I wish I could let go and move on or I wish she could let me go. Seeing her everyday and not being able to hold her or kiss her hurts and seeing her with Teddy breaks my heart. At first after her wedding I left Nashville needing to get away from all the memories of us but I soon realized that the memories weren't in the city but within me. I also realized that even though it hurts to be around her it hurt more not to be near her, so I went back. I tried to move on with other people like Rayna did but every time I was with some girl all I saw was Rayna so I stopped dating. Being on the road with her was good and bad because I didn't have to see Teddy everyday but she would always bring him up almost like she was trying to remind herself that she was married. I wished I didn't still love her it would be so much easier to be around her if I didn't. But the other issue that I have been running into is that I am pretty sure she is still in love with me too I can see it every time she looks at me when she didn't think I was looking. After sound check one day I decided to stay behind while everyone packed up and left to go out for lunch. When I was sure that everyone was gone I sat down and started to play the song I had been working on since I got back to Nashville. What I didn't realize was that Rayna had returned to pick up something that she had left behind and had heard the song.
"95 down the interstate Mile high on a jet plane A desert road or a downtown train It's all the same, I can't outrun you
I can move to another town Where nobody'd ask where you are now L.A. or Mexico No matter where I go I can't outrun you
You're in my heart, you're in my mind Everywhere ahead, everywhere behind Every turn I take, you're right around the bend
It's like your ghost is chasing me When I'm awake, when I'm asleep There's a part of you in every part of me And I can't outrun you, I can't outrun you
I've had a chance with a girl or two But all I ever saw was you Holding my hand, kissing my face I guess some memories never fade
You're in my heart, you're in my mind Everywhere ahead, everywhere behind Every turn I take, you're right around the bend
It's like your ghost is chasing me When I'm awake, when I'm asleep There's a part of you in every part of me And I can't outrun you, no I can't outrun you, no, no
I thought there might just come a time I wouldn't regret telling you goodbye But looking back I should have realized I can't outrun you, I can't outrun you, I can't outrun you"
When I finished I packed up my guitar and left the arena to clear my head before the show tonight. I was also leaving behind Rayna who was in tears at the realization that I still loved her and always will and also with the realization that she might have made a big mistake.