FAKE SMILES
You see her every time you look at me.
You think I don't notice, but I do. There are times you look at me, with a seemingly loving expression, but I know that it's not for me. It's a façade, and in my heart I know, but it's just so hard to accept.
She fell in love with him, and you fell to pieces. I was there, like I always was. You took advantage of me, I know that now.
Yet, I can't bring myself to smile at your smiles, when they are so clearly for someone else, someone better.
I try to tell you this, but you shake your head and dismiss it.
"I don't have any feelings for her anymore, okay?" you plead.
But I know, I know. I look at you as you stand there; really look at you, while the tears stream down my face. Even now, it doesn't seem as if you are looking at me. Even now, after all this time, it's still for her.
I wanted to believe that over time, you would come to forget her. That was silly of me. I know you'll never be able to forget her, and I know you'll never love me as much as I love you.
And yet, when you come toward me, and take me into your arms, I can't say anything.
Maybe….just for a while longer, I'll be her replacement.
But only because, I love you so much it hurts.
It's my first try at a really not-well known pairing. Hope you enjoyed it.