Lorelai hadn't slept through the night in months. Every time she fell asleep she dreamt. And every time she dreamt it was the same nightmare. But it wasn't a nightmare it had really happened. The people around her noticed something was wrong but they didn't know what. She couldn't think or feel anything. She was numb. She happened to listen to Luke's voice mail one day, and found a message from April. She didn't tell him. She didn't do or say anything. She wasn't even really mad. She was pale and sickly looking, people were concerned but no one could make her go to the doctor.
"Lorelai!" Emily calls from the entry way.
"What?" Lorelai replies meekly from the couch.
"What the hell is wrong with you? It's noon and you're in pajamas, your hair is a mess, and you can't seem to answer the door."
"Sorry." Lorelai barley mumbles.
"What's wrong with you? It's your birthday why aren't you dressed?" Emily repeats herself as she plops down on the couch next to Lorelai.
"Nothing why?"
"You look terrible."
"Ok." Lorelai says as she moseys to the bathroom.
"Where are you going?"
Lorelai doesn't answer. A few seconds later Emily hears Lorelai wretch.
"Are you ok?"
Lorelai flushes, brushes her teeth, washes her face and then answers.
"Yes I'm fine mother." Mutters as she re-places herself on the couch.
"Lorelai you're not fine."
"Yes I am."
"Lorelai look at me."
Lorelai turns her head to look at Emily. "What?" she says sharply.
"You're pale."
"So?"
"So you need to go to the doctor you're sick."
"No I'm not."
"Really? You just threw up the entire content of your stomach but you're not sick."
"No."
"Lorelai what's going on?"
Lorelai doesn't reply she just starts sobbing hysterically. Emily embraces her unsure of what to say. Pretty soon Lorelai falls asleep in Emily's lap. Emily watches her as she sleeps. First she starts sweating bullets, then she starts screaming 'no', and then within seconds she wakes up.
"Lorelai is that what's bothering you?"
"What do you mean?"
"Have you been having nightmares."
"Yeah."
"For how long?"
"Longer than I can recall."
"Lorelai what are they about?"
"They? It's the same one over and over again."
"Why does it bother you so much then?"
"Because it's not really a nightmare it really happened. Every time I close my eyes I can see it all over again.""Lorelai what happened? Is it Luke did he do something to hurt you?"
"No mom it's not Luke."
"Lorelai I know you don't like to tell me things but you know you can right?"
"I can't tell you. Your reactions are legendary. I just can't handle that right now."
"Lorelai you can tell me."
"No I can't I can't tell anyone."
"Lorelai what is so horrible that you can't tell me?"
"I... just drop it please."
"Fine, but will you go to the doctor please?"
"No."
"Lorelai you need to go to the doctor you're sick. Please." Emily begs.
"Fine."
Emily picks up her cell phone and calls a doctor.
"Get dressed."
"Why?"
"I'm taking you to the doctor."
"Now?"
"Yes. Please Lorelai."
"Ok." Lorelai groans.