Happy royai week everyone! So I'm going to be writing a prompt for every day, but I'll probably spread out posting them.

Here's the first one anyway, the prompt for Monday is firsts.

Warning: Major Character Death

Dear Miss Hawkeye,

Although… I suppose if you truly are the only one who will be reading this I guess I'll just call you Riza.

So Dear Riza,

We both knew this was eventually going to happen right? This wasn't something that could be calculated and avoided; no amount of number crunching could have prevented it. I'm sure I charged into something blindly and foolishly thought everything would be okay. Well if you're still here to read this I must have done something right.

Anyways, instead of being depressed and upset about what happened, I'd like to take this chance to remind you of all the good times we had together. I'm sure you've had enough sadness these past few days, but don't forget about the fun we had together, and the fun you will surely have in the future…

Do you remember when I first moved into your house back when we were small? You were so quiet; I didn't even get to speak to you for the first week I was there! I had to wait outside your door just to exchange pleasantries, and even then you always ran away as fast as you could. It was only after the master made us sit down for a meal together that I really got to know you. Do you remember the first time I caught you practicing your shooting behind the house? You had been so afraid I would rat you out, but later ended up giving me shooting lessons in that very spot. I loved watching you shoot back then, you looked so happy, so free.

I didn't see that expression for a long time after that day. Not until many years later when we were once again at the gun course, preparing for our first mission together. Oh man was that a disaster. Not because of you of course, it was my fault as usual. I wasn't expecting the bomber to have backup, and if you hadn't knocked me over at the last second I probably would have died. Thinking back, I would need more hands to count the number of times you've saved my life!

We've had a lot of great firsts, the first time we met the Elrics, the first time we snuck into a gang hideaway, the first time we used Lt. Fuery as bait…

That reminds me of something.

I've never told you this, so I guess even though I'm gone we are able to make firsts after all.

I'm sorry for being so selfish about this and I'm sorry to push it on you now, but I need you to know how I feel.

I love you Riza. I've loved you for so long. I've never been able to tell you in person, and I'm tempted to scribble it out now, but I won't, I can't.

Love Always,

Roy Mustang