Haruhi POV You look at me with such pain in your eyes, as if you didnt see this was coming. honestly, thats just rediculous. you were supposed to be the all-knowing shadow king, able to predict everything before it happens. so how come you didnt see this coming?
all the signs were there, the long sleeves, the dull, lifeless look in my eyes...i was withdrawn, quiet, my grades were slipping dangerously low. did you know that chairman Suoh, Tamaki's father, threatened to kick me out of ouran if my grades didnt improve and regain my position as top student? by that look, im guessing not. Kyouya, stop, please dont cry. im hardly in any pain at all. seeing you like this makes me realize you must care for me a great deal for you to cry in front of me, a lowly commoner. i wonder if you like me, no love me...like i love you? i doubt it. You ask me why i would do this to myself? mutilate and cut myself? because i felt so much anger inside, i needed a way to let it out. i near meant for this to happen, to cut so deep to make me die. dont cry over me kyouya, really. you only probably felt a silly little crush on me, if that. You'll move on once im gone, find someone knew to like. You'll forget about me, just like everyone else will.
Goodbye Kyouya Ootori, im sorry. I tell you this and watch her eyes, your beautifully cold, deep eyes, widen in fear. i see them fill with more tears that stream down your face. i see your shoulders rack with the force of your sobs, your pleas for me to hold on. Slowly, i begin to feel the darkness, pulling me in, drowning me, claiming me.
my thoughts race in the last moments im alive. Im so sorry Kyouya, that you had to be the one to find me...im so sorry Kyouya...i am the one who shattered you...shattered Kyouya Ootori, the unshatterable, the unbreakable. With my last seconds of live, i drink in your appearance, memorize every beautiful, perfect feature about you, so unlike my so unperfect body. Finally...finally the darkness swallows me, and all i see is black...
A/N: just something i thought of during school. mostly a rant. all kinds of reviews are welcome~ ~Alexis