His only

This is my explanation of Snape. It is certainly not his story; in fact, he denies all of it and accuses me of being a sick little child. Snape would like the first word: he would like to deny any relations with any students at Hogwarts as well as any other males mentioned in the Harry Potter book series. ....4 hours later.... a much less snobbish Snape sweeps into my bedroom. I scream and throw a book at the looming black figure but then realize who it is and say.

"Oh. Sorry"

"I would like to take back my earlier comment about not having any relationships with any males in the Harry Potter book series. However the comment regarding students still stands."

"Cough. Snigger. Lucius has you so whipped."

"That's quite enough Ivy! 300 points from whatever house you're in!"

"I'm in yours, sir."

"Damn."

He sweeps out and I fall over laughing.

Now to the story:

Part One

James

Snape paced back and forth at the window of his chamber.

"Where was James?" he wondered silently. He had been gone all night last night and he was nowhere to be found today. Severus swept his jet-black hair out of his eyes. Now in his seventh year of Hogwarts the frighteningly well-ordered mane usually fell to below his waist, shining so dark it appeared blue. James liked his hair long and, Snape thought, clean to the point of obsessivness. But tonight he hadn't bothered to sort it out and it kept falling into his eyes. Where could he be?

A weary James stumbled up to the chamber to be confronted with Snape. Snape and James had been able to share chambers despite their different houses when Snape's roommates "mysteriously" disappeared and were never seen again. James offered to stay with him. They had already been dating for several months at the time so there was no shortage of off color jokes, but they were practically adults. Snape bombarded him with questions the moment the door opened but stopped when he saw his boyfriend's bloodshot eyes. James had been crying.

"What happened?" Severus said frighteningly soft. "I'm so sorry, but I didn't think you'd take it this hard. It was just one fight."

"It wasn't the fight."

Gradually the story unraveled and Severus held James in his arms. After fighting James went up to the astronomy tower and began breaking off random bits of the castle and throwing them as far as he could. Luckily none hit anyone, but for young Longbottom it was a close thing. Apparently bad luck is genetic. He slid down against the wall and closed his eyes to hide the tears. No one but Severus could ever make him cry. All that he said to him was too close to the truth.

He heard a sound and abashed stood up and made to leave.

"James, don't. I need to talk to you."

It was Lily, a beautiful girl he had dated before Snape.

"You got into another fight with Severus, didn't you?"

"I-I well..."

"I know you. I know how easily you are hurt. Why do you stay with him when he does this?"

"He doesn't mean to hurt me."

"Yes, James. He does. But I never will."

"Lily, we're over."

"Just let me comfort you, be with you. This once. And then I'll be gone forever."

"Just this once? And you won't tell anyone."

"No."

He pulled her into an embrace but all he could think of was Severus. Suddenly he smiled; this would hurt Severus more than anything. Snape would never say those things to him again.

He pulled her to the cold floor of the tower and she went willingly enough, divesting both of them of their garments. He pounded all of his frustrations into her, her every scream and moan spurred his anger until he was finally spent. He crawled off of her and backed away horrified as she calmly pulled her robes back on.

"What have I done?"

Severus called James mind back to him with a whisper.

"I forgive you. I still love you." He said.

"I would rather you hated me. It would make this hurt less."

"I don't understand", said Severus.

"Lily thinks she's pregnant."

"No James! Don't do this!"

"I have to marry her, this is my fault."

"She practically threw herself at you! You needn't marry! What about us! What am I supposed to do?"

"I don't know." He replied, his eyes hazy with tears.

"I won't let you go." Snape said, kissing him fiercely. James brushed his lips over his neck moving further down. They made love, and when Severus awoke the next morning, James was gone.