There was a slight moment when Kara let her guard down. Alex wouldn't have even noticed it if she hadn't spent her whole life looking out for her sister. She knew when Kara was genuinely happy and when she was putting on a front like she was tonight. It was only for a few seconds, but Alex caught the moment she let her guard down and knew that by the look that Lena gave her that she had seen it as well. It was the way Kara went from laughing one second to staring off into space the next second. She had that faraway look in her eyes like she used to get when she first arrived to earth. That look that always broke Alex's heart because she knew the crushing grief that Kara carried around with her every day.

On this particular night Alex was over at Kara and Lena's apartment for their weekly game night. This tradition had started a few years ago when Alex had met Maggie. Kara started it as a way for Maggie to feel more comfortable with the group of friends. When Kara met Lena shortly after and the two quickly became friends she was invited as well. After about a year of friendship Lena finally had the guts to admit she was in love with Kar and the two had been together ever since. Maggie and Alex had gotten married last year and every Friday they would all meet up at someone's apartment and play games, drink, and enjoy each other's company.

Alex was almost positive that her and Lena were the only ones who had noticed something off with Kara tonight. J'onn was busy talking with James while Brainy and Nia were distracted with their own conversation. Lena and Alex shared a quick concerned look with each other before they got back to the game currently being played. They didn't want to bring it up with Kara in front of everyone, so they let it go with the understanding that they would bring it up with Kara later. Game night wrapped up a few hours later after Alex and Maggie left for the night. Alex made sure to give Kara an extra-long hug before she went out the door. Lena followed her out into the hallway.

"Just keep an eye out for her," Alex said.

"Always," Lena said, and Alex knew she would. She hugged Lena goodbye and her and Maggie went down the stairs They got in Maggie's car as the detective started the short drive back to their apartment.

"You're worried about Kara," Maggie said, and Alex was once again reminded why she loved her wife. Maggie must have noticed the look in Kara's eyes as well tonight. Maggie had quickly picked up on Kara's moods and could tell almost as well as Alex when something was bothering the younger girl. She knew there was a lot more to Kara than her sunny smile and bubbly personality and understood what was hidden behind that.

"You saw it too," Alex said as she sighed slightly.

"I did, and I also noticed that you hugged her a little longer tonight when we left," Maggie said as a small smile appeared on her wife's face. One of the things that Alex loved most about Maggie was how she noticed the small things. She loved that Maggie cared about Kara almost as much as Alex did. She understood that Alex and Kara's relationship was more than just a regular sibling relationship. Maggie never got mad when Alex canceled plans to check on Kara or when Kara showed up at 1 in the morning because her nightmares were too real that night. Alex was also glad that Kara had found Lena. Alex felt less worried about her sister knowing that other people were looking out for her as well. Alex knew that her, Maggie, and Lena knew something about Kara that many people didn't. They knew that for as happy and sunny as Kara appeared there was always going to be a part of her that was haunted by her past. That as much as Kara loved with her whole heart there was a hole in it that might never be filled.

"When I see that look in her eyes, I just get transported back to the scared girl who arrived on earth alone and broken. It breaks my heart and I'm worried about what is going on in her head," Alex said as Maggie grabbed her hand.

"It scared me too, but she has you and me and Lena. We are going to make sure she is okay, and we are going to let her know that she will never be alone again," Maggie said as Alex wiped a tear that came down her eye. Alex didn't cry a lot but when it came to Kara, she couldn't help it sometimes. Maggie parked the car and the two headed up to their apartment.

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Lena woke up and immediately noticed how empty the bed felt. She looked at the clock noticing it was close to 3 in the morning and reached over to find Kara's side was empty. Lena knew she had to talk to her wife, but she had looked so exhausted after Alex and Maggie left that she decided to let it go until the morning and the two had quickly fallen asleep. Lena got out of bed to find her wife and saw that the light in the main room was on. She pulled on her sweater and went out into the main room. Not seeing Kara, she walked over towards the balcony and saw her wife sitting out on the chair out there. Lena had made sure that the apartment they had bought together had a balcony. For one it made it easier for Kara to come and go as Supergirl but also for moments like this. Lena knew that Kara sometimes liked to look up at the stars and even though the city lights made it hard to see all of the stars, some were still visible. She slid open the door and saw her girlfriend look up at her.

"Can't sleep?" Lena asked as she sat down on the chair with Kara.

"Yeah I thought I would come outside and just look at the sky for a little bit. I didn't wake you up did I?" Kara asked, and Lena smiled.

"No, I just woke up and noticed that the bed felt empty. Are you okay?" Lena asked as she cuddled into Kara's side and looked at her.

"Yeah why wouldn't I be? I have everything I will ever need right here," Kara said as she kissed Lena's forehead.

"Well I appreciate that, I just noticed this look you had during game night and I was a little worried about you," Lena replied.

"Yeah I just had a long week at work but I'm feeling better now," Kara said slightly smiling. Lena didn't really believer her but didn't want to push her, so she let it go for now. She knew that sometimes Kara needed some time to herself to process her emotions but also knew that the girl would bottle stuff up for too long as well. There was a fine balance between pushing Kara and making sure she didn't get too trapped in her own mind.

"Hey why don't you come back to bed," Lena said after a few minutes. She was starting to get cold and knew that the bed was more comfortable.

"Sure, I will come inside in a minute," Kara said as Lena nodded her head before she walked back inside and went back to the bedroom. Kara waited a few seconds before she looked up to the sky again. She stayed like that for another minute before she went back inside locking the balcony door and shutting off the light inside before she headed back into her bedroom. Lena was almost asleep again and Kara let Lena cuddle into her side. Lena was asleep a minute later and Kara just stared up at the ceiling lost in her own mind. She wasn't okay, not even close to it.