He stood watching the moon , his hair darker than the night around him . He stood there till dawn , holding the flower she had given him that night . His heart flooded with his fears , and his love for her . He had always held her dear , within his heart . But he had almost lost her , he had almost failed her . Saving her at the last moment , but she had forgiven him . When he could not even forgive himself , he knew that he would always feel fear . When before , he had never felt it . Not even as a small child , now he was almost a man . Hitomi , the single star in all the darkness around him . He closed his amber brown eyes , and imagined that she was here in the darkness . At his side , but she was not . The only woman he could ever love , had almost been lost forever to the darkness . If only I could trust myself , to go on without fear . Maybe then I could trust myself , to be by her side . To be my queen , but I cannot . I can never bring myself , to admit to her . That I love her and prize her , before anything else . Even my country , he closed his eyes to ponder some more . And to sort out the problems of his world , and psyche . . . . . To be countinued