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"Playing With Dolls"
by Elspeth Rose
Censor: PG-13
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*start*
Why is it considered wrong and terrible to be gay? Is it something that began with my playing with dolls?
My mother never supported my sexuality – my father didn't know. Am I really such a terrible, inhumane person? I never meant to be different or controversial. I guess it's just the way I am.
Maybe it began with my playing with dolls. I never had boy dolls, so my female dolls were paired and married. I remember my mother's constant offers to buy me the one doll I needed
for 'straight' marriages. I
refused. Why, I asked her,
weren't my dolls already alright for me to play with?
I never declared my sexuality until he offered to marry me. I said, "Oh, you're a wonderful friend, but please understand, Ron. You see, I'm gay."
He was extremely shocked. He immediately apparated away. I felt terrible, but I knew telling him was the best thing I could do. And not too long afterwards, Harry called on me. He asked me why. "Why, Hermione?" he asked, "why tell us now? What about Ron? Or Viktor?"
"Harry –" I began, but he left before I could finish. I was flattered that the two liked me, but I realized what I was
afterwards. Who I was.
And maybe it was my playing with dolls.
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