This is what I think should have happened at the end of the latest episode, "Yesterday." It's a Der/Mer fic so if you don't like them, stop reading now. Other than that, ENJOY! And please review review review!

It's Always Been You

Meredith heard the knock on her door, but she didn't feel like answering. She didn't want to talk to anyone. The last week had been hell for her. From the bomb incident, to finding out about her mother's affair and seeing her dad for the first time in 20 years, to all this Derek stuff. Why had he shown up that night anyway? And why had she asked him about their last kiss. Maybe it was because she wanted to know if he still remembered. And he had. He remembered every little detail. And as much as it shouldn't have, it gave her hope. And then what Mark had said to her today.

"It's funny...Derek walks in on me naked with his wife. Actually in the throes...and he just turns around and walks away. But he sees me so much as talking to you, and I'm on the ground bleeding. Interesting, don't you think?"

She shouldn't even be thinking about him that way anymore. But of course she did, all the time. Everytime she walked past him in the hospital. Everytime she would look up and see him staring at her. Everytime they were alone in an elevator together. Everytime...she fell more in love with him. But what the hell was she supposed to do? She would just have to wait and see if Mark was right. If maybe the dirty mistresses really would win this time. She heard the knock on the door again.

"Who is it?"

"Hey...it's George. Umm...there's somebody at the door for you. But Mer...Meredith?"

"Ya George" she said as she started walking out of the room.

"Can I maybe...umm...talk to you?"

"Ya George. Can I go see who's here first?"

"Ya...I'll be...umm...in my room, ok?"

Meredith didn't say anythying, just smiled and continued to walk down the stairs.

She had a feeling it would be him. Well, she hoped it would be him...she always did. But she always prepared herself in case it wasn't. But this time it was...he stood in almost the exact same position he had when he had come to check on her last week. He looked tired, sad, detached. But he smiled that same McDreamy smile when she walked into the foyer.

"Hi." he said as he looked here up and down.

"Hi. Are you ok?"

"No. I'm not ok. I just...uhhh...Meredith." Derek said with sadness in his voice. She looked at him and walked into the living room. As she sat down on the couch, she nodded him over and he sat down next to her. She didn't want to say anything because she wanted him to talk first. He looked at her again and then put his face in his hands.

"Meredith...I...don't know what to do. I've racked my brain all day trying to come up with a solution, but I can't. And...I...I just needed to see you. I needed you." He said in the most sincere voice Meredith had ever heard and he turned his head towards her with one of those knee-melting, lopsided grins of his. She still didn't want to say anything. She wanted him to continue, explain everything.

"I love you Meredith. I love you more than you can understand. And when that bomb went off last week, I was a wreck. I came down from the surgical floor and all I wanted, was to see you, and touch you, and hold you, and kiss you. But when I came here, I couldn't let myself. I'm still married, yes, but other than that paper...it's you. It's always been you Meredith. Ever since that morning that I woke up right there, on your floor...it's been you." He looked over at her again and she thought she saw tears in his eyes. She was definitely going to cry...cue the tears... now.

"Meredith...hey...hey...shhh shhh shhh. Come on," Derek said with a little chucke, "I'm telling you this because I want to make you happy. Not because I want you to cry." He pulled her into his arms and against his chest, all the while stroking her hair. "The reason it took so long for me to tell you, and I guess for me to truly realize it, was today. When I saw Mark talking to you, I lost it. Obviously...you saw me hit him. But something just clicked. I realized that I didn't want anyone else to flirt with you, or talk to you like that. I want to be the only person you can even imagine loving. I want to spend my life with you. I want you. Nobody else, Meredith, nobody else."

Meredith pulled away from Derek and looked into his eyes. But all she wanted to do was kiss him. She wanted to feel his lips against hers again. But she needed to ask him some things first. She needed to know what this meant.

Well, hoped you liked it guys. Sorry it was a short first chapter and I left you hangin at the end, but I'll update soon. I promise. And PLEASE review! I love to hear what everyone thinks and let me know if you have any suggestions or things to change!