&& you never meant to let her slip
Right through your grasping fingers
&& it is so h a r d
Trying not to call out to her every day
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You don't want to see someone else by her side
You just really can't s t a n d it
She was yours once upon a time
Well not any more.
:-:
Maybe you thought it would be
Some sort of F a i r y t a l e
But that's where you were just
kidding yourself
And it bloody stings.
:-:
It was your own fault though
You started it all back up again.
&& you know just how much
Pain you have caused her
It makes you feel so s i c k
So tired of letting her down
Because you neverever wanted to.
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&& even though you have decided
You really just want to turn back the clock
To take back those things you said
Those p r o m i s e s that you made
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If you had just left her alone
Never given her that bright s p a r k of hope
Maybe now she wouldn't be so desolate
And you hate that woman
The one keeping you from her
Because if it wasn't for her you wouldn't
Have had to hurt her so much.
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You cannot b e a r that pain in her eyes
You just want to take it all away
You need to keep that final promise though
She said that she understood
It was to keep them s a f e
But H e l l you want to throw c a u t i o n to the wind.
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But you won't
Because it's not just the two of you now
&& you hate that you've had to separate them
It had to be done you tell yourself
Doesn't make a n y t h i n g better though
It still hurts. It still stings.
:-:
So you'll m i s s her every day
Every day you'll want to take her in your arms
Promise her you'll never leave again
Tell her that it's all okay
You can't though.
:-:
You'll wake to that other woman
The one you never really wanted
The feelings of mutual respect will disintegrate
She's keeping you from her
&& you hate her for it.
:-:
It's your own fault though
&& you know that
It kills you
You never wanted to give her this pain
You never want to make those promises
The ones you can't keep.
:-:
So you try to keep the last promise
You watch her from the shadows
Her b r o k e n heart not obvious
To anyone but you.
:-:
You don't call out
&& soon you try not s e e
But whenever you close your eyes
She's right there
Dancing to the tune that's completely her own.
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Okay first attempt at free verse.
What do you think?
Also those that are reading Corridors && Secret Passageways
What do you think?
I don't think I really gave you any clues.
I hope you like it.
Kerr X