My Golden-eyed Angel
I sit on my bed, the radio on.
You're out again, sitting on your roof.
What could you be thinking,
Staring at the stares so late?
I turn up the volume,
For I know you will hear.
I see your lips twitch when the
Music reaches your ears.
You sit on the roof in
The beautiful darkness.
The only light is what floods
Upon you from my window.
I know you hear the yells in my home.
Could you be wondering what it's like
Living in this prison of mine?
You must have no idea what happens here.
I wonder what you think out there.
I see you on the streets and at the school.
You never look at me, but I know you see me.
You see my bruises and scars.
I know you see my burns and cuts.
How could you not see them?
I know you have little friends,
But you enjoy the quiet.
I hear you mutter of your annoying brother
As you pass me by.
Do you sit here so late to escape his noise,
I wonder?
I'm glad not to have siblings.
They would not deserve this torture.
You know nothing of this pain in my heart.
Yet I know nothing of your own pain.
I watch you through my window.
Can you see me? Do you want to?
I'm not offended if you don't.
I don't like it when people stare.
You look away from the stars into my eyes.
Have I done something to distract you tonight?
Your eyes are so soft now.
Your eyes were always so cold.
No one could read your eyes.
Tonight I can see them so clear,
Like the sun on the horizon.
I can see the love you show for no one.
Why me?
What have I done to deserve such a look?
I see a small smile grace your face.
What could you be thinking?
You never smile to anyone. Why me?
I slide my window open and lean out.
A trellis forms a ladder for you to climb.
I watch as you calmly cross the street
And stand under my seal.
What are you thinking?
Mother would never know.
You stretch your arms out,
Showing me you will catch me.
I slip on my sweater and step upon the seal.
My lids squeeze shut. Why am I afraid?
You are below me now.
Will you catch me? I hope you will.
Will you save me? I pray that you do.
I push my legs from the frame.
My body lands upon the cool grass.
You wrap your strong arms around me.
I gently lean into your embrace.
Your breath brushes my ear.
"I'll never let you fall."
Your words, so sweet in my mind.
I have waited for so long to hear them.
I wish to cry.
No, not for what has happened to me,
But what you will bring.
How happy I will be with you now.
Your lips gently press mine.
Oh, how I love you.
Your arms, which keep me safe and warm.
Your golden eyes, which watch over me.
You turn me in your arms and guide me away.
Light floods the house I called my prison.
I see her in my mind, her head jutting out my window.
An earth-shattering scream breaks the peace of the dark.
I wonder what she is thinking now as
She looks upon my limp body on the ground.
How she must regret not being the mother
She wished to be for me.
"Will she forgive me?" I ask you.
And you say, "You are not to be forgiven.
It is she who must wish for forgiveness
For what she has done."
I know you are right.
You are never wrong.
Your voice is filled with love and reason.
How could something as smooth as silk be wrong?
It cannot.
You hold me close as you led me through the streets.
I feel so safe with you near me.
You gently kiss my cheek.
"Ashiteru, Kagome."
I allow you, my angel, to guide me to heaven.
I whisper with the mist of the early morning.
"And I love you, Sesshomaru."
END-Jo Manta