto although it took a long, long while to accomplish and I'm surprised no one else in this world has tried to do it yet.

Guess they never thought of it or they tried and failed so gave up…. Who knows or cares it's my personal trick now! I can't wait to finally start trying water walking!

I have also created a few of my own magic tricks and spells that are quite useful if not powerful, although I have made sure to never attempt anything too dangerous without mother around since my first accident that nearly killed me when I tried to create a physical spinning magic barrier around me to both defend and attack.

It eventually worked…. although maybe a little too well since it trapped me and I couldn't get out without killing myself because of the tornado of violently spinning magic.

Mother ended up finding me and freaking out and told me to slowly stop my magic flow and after an hour I was free if not totally exhausted and mother ended up reprimanding me severely for not being careful and yadda, yadda, yadda.

After that and talking with her for a bit I managed to adjust and tweak it with mothers help and now it works flawlessly and is impenetrable! Well as far as I know mother had summoned Aquarius once to help test it out and she summoned a gigantic wave of water and hurled it at me… a little to cheerfully I might add and it ended up getting into a tornado whirlwind before shooting back at her with twice as much force as she had used.

Jude and the gardeners certainly weren't happy with the destruction but either way we called it a success and I named my powerful little magic trick 'Force Repel Guard 'unoriginal name I know but considering it repels everything that we have tried with double the force used its pretty accurate.

I have about three to four more I made up with ideas from other anime and shows but I won't name or explain them all unless needed, just know I made 'Force Repel Guard ' last month considering I am only 7.

Mother says I'm like a magical prodigy which I am immensely proud of. I am extremely fond of mother, as I had no family I was close to in my last life and she is everything and more that I could ever want in a mum. So, I hope in this universe she doesn't die on the 777X like in the anime/manga universe of my last life for bringing both Natsu and the dragons to our time.

Not holding my breath on that front though.

I will still accept it either way even if I am sad and mourn the loss of her presence in my new-found life I will still do it with a grin for the happy memories we shared no matter how short a time we had together like Is in my nature and how I know she would want. Jude…. Well I can't say I particularly mind his business way of life and handing of things since I'd be a complete and utter hypocrite otherwise but I can say without an ounce of guilt (No matter how unlikely that would be to occur anyway) he is a shit dad and a coward of a man. Before Lucy died he was still slightly more business then family but at least he tried his best to be with us as well as supportive of my choices even when busy but now he's not even trying with me and is more demanding of mother… and completely disapproves of mother teaching me magic saying it's a waste of time for his heir to learn.

Like hell I'm his heir I'm not a business type I'm more a fighting and stab you when your back is turned type no if or buts about it. He-he can't wait till he finds out I'm 'gay' it will anger him like no tomorrow considering he is already thinking of arranged marriages for me to some pompous ugly rich girls.

So, all in all I'm not attached to him like I wasn't all that attached to Lucy. Although I won't kill him either since well he is my dad. I love him although that is also quite hypocritical of me since I orchestrated Lucy's death and didn't and still don't give a shit besides missing her alleviating the boredom I sometimes suffer through here.

With Lucy, though… it was more a I had to get rid of her feeling than anything else, I just hated almost everything she became in the universe I once knew her in. Although I could have probably done something to change her I decided that it would probably take something drastic and serious like killing both Jude and Mother to change her future self so I went with the 'kinder' method to all the harmful work I would have otherwise had to do.

I also wanted the spirit keys since they fascinate me so as I said earlier in this little journal of mine it was an incredibly easy decision for me.

Although I did feel a little bad for killing her as I also stated earlier and even now after four years of her being gone I still miss her a little bit from time to time though those times are rare and mostly when I'm bored. I sometimes regret her death, if only because I let my vision tunnel and cloud over and didn't even try to see what could have been and instead just went with what I thought I knew from a television show.

Still to combat those tiny flickers of guilt and self-induced shame on allowing myself to get tunnel vision in the first place. Which from past mistakes and experiences from my ex life and professions meant certain death… or if incredibly lucky just severely injured I've determined, convinced and damned myself to joining Fairy Tail when I turn fifteen. (Despite really, not wanting to)

I am also going to make sure each one of the spirits I contract is happy and do everything I can for their happiness although that's not from guilt or self-shame and more primarily based off my own personal belief system since no one should be treated like a tool or slave… ever.

Though I use people as tools all the bloody time but still! It's the principle of it! it's not like I've ever went into the slave trade in my past life nor will I ever wish to.

Brought loyalty only ever goes so far after all…. especially when what you buy didn't want to be brought like cattle in the first place.

I also happen to know since life is a game and it's a use or be used kind of world no matter the universe.

It's not a negative way of thinking despite what many others would believe or say otherwise it's just a fact. As humans, we are selfish, greedy and always thinking of ourselves in this game called life, even those who try to help others do it for their own self-satisfaction, to feel good about themselves.

Just like pinching money from Jude's wallet every now and then and learning of his safes passwords is just my instincts for when I eventually leave since I am going to need money after all.

In all honesty, I don't care for being rich, don't get me wrong I like having tons of money I just can't stand all this mansion, butlers and maids crap! That's not the kind of game I like to play!

Let me tell you and this is fact I absolutely adore games.

Not that it's bothering me since I do, do a lot of training and studying in this new life of mine. Add that with the breaks I take for spending some time with my mother and her spirits she sometimes lets out so I can get to know my future friends *CoughToolsCough* and fighting companions.

Well I should go now since mother is calling but my next entree into this little journal of mine will have a brief outline of the years until I am 15 and leave for fairy tail.

I wonder what my life will be like in the future….

Well either way it's sure to be an absolutely, grand game!

Word Count: 2632

Disclaimer: I DON'T OWN THIS IF I DID LUCY WOULDN'T BE THE WEAK LINK IN TEAM NATSU NOR WOULD SHE BE SHIPPED WITH NATSU OR CONSTANTLY THE DAMSEL IN DISTRESS AND WHATEVER. This is written for my pure amusement and fun.

Future warnings: Anything you could potentially consider a warning! a lot of things will be mentioned in passing such as rape and torture but not really go into explicit detail since I don't condone a lot of that stuff and don't feel I can write them properly and in the tone and way they need to be written nor in the way I want to but Fluff, some emotional hurt and confusion, hints of depression and angst and deeper thoughts on moral ethics of right and wrong will be most commonly expressed throughout the story along with whatever else pops up… also expect a lot of OOC-ness since I suck at that no matter how much I practice writing and don't have anyone else I can bounce ideas off of and get advice who likes what I do besides my brother and he is mentally disabled despite being high functioning and can't read nor understand big words.

Also, the word count at the end of each chapter does not include the authors notes just saying that now.

OnepieceZoroOc Wishes for people to give constructive criticism not flames since the only reason I have decided to post this is to get motivation to continue this story! I've written a few chapters already but I keep getting confused on my own character so any advice would be much appreciated since friends and family aren't really any help considering they can barely tell the difference between manga and anime.