Will it ease his pain?
Disclaimer:
I do not own hetalia or its characters...
Summary:
after the incident with Kiku, after his death he`s wondering if suicide was a good thing...
Warning: Character death, based on a true story...
I was walking down the long corridor going to his room, I pass by the nurses and patients, upon opening the door I was greeted by bright lights, his room was bright and saw him lying down on the hospital bed looking pale as always I gestured to the chair and sat beside him.
"Kiku hey Look I`ve brought some chrysanthemums..." I said as I placed the flowers on the vase. "Would you like anything water, food I have an apple would you like to eat one?"
he only shook his head and looked at me with those sad eyes, it feels like he`s losing all hope of Living but I never gave up, I don`t want him to leave me, no I don`t want to say good bye.
"A-Arthur-san could you get that box for me..." he pointed out to a box sited on the chair at the other side, I walked up there and took the box and gave it to him.
The contents of the box made me want to yell at him I yanked the box and the contents away from him, but he was able to take the gun and place the barrel on his head.
"What do you think you`re doing you can't just kill yourself!" I grabbed the gun from his weak hands and put it back in the box "Kiku where did you get this gun?"
No reply he just look up at me, pleading to give him the gun and end his misery, but I was strong I don`t want to lose him.
"No Kiku I won't let you..." I took the gun away and left the room.
Time has passed after that incident and it was my birthday, we celebrated in his room because he couldn`t come, the next day I visited him he was not on his bed, Alfred entered and told me he was dead, he told me he didn`t make it, well his status was critical anyway.
after his burial I was sad I missed him, after time has passed I`ve almost forgot him, until I saw that gun, I remembered my time with him but it was blurry but when I remember the time he wanted to kill himself that vision was clear.
Now that I think about it did he really die because of his condition or something else?
I wonder if I should have given him that gun that day?
Will he be truly happy?
Why do people commit suicide when they`re feeling hardships?
Is committing suicide something that could ease his pain?
I felt like crying it was the only thing I could do anyway...
You know while I was making this Fanfic It reminds me a lot of my past that I never want to remember...
yes it`s based on a true story since I experienced it myself only the time and place was different also it wasn`t in a hospital...
So anyway I made this fanfic because I suddenly felt like it...
Maybe so I`ll never forget that day...
Could somebody answer the questions I`m lost...
Anyway please forgive typing errors