Okay, thank you for the nice reviews on 'Don't trust your mind'... First, I am 16 years old and I won't post a smut fiction, I'm sorry.

But you asked for a longer and more detailled chapters, so here we go :D

Please leave a review for me to know if you like it ... *puppy dog face*

It was dark when Pepper came home. She have had a very long day and was exhausted, so she went into the bedroom to change in her nightgown and snuggled beneath the sheets. She relaxed immedeatly, but as hard as she tried, she couldn't sleep. Her gaze met the picture of her and Brian on her nightstand and she sighed. Brian was her boyfriend, well... no he wasn't. He loved her, Pepper was sure about that, and he made her feel not alone like she did when she laid in her bed thinking about her boss. Yes she was in love with Tony and she hated herself for lying at Brian, but she also was tired of waiting for Tony to change... and she didn't want to be alone. Maybe she would fall in love with Brian when she pretended to be long enough. Pepper sighed again and grabbed her blackberry, dialed Brian's number. After a few seconds he answered his phone, even though he sounded very tired.

"Ginny? Hey Sweetheart, what's wrong?"

Pepper thought about what she should say. 'Hey Brian I love my boss and I just stay with you, cause I can't get him...' "I'm sorry to wake you, but could you come over here?"

"Yeah, of course. Just a few minutes"

Peppers head fell back in her cushions as she thought about how cruel she was. Brian was great, A few inches taller than she was, had light brown hair, a good sixpack and eyes like a young god. But whenever she was with him she was lying to herself. It was so easy, he loved her and she felt good when he was near, but nothing more. When she closed her eyes there was always the image of Tony holding her like Brian does and she wasn't sure what she should do. She couldn't break up with Brian, because then the dreams would come back. The dreams of herself telling Tony that she loved him and he leaving her like all the other girls... Pepper was startled by the doorbell and stood up, let Brian in.

"Hey...", he said and kissed her softly, pulled her in his arms.

"Are you allright?"

Pepper nodded, but she didn't look at him, she just took his hand and pulled him in her room. He laid down and wrapped his arms around her as she snuggled against him.

"Are you sure you are allright?"

"Mmh... I just don't want to be alone...", she mumbled and closed her eyes.

Tony worked at the suit nearly the whole night. He couldn't sleep very well since this guy had shown up for the first time. He had brought Pepper to work in the morning a week ago... Tony hated him! He was so... sweet and slimy. He had kissed her for what had felt like 10 minutes and had told her she shouldn't let him stress her... Tony's head fell on the table. He was so an Idiot. He could have all the things this man have if he just...

"Jarvis? Show me the picture again...", he groaned and lifted his head when Jarvis projected the hologramm in the room. Tony stared in her eyes, her wonderful eyes and watched her smile. She was perfect in every way... And right now she was probably lying in the bed with Brian, this moron... Tony thought about what It would be like to have the chance to hold her like he wanted, to kiss her... Just to be near her and could say what he felt. But he couldn't...

"Sir, shall I call her?"

Tony thought about it, it would be soothing to hear her voice and maybe he could sleep again, but he didn't want to wake her up.

"No J... it's allright"

Pepper came to work the next morning and sighed when she found Tony sleeping on the couch, an empty bottle of whiskey next to him. She laid her hand on his shoulder and tried to wake him up. His eyes snapped open and he grabbed her wrist; hard. Pepper whined and tried to calm him down. "TONY! It's allright, it's me. Would you let go of my arm, you hurt me!" He stared at her with wide eyes and released his grip.

"I'm sorry..."

Pepper shook her head.

"It's allright Tony, I'll bring you upstairs, you need to sleep."

She took his arm and the light pressure sent shivers down his spine. He stared at her, she looked good and seemed to be less stressed since she went out with Brian...

They reached his bedroom and Pepper forced Tony to lay down, but as she wanted to leave he grabbed her arm.

"Pepper? Are... are you happy?"

Pepper looked in his eyes, she wanted to shout:

'No! I'm not happy! I have a boyfriend I don't love, just because I don't want to feel lonely thinking about you and knowing that you won't ever love me like I love you! And it's the hardest task to go to work every day beeing near you and try not to start crying'

But she just nodded and said: "Yeah... I think I am happy... try to sleep Tony..." then she left the room.

"Jarvis?"

"Yes Miss Potts?"

"How long didn't he sleep?"

"a week, Miss Potts"

Pepper sighed and sat down on the couch. "What happened?"

"I'm sorry, I'm not supposed to say."

Tony laid in his bed and had stared at the door since she left. He couldn't sleep, now that his angel sat downstairs in his living room, even though he had a bad headache. He needed to talk to her.

"Jarvis? Tell Pepper I need her!"

"Tony? what's wrong?" Tony was sitting in his bed when she opened the door and smiled at her.

"Nothing's wrong, Pepper... I just... I need to talk to you"

Pepper sighed and sat down on the edge of his bed. God how badly he wanted to tell her... to just take her hand and tell her about his true feelings, but she wasn't free and obviously not interested in him. He couldn't blame her... she deserved better than him.

"Tony? you wanted to talk to me..."

"Oh, yeah... sorry. Pepper please promise that you'll take care of yourself, okay?"

"Tony... of course I'll take care of me... what's wrong, why are you talking like this?"

Tony sighed. "I'm sorry Pepper, I just want you to be allright..."

Pepper stood up and tried a smile.

"I am allright, Tony ... Now sleep, you are still drunk..."

She left the room and leaned back against the door. Why was her life so complicated?