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I wrote this in like 10 min so it's pretty bad lmao. forgive me

"It's not nearly as bad as it looks, Darling"

Fujioka looked away, fist clenched tightly as he rested them on his thighs. More than ever, he wants to run and when he closes his eyes he can come back and see Kiyose far away from this hospital bed. It doesn't suit him, the white background clashes with his skin. It only makes Kiyose more pallid than ever. What's even more horrible is that horrible cast on his legs. What's Kiyose without his leg free and running, what's any of them without their legs running?

"Is that you have been saying to people?" he finally answered "You are the one to lie Kiyose"

Kiyose laughed and were he any other person, it would have sounded the same like usual; light and airy. He didn't concentrate his focus on Kiyose for the last 3 years for nothing though, the laughter sounds pained and Kiyose is tense as he focused his body to not move to much. His leg still hurts obviously.

"You don't believe me" said Kiyose

"No, really how did you ever figure it out"

"Fujioka," smiled Kiyose "It hurts yes, but it is an injury. I wouldn't need to be in a hospital if it didn't hurt but other than that it really isn't that bad"

"Seriously though, are you even supposed to be here?" he asked "Isn't time for tracks? Coach would get mad if-"

Kiyose startled as a warm hand enveloped his, Fujioka didn't have enough in him to apologize because the longer he hears this concoction of white lies he feels his heart breaking to little pieces and his eyes waters at the fact that Kiyose have to comfort him and not the other way around.

"Fujioka?"

"I overheard the doctor when I came in here"

"... that's an invasion of privacy"

"I think out of all people, you shouldn't be saying those words to me"

"Ouch, you are so blunt," Kiyose then put his own hand on top of his "How much did you hear?"

"You won't-" he swallowed because knowing and thinking about it is one thing but saying it out loud? It makes it final, makes it a reality than a far fetched nightmare "You won't be able to run"

Kiyose hand tighten and his fingernails dig in his skin. It'll leave a mark but this have nothing on the pain Kiyose is feeling right now.

"That's right"

Fujioka looked up, Kiyose sounds breathless and he fears what is coming. Kiyose is looking out the window but he did not stop the tears running down his cheek. Even like this, he looks ephemeral.

"Kiyose…?"

Kiyose finally looked at him and he could see the damage finally sinking in.

"I can't run anymore!" Fujioka raised his arm and used his thumbs to wipe the tears away while using his other hand to intertwine their fingers. Locking it so tightly as for Kiyose to know he's there.

"There you are," he murmured "Let it out"

At that, Kiyose finally broke. He sobs big and ugly and reached out an arm for him. Fujioka stood but didn't break their intertwined fingers; he sat next to Kiyose and gently pulled Kiyose to the crook of his neck.

As Kiyose breaks down, Fujioka could merely murmur soft love for him and delicately run his hands through Kiyose's hair. He wish he can kiss this pain away, he wish he can do anything but being there for him is the only thing he can do now.

The sobbing shifted to flimsy whimpers and the hold on his hand loosen.

"It's okay Kiyose," he hummed

"No," whimpered Kiyose "It's not"

"In the future yes," he sighed, kissing the top of Kiyose's head "But I'm here now and I will always be there in the future too"

"Okay…" Kiyose sniffled "I'm tired Fuji, I'm so tired"

"After having that emotional break down?" he chuckled "If you didn't, then you really wouldn't be a human being"

Kiyose snickered at that, punching him tenderly on the side. Oh what he wouldn't do for this boy.

"Let's go to sleep now, okay?"

Kiyose murmur an agreement of some sort and Fujioka carefully arranged him on his bed and tucking him in. Kiyose seized out a hand at Fujioka, gingerly tugging on his jersey.

"Don't leave?"

"No," he smiled and kissed his forehead "I'm not going anywhere"

Kiyose would leave school after that, only coming back for finals. Fujioka tried his best tp be there but with the pressure coming from everyone, tracks overtook most of his freetime. It didn't help that Kiyose was becoming more closed off to him. In the end, with his pursuit of track and Kiyose's injury, the two of them were just too young to handle any relationship with those added bonus. He would keep Kiyose in his mind as he run because if he knows Kiyose, he was sure he would see him running once more.

He stopped on his tracks, looking up to see the person he missed so dearly.

"Kiyose"

Kiyose smiled and everything seems to alter itself. He feels he can breathe easier and his steps lighter than ever. There are people that he doesn't recognize behind Kiyose's but at their protective stance as he came nearer, they seems to be good people.

"Fujioka"

Everything will be okay.