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I AM RE-POSTING THIS STORY BECAUSE I HAD A READ THROUGH IT AND THE AMOUNT OF MISTAKES AND SPELLING ERRORS MADE ME CRINGE! I WROTE THIS STORY WHEN I FIRST JOINED FANFICTION. IT WAS MY SECOND TRY AND MY FAVORITE STORY LINE OF ALL MY STORIES.

I HAVE BEEN EDITING THE CHAPTERS BUT I MIGHT HAVE MISSED SOMETHING SO FOR THAT I AM SORRY. FOR THE PEOPLE WHO HAVE ALREADY READ THIS STORY I THANK YOU FOR STICKING WITH IT BACK THEN AND FOR THE PEOPLE WHO HAVEN'T READ THIS ONE THEN I HOPE YOU ENJOY.

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CHRISTIANS POV

As I stand looking out at Seattle below my feet I keep having the same thoughts running around my head

Four years today.

Its been Four years today since I saw her

Four years since the last time I held her in my arms and told her I loved her.

God, I didn't even know where she was or who she was with.

Whether she was eating correctly, if she was warm, if she had money. And even though it was stupid, I wondered if she had cut her hair? Her long brunette hair almost fell to her waist that last time I saw her.

If I had known that she going to leave the last time I saw her, I would have done everything in my power to stop her. I blamed myself, even though I have been told countless times over the last four years that I did nothing wrong. But still, due to years of self doubt how could I not think it was my fault? I just want to know why?

Why did she run away? All I had was a note left on my desk, those ten words still haunt me

I'm sorry, don't look for me, I love you all x

I hear my office door open and shut quietly. I don't need to even turn around to know who it is. Her delicate arms wrap around me from behind and I turn to look in her eyes. Its clear she has been crying, like I am now. She wipes away my tears with her fingers but then puts her head on my chest and her own tears start to fall. We just stand there, getting strength from each other. She must know what I'm thinking because she pulls back looks me straight in the eye.

"Stop blaming yourself, you did nothing wrong! We did nothing wrong"

I cant help it, four years of anguish, of not knowing has finally taken over me an I crumple to the floor crying like I have never cried before.

"Where is she? Why did she leave? I don't understand she was so happy and then out of the blue she's gone! I just want her back"

"I know, baby I know, I do as well and we have to keep the faith that she will come back when she's ready "

I look into her beautiful eyes. The eyes I have looked into for the past 23 years. The eyes that I love, the deep pool of blue now shadowed with hurt, just like mine

"I love you, Anastasia, but I need my daughter back. I need my Phoebe back"

"I love you too, Christian and I know she will come back. We just need to keep looking and we will find her"

"How can you be sure Ana, its been four years and we have nothing! No sightings, she hasn't used her credit card, its like she just dropped of the face of the earth! We have the best security in the world and for all their fucking experience they cant find one girl! If they couldn't find her when she was a 16 year old girl how are they now she's a 20 year old woman?"

"Baby, we just need to keep up hope. We have Ted, Carly and Matthew to think about as well. We need to be strong for them Christian, their sister left them just like she left us"

"I know. Ted has been non stop trying to find her, just like me. I thought I was a major stalker but I've got nothing on him"

"Come on, lets go home and have dinner, tomorrow is another day, we will find our baby girl, Christian. I know we will"

She takes my hand and pulls me off the floor. My wife's belief that will find our daughter has never wavered, mine on the other hand is becoming less and less as each day passes.

TED'S POV

I cant tell Mom and Dad or the rest of the family… not yet… I have to be 100% sure...but I know in my heart I'm right.

I found her.

I know where she is.

And I know why she ran.